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Afternoon Delight

Published on August 10, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, bondage, cunnilingus, cunt, dp, gang bang, horny, kink, masochism, masturbation, needle play, nipple clamps, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, pillow princess, porn, restraints, sadism, sex, sex toys, shio, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

I started getting a little blue on Sunday afternoon. I was supposed to have time alone with MasterDoc, filled with cuddles and hopefully some kinky sex. Instead I was helping him figure out how to put mp3 files on his Palm Pre. Ever astute, he picked up on my mood and asked what was wrong. I told him and he set to fixing the problem right away.

We cuddled a bit in the bedroom and I told him that I was feeling really passive. (Sometimes I just want to be teased and tormented and not taking such an active role. In the past this has gotten me called a pillow princess, but lately I’m much more active so I can get away with this now and then) This worked out because he was already planning to tie me down to the bed (via the under the bed restraints). He made sure the lines were pulled tight so my arms were spread as wide as possible. I was truly helpless. He blindfolded me.

He licked my clit for a while, something that feels divine. He teased me with a vibrator, and after inserting it to stimulate my g-spot, he licked my clit some more until he made me come (giving permission for the orgasm of course).

He left the room for a few minutes. I of course remained where I lay since I couldn’t move at all. He returned with some ice which he used on my clit. He took a phone call during this, and I was left to stifle my cries as he teased my cunt some more with the bitterly cold ice. I don’t like being cold! Applied to my pussy for too long it hurts.

He had talked about play piercing and I was nervous he’d follow through on the idea of nipple piercing. (And wouldn’t you know it, I was scared of that but my body gave me away by twitching in arousal when he spoke about it.) He felt my body, searching for the right place to put a needle or two. He came to my inner thighs and said that’s the spot. I’m freaked out as my inner thighs are incredibly sensitive. I dreaded a needle going through the flesh there. He swabbed my left inner thigh with an alcohol wipe and grabbed a hold of a chunk of flesh.

I could have sworn he was putting a needle in, and I cringed appropriately. But he had the last laugh. He had just pinched my thigh with his hand – he didn’t use a needle. But I was so psyched up into thinking “piercing” that he didn’t need to actually do it for me to feel the sensation. Pretty wild and an excellent mindfuck.

Next he put nipple clamps on and left the room. I was turned on by the fact of my utter helplessness and the fact that he can inflict pain on my body if he chooses. That’s power.

When he returned he fucked me while I was tied down. I couldn’t get my legs apart as much as usual since my ankles were cuffed to the edges of the bed, but he managed to fuck me quite well (albeit not quite as deep as usual). As I came, he choked me a little during orgasm. No real air constriction, but a firm hand at my throat. Fuck, that made it hotter. I was a happy puddle afterward. (And had a puddle of girl cum under my ass too.)

He untied my arms and gave me some aftercare. Next he had me suck his cock for a while, and I reveled in it and fantasized about dirty things like being fucked from behind with clover clamps on while gagged. I never ask for the clover clamps – they hurt like a motherfucker! While I was fantasizing about him inflicting more pain on me, he gagged me on his cock. I’m thrilled that he does that pretty often lately. We’ve both found something new we enjoy. He had me get on top of his hard cock for a ride. He teased me with a long, slow fuck. He made me come for a long, languorous time. I had to lay down to rest after, and could have easily fallen asleep.

But wait, there’s more! I told him my fantasy from earlier. He put on the clover clamps right after mentioning that I probably couldn’t handle them for the entire time he fucks me. He gave me permission to remove them if I needed. I wore them longer than one would think I could manage. I was kneeling at the end of the bed with the clamps biting into my nipples as he fucked me. I don’t know what it is, I guess it’s my masochism, or need to submit, but there’s something erotic about knowing he can hurt me – that he has the authority to make me hurt. He has the authority to fuck me while he makes me hurt. Damn that’s hot. I ended up pulling off the clamps mid orgasm. And I squirted some more on the throe. (That thing desperately needs a cleaning now.)

He got hard again and had me ride him another time. I wasn’t sure that I had the stamina at that point, but his cock feels so good it kept me going. He squeezed my boobs hard, which doesn’t feel as good as nipple pinching would. He made me come again, and a little later, again.

I was spent, but MasterDoc had yet to come. He put on some porn, and I gave him a prostate massageas he stroked his cock. He was laying on his side, which usually puts me off kilter in regards to finding his prostate, but I’ve gotten better at feeling that little “walnut” texture of the gland to find it. I was distracted by the porn myself, as the storyline of the maid who is then gang banged by the dinner guests and the butler turned me on immensely. I was just dying to be the center of a few men at that moment. I focused enough on making him feel good to get him to shoot a big load. (The throe was a complete cummy mess by this time from him and me.) Since I was thoroughly enjoying the slutty porn he told me I could continue watching and he gave me permission to make myself come. I grabbed my Gigi as my preferred masturbating hand had just been in his ass (and we don’t want a vaginal infection to result). I rubbed the vibe on my clit for just a few moments. While watching the woman get double penetrated while sucking a third guy’s cock, I made myself come hard.

I finished watching the video, and MasterDoc came back in the bedroom. He asked if I had decided not to masturbate, but I said that no, I had come already.

What an entirely amazing afternoon.

The Science Fiction T-Shirt and Squirting

Published on July 15, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anxiety, edge play, horny, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, orgasm on command, piss play, porn, sex, sex toys, shio and squirting. 1 Comment

MasterDoc and I adjourned to the bedroom. DeeDee had an important email to attend to, so she went off to handle that. MasterDoc selected the porn for a change – he does from time to time but he expects me and DeeDee to have porn selected from one of the various free porn sites ahead of time. He selected some German piss porn. Ack. It’s funny because the opening scene was innocuous enough. I joked that this is worse than porn with a storyline usually is – it was porn with a storyline in German! I had no idea what they were saying. So when the guy goes up to the woman behind the desk in the office, I was surprised (is dismayed a better word perhaps?) that he takes out his dick and starts pissing on her. She acted like it was just the hottest thing ever and I felt so grossed out. MasterDoc wants that to be me someday, but ack, I find piss play gross.

He had me use my nea to warm myself up, but whenever I looked at the porn (which included pissing in mouths – both him pissing in her mouth and the reverse) I felt distinctly turned off. He came over to sit next to me and sucked on a nipple a bit. I complained that the porn was turning me off. That I don’t get how anyone could find piss erotic. He said it has to do with the humiliation of it – but the woman in the video didn’t seem at all humiliated. She seemed happy. I ended up closing my eyes or looking away so I could become aroused as the nea buzzed on my clit.

I glanced over at the porn and saw the woman giving the guy a blow job. I watched tentatively, afraid that he would start pissing in her mouth. Indeed, he did. MasterDoc pointed out that that’s coming soon between us, and I got more squicked and anxious than usual – probably because I know his doing this to me is imminent. He suggested that I could welcome him home after his trip this week by having him piss in my mouth. (Yuck!) I’m truly freaked out by this. Yucky, yucky, yucky!

He fucked me from behind and I had the damndest time getting fully aroused as I kept having anxious thoughts about the piss play. I did manage to block it out and come at his command. The throe was in the laundry, so MasterDoc grabbed his nearby Science Fiction Museum t-shirt and put it under me as I started to squirt. It absorbed most of the squirting. He says now whenever he wears that t-shirt he will think of my pussy. I point out that this is appropriate as I bought it for him while I was in Seattle. “You should put that on the blog!” he said, “Now when people see a guy with a Science Fiction Museum t-shirt they’ll wonder, “Could that be MasterDoc?” (And as I write this, I wonder if Coy Pink will get a giggle as she was there with me when I bought that shirt.)

Next he selected porn that I like, something that we’ve watched but as usual I only saw a bit of it since I got distracted by orgasms. I loved the parts with her choking on cock. I keep hoping MasterDoc will do more of that with me. It seems lately that I want things rougher than he does, or rougher than he feels comfortable or turned on giving. I don’t know. I pressed up against him and watched the porn too. I was slid up a bit high on the bed to play with his ass, but I stroked his hair and his back. I started getting really worked up and I breathed heavily into his ear. While helping him come usually involves me being really hands on, this time I slid a hand between my legs and played with myself while rubbing my body against him and moaning in his ear. This worked – he came and shot a load all over the bed. I could have come at the same time, had he given permission, but he didn’t realize that until it was just slightly too late. We cuddled for a bit, and he went off looking for DeeDee. (She had been expected to join us, but her tummy was upset so she wasn’t in the mood.)

I lay in bed, still horny, still having gotten up to an orgasm but not completed it. I realized that I have two times per week when I can masturbate, and dammit, I decided to do that. I pulled on my nipples and slid a hand down to my cunt. I added some lube as too much friction is no fun (for me). I rubbed my clit furiously with my right hand, and then held the top of my labia apart with the other hand to get at the clit better. I teased myself a little bit, especially since I had a small hope MasterDoc would walk in on me. I made myself come, squirting a bit on the towel we had put down over my previous squirting. It was such a relief to come! I continued on a bit, then went to join DeeDee and MasterDoc in the living room.

A little later, I mentioned to MasterDoc what I did – and he said, “Wow, that’s hot! For that you get an extra round of masturbation this week while I’m gone.” Yipee!

Simultaneous Orgasm

Published on May 17, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, anxiety, horny, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sex and spanking. 0 Comments

A busy weekend precluded me from blogging about my Friday night spent with MasterDoc until now. Going out had been the plan originally, but neither of us was feeling up for it. DeeDee had dinner with us and we hung out on the sofa for a bit. MasterDoc merely reached over at one point, stroked her pussy (as best I could see) and she came pretty much instantly. Impressive.

While MasterDoc bathed, I worked on getting porn on his laptop. I had been remiss in finding a porn clip to have handy for the next time we fooled around and I was trying to fix that by finding something while he was in the bath. He called me in for some help, and I let him know what I was doing. He told me that I should find one usual porn, and one with Ron Jeremy in it. Why (on earth) Ron Jeremy you ask? MasterDoc has been told he looks like Ron Jeremy, particularly years ago when MasterDoc had a pornstache. I have resisted this comparison for the longest time. “Ew! No! You are not like Ron Jeremy!”

I think MasterDoc is far cuter than Ron Jeremy, but yes, they are both chubby Jewish guys with big cocks born in New York in the same year. Okay, okay. There’s some similarity, as much as I hate to admit it. Particularly in general build.

DeeDee and I watched for a bit until MasterDoc came in from his bath. I might have been able to see Ron as charismatic like MasterDoc if not for the fact that the women were sooooo faking it. Before it dawned on me that they were clearly faking, I did start to wonder if, perhaps like MasterDoc, Ron Jeremy is actually a good lay.

MasterDoc and I retired to the bedroom while DeeDee went to hers. (She had had numerous orgasms in the afternoon courtesy of a gentleman friend.) Of course my anxiety closet isn’t full enough, that night I started getting anxious over how quickly DeeDee came. I started to worry that I was somehow inferior and “more work” since it took me longer to warm up and come. MasterDoc reassured me, shared a story of DeeDee having anxiety over not being like me, and I did my best to relax and trust that it’s really not anything to get upset about. He loves us both just as we are.

We watched some kinky Japanese porn I had picked out and each warmed ourselves up. (I had been hoping for some foreplay. Luckily I was pretty horny anyway.) He fucked me from behind. First he teased me with his cock around the entrance to my cunt and I kept trying to push back onto it. When he slid his cock in I let out a gasp. He fucked and teased me for a long, long time. He knows to vary the pace so he keeps me on the edge of coming. He spanked my ass from time to time. I’m aching to come when he starts sounding worked up enough to actually come himself. (MasterDoc coming during intercourse is a very rare occurrence.) So I put off asking for my orgasm for a while longer, but also feeling that much more worked up knowing he might come while his cock is inside me. I was frenzied and working so hard to not come yet, to not beg for release.

And, hallelujah, after a little more time he began to come. And then told me to come. I came extra hard knowing that he was coming too. He kept fucking me as I came. After, I was exhausted but so very happy. When he and I can come at the same time it’s a special thing.

Thankfully, he didn’t make me lick the come out of the condom. But that’s one of those icky things I’m sure he will make me do someday.

Hot Sex (and nary a penis in a vagina)

Published on March 31, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, happy, masturbation, orgasm on command, porn, shio and squirting. 1 Comment

Sex is so much more than standard, heterosexual intercourse – even for a heterosexual coupling. MasterDoc is taking his ritalin more often these days (as prescribed, he has attention deficit disorder) and a side effect of ritalin is that it can inhibit erections. It doesn’t always, but he forewarned me that he will take it more regularly (for various reasons) and so I might not get so much penis-in-vagina sex. While I love p-i-v, there’s much more that can be fun.

I wasn’t sure what we were going to get up to on Tuesday night. I mean, I’m never really sure as it’s up to him. I put in an instead cup just in case since I had my period. Ultimately, we ended up watching porn on the laptop on the bed and masturbating at the same time. He had gotten started while I was in the shower, and he was on the verge of coming but thankfully realized how sad I would be if he was done before I even started. He held back, and I managed to catch up after a little while. (He’s good to me.)

He looked over at me playing with myself, and my eyes were closed. “Are you not interested in the porn?” he asked.

“Oh I am, it’s just that I was… concentrating on… other things…”

“Like?”

“Like how good I was making myself feel,” I said shyly. I had worked myself up playing with my clit. A short while later, he turns to me and tells me to come. Within seconds I’m orgasming hard, squirting (hoping with the vaginal contractions that I don’t push out the instead cup) and off in another world. He knows that I tend to tense up around my upper chest and shoulders during orgasm, and that soreness from that can cause me to stop coming prematurely, so as I was by his feet he used a foot to hold my chest down. And I came harder. He then threw some real Dominance in there and put his foot on my head. God, it was hot being under his foot. It’s just so symbolic of being submissive to someone.

He had me lube up my ass and face away from him on hands and knees and work a toy into my ass to prepare it for his cock. It has been a while since we’ve done anal and I was looking forward to it. Alas, I grew terribly uncomfortable in the half-squatting position I had to be in to reach back to put the toy in my ass. The anal never happened.

We ended up taking a break. I got some fruit to eat and he had an Edy’s frozen fruit bar. I finished my bowl of fresh strawberries before him and hung out on the bed. I noticed that a bit was going to drip off his ice pop onto the bed, and as I was saying, “That’s going to drip!” I threw out my hands and caught the melted bit of ice pop in my hand. We grinned at how on the ball I was and I pointed out: “That’s a 201 level sub skill – watching your Dom’s ice pop for drips then catching them with your hands.”

We laughed over this. A few minutes later he pointed out a 301 level skill he would like me to work on: when his snack is going to take longer than mine, I should think of what things I could get done around the house while he finishes. (Such as, empty out the dishwasher.) I said, “Yes, Sir” and filed it away for future use. This should go in the butler’s book DeeDee and I are starting soon.

Later, we did more of the same and again I came suddenly when he told me to – even though I was NOT on the verge of coming. He really can inspire orgasm in me much easier now than ever before. I squirted copious amounts that night. Thankfully I had put down my throe.

MasterDoc still hadn’t come after all that, and he told me to get behind him to help. I played with his ass and pressed my naked body up against him. It was such a turn on to turn him on and I really got into it. I sat up after a few minutes and worked my hands more firmly on his buttocks in that slow, firm way he likes. I grabbed some lube and lubed up his ass and my finger, and slowly worked a finger inside him. I think for the first time I identified the prostate (although he could very well dispute me on this when he reads this). I felt a bumpy spot just within finger’s reach and played with it – pressing, stroking, thinking about what I like having done to my g-spot. (Did you know that when a woman squirts it’s female prostatic fluid? Yes women have a prostate (more commonly called Skene’s gland). I learned this from an Em and Lo DVD series on Sex that I’m in the middle of reviewing.)

Whatever I was doing, it seemed to work for him and he came. I gently worked my way out of his ass, pressing along his perineum.

I was satisfied and we had both come – and no penile insertion had happened. But it was just as hot as if we fucked.

Simultaneous Orgasms and Blow Jobs

Published on March 24, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, kink, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sex toys, shio, squirting, submissive and threesome. 2 Comments

On Monday night, I hung out with MasterDoc and DeeDee. It was her last night before heading home. The three of us had lots of laughs – particularly when we compared notes as to what MasterDoc does to each of us. We also came up with the idea of creating a butler’s book – a book with notes about how MasterDoc likes things, and what needs to be done, that we could both contribute to. (The term being taken from the books that butlers used to keep track of household information.) While this idea was quite funny, it’s also pretty practical. DeeDee is still early enough in her relationship with him that it feels like she has to learn something new multiple times a day, whereas I’ve been with him longer and I have more of a store of knowledge. My entries in the book could help her out.

MasterDoc lounged on the couch and had us do something he had been talking about for quite a while – he had us take turns blowing him and snuggling. One of us would be sucking him off while he petted and talked to and kissed the other. So the one giving the oral would be fairly objectified. I found myself working even harder than usual, with the thinking that if I did a good job I’d gain attention. I sucked more than usual, played with his surrounding body even more than usual. We took turns for a while but unfortunately it’s not true that we could go on indefinitely by taking turns.

I had selected the porn that played on the television. The first rough sex clip I chose seemed a little too real – very unsettling and like the guy in it really does hate women rather than just liking it rough. I opted instead for a clip I had seen before and liked a great deal. The video really seems to fit the most basic components of my fantasy life – being “forced” to do something, being used, and gradually getting into it and loving it. I love this clip because the actress seems to be truly enjoying herself. Yes, I am a dirty perv. But MasterDoc and DeeDee both approved of the selection.

MasterDoc let us take a break and we lay on the mat on the living room floor. We had our choice of various toys he had told me to bring in, and there was a tense moment asking who would get the one and only magic wand. (MD said he really needs two. Both DeeDee and I offered to bring our own from home.) DeeDee offered that I could choose and selfish one that I am I went for the magic wand. I’m glad to say, however, that I had brought in the nea as well and I know that she likes that toy. MasterDoc had both of us masturbate on the living room floor. He was able to relax on the sofa while verbally instructing us. He made sure we were both ready to come and told us to. We orgasmed simultaneously and for an extended time. MasterDoc told us after that it was really hot to watch, and I can only imagine. Watching one woman come is hot, watching two do it at the same time? Whew.

We relaxed and watched some more porn and I started to play with myself again, this time manually. As I get increasingly intense at rubbing my clit, MasterDoc notices and points out that I’m looking to come again. He asks DeeDee if he should let me. I honestly don’t remember her response but ultimately he did let me come. I squirted both times I came, and the cover to the Liberator escape had to be washed. (Thank you for washing it, DeeDee!)

MasterDoc had us get back to sucking his cock. While I lavished oral attention on his dick, he seemed to be talking DeeDee towards another orgasm. He makes her come while playing with herself and she doesn’t seem to hear him when he tells her to “take it down,” meaning to slowly decrease and stop the stimulation and stop coming. He says it again and this time she hears and reluctantly stops coming.

Cuddles and aftercare took place on the floor mat. MasterDoc ultimately decided he wasn’t going to come that night, but I think overall the three of us had a wonderful time. I know I did.

“I want to be your dirty whore.”

Published on March 23, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, humiliation play, kink, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, piss play, porn, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking and squirting. 2 Comments

This past weekend I shared my time with MasterDoc with DeeDee. There’s sometimes bumps in the road of poly – unintentionally hurt feelings. But thankfully DeeDee is so easy to talk to, so we always talk things out and resolve them. I like her lots and I’m glad she’s in MasterDoc’s life (and mine).

But since we were sharing, we each made sure to have something other to do for at least one evening. Saturday night I went over to my friend DivaSub’s place and watched movies while DeeDee and MasterDoc got some alone time. On Sunday, it was my turn.

MasterDoc teased me and then pushed me to orgasm with the magic wand. Lately, I find myself wondering if I should really keep coming as long as he lets me. It’s like he wrings every last orgasm out of my body, and I love it. Rolling from orgasm to orgasm is amazing, and I get a kick out of it when I hear him chuckle sometimes as I writhe around in ecstasy. Strong, prolonged orgasms are as good as drugs. I think if I could have a long orgasm session with MasterDoc as needed while I’m battling PMS I could skip the benzodiazepine that I generally take to keep me calm when I’m particularly anxious.

The orgasms were so amazing that even though I can always go for more sex, I would have been quite happy with just that. However, we played for much longer.

I sucked his cock, getting it hard, thrusting it down my throat as far as I can. He gagged me on it a little and I find that lately I’m really turned on by roughness. The porn I watch is almost exclusively rough sex porn lately, and I have fantasies I hope to play out of being “forced” into sex with MasterDoc.

I guess I did a good job sucking his cock as he had me get on my knees at the edge of the bed. He fucked me standing up. I moan and drool and bite my thumb as he fucks me. I try to keep my arousal at the edge of peaking and it’s something that’s both wonderfully pleasurable and really difficult to do. While I’m thankful that he lets me come at the end, I’m also thankful that he makes me wait for it. I came and squirted. He stroked my body as I convulsed and he slid himself on top of me. He pressed his thigh in between my legs and told me to come once more and upon hearing his words I came, squirting against his leg.

By this time of the evening, I’m an interesting mix of satisfied, tired, and highly aroused. It seems the more sex I get, the more I want. This reminds me of the time I kept a friend with benefits up til 4 a.m. fucking and he had to cry uncle because I was hoping to go for one more round.

MasterDoc put on some piss porn. This porn consisted of a woman sucking hard on a guy’s cock while he peed in her mouth. I don’t know how she managed it, but in a strange way it was hot. I realized that the idea of being his dirty whore is hot. If asked, I would have denied that the porn was turning me on, however my body gave me away – MasterDoc noticed that I would twitch slightly every now and then. As we watched, I helped him come by playing with his asshole. After massaging his anus I gently worked a lubed finger in. I pressed against his prostate (or as close as I could get) and also on his perineum. This seemed to have a great effect. Even after he shot his load I continued making him twitch with gentle pressure in his ass until he told me to stop.

So I was fixated on the idea of being his dirty whore – I craved him doing something dirty and repulsive to me because I wanted to submit to him that deeply. He must have noticed my mood and he had me go into the bathroom and prepare myself for being pissed on. I tried running hot water to warm the tub up, but it unfortunately didn’t work much. The tub was horribly cold as I lay down in it and played with my clit. He stood over me and spoke teasingly, helping get me to the edge. I had permission to come when I felt his piss hit my body. He pissed all over my chest and belly while I came hard. It seemed like he pissed an extra long time, and an usually large quantity. But then I doubt I’ve really been in so close contact with the quantity a human typically pees until I experienced water sports.

After, I was happy and dazed and asked him if I could wash off. He let me wash off right away.

We had had a full, hot evening but as we watched more porn on the laptop, he decided he wanted to come once more. He jerked off as I rubbed one out. Coming is so easy when I’m that primed. We came at the same time and I loved it.

Rough Porn

Published on February 14, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, edge play, gags, horny, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sadism, sex, sex toys, slut and submissive. 2 Comments

He asked if I wanted it long and slow, or short and fast. I said slow, hoping for a long evening of kink. He had that serious domly look in his eyes, the one that makes me oh so hot. He had me sit up so he could play with my tits. He’d look me right in the eye and then twist a nipple to watch the look on my face as it hurt. In the background we had rough sex porn running, and I was insanely wet already. I know it’s so wrong, and I know that extreme stuff can make people uncomfortable (because of its resemblance to some very bad things) but Jesus, watching a woman get her face fucked makes me so hot and so want to be in her place. I want to be roughly handled, gagged on his cock. I want to be a drooling mess.

He tried out the new dental gag I bought, it was really hot for the humiliation aspect of it, as i sat there with my mouth wide open. (It’s a Jennings dental gag, but without the strap like the one on this page.) It’s a shame I didn’t drool but I found my mouth growing dry instead. My tongue was exposed for him to see and it felt naked without teeth and lips to hide behind.

MasterDoc grabbed the magic wand, and he pressed it to my clit. My eyes would flicker, then close and I’d be lost in my ever increasing arousal. It flooded me, flooded my senses. I would come so close to coming and he would stop. And the fact that he was controlling my arousal and eventual orgasm made it even hotter. He teased me for a bit and I was lost in his intense eyes. Him being in control makes me so hot.

He had me remove the gag. Not only was my mouth dry but he was concerned that I’d break a tooth if I came with it in. We watched more porn, and I loved how the porn actress played the part of someone who’s surprised at the rough treatment she’s getting and oh dear how scared she is! I can get hot off of it if I can tell it’s play. I so desperately want to act out a scene like that with MasterDoc. I want to play scared, and let myself get into the role and feel scared. I want him to take me roughly, slap me about, push me down. I want him to piss on me. I want him to use my body in delicious and horrible ways. I was actually disappointed when he got up to go pee last night and didn’t decide to piss on me. I want to be passed around to various people for them to use my body.

He worked my Njoy plug into my ass and I stroked my wet clit and breathed heavy. I was so aroused. There was no hiding it. No hiding my sexuality. No hiding how much I wanted it.

He fucked me from behind with the stainless steel plug in my ass. I felt so full and having both holes filled like that was amazing. Oh god I wanted to come! Being fucked like that was so hot, I could feel him play with the plug in my ass. The only thing that could have improved that wonderful scenario is if another cock was available to go into my mouth at the same time.

In the porn, the actress is fucked up the ass by one man, while she’s being gagged on the cock of the other. Fuck. I want to experience that.

My knees gave out, so I had to crawl down onto the mat. After a breather and returning to my wits, I turned towards MasterDoc and played with his chest. I lusted after him so completely.

But alas, he wanted a snack. (And you can tell that this is a true story and not erotica, because the Dom doesn’t stop for a snack in the middle of an erotica piece.) I lay on the living room floor (we had been on the mat, you see) and watched the porn continue playing on the television. Seeing that woman being used and fucked and slapped around made me so hot. I’m sure MasterDoc could hear my moaning from the kitchen as I furiously stroked my clit. He came back in with some food and told me that I could make myself come if I wanted to.

So I focused on the porn and rubbed my slick clit until I came. To help me come, he held down my shoulder with his foot as best he could. The combination of hot porn, rapidly rubbed clit, being held down a little, and being under his foot led me to an explosive orgasm.

After all that expended energy, I needed a break, myself. A little later he decided that he wanted to come. I was slightly disappointed as I craved more fucking. But I played with his ass like he told me to and I grew more aroused knowing that he wanted to come in my mouth. When he was close to coming , I moved around to the front of him and placed my mouth right by the tip of his cock. I put his cock in my mouth as he came and then slid it further into my mouth to suck on the shaft. This kept him twitching with pleasure and it was so hot. I held his come in my mouth like he likes, and he told me to dribble it out onto the towel under me. I let it drool out and he was happy. I felt like a dirty slut and it felt so good.

I could have gone on all night fucking. I feel like something’s awakened in me that hasn’t been awake in years. I can’t remember going all night fucking for a very long time.

Threesome Weekend

Published on January 31, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunt, exhibitionism, flogging, kink, masochism, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, poly, porn, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, swinging and threesome. 2 Comments

I think I’ve turned a new corner with polyamory. DeeDee is visiting MasterDoc and I spent some time with both of them this weekend, and I finally realize that being poly can include having a fabulous time with both your partner and one of their other partners. I’ve always been fond of DeeDee, but I was a bit possessive of time with MasterDoc. But this weekend, the three of us went to a club Friday night and hung out at MasterDoc’s on Saturday and I wouldn’t have changed it for the world.

We were supposed to go to a kink party that all of us were looking forward to, but the party host had to change the date in his struggle to find a good venue for the party. MasterDoc was having a bad day but I managed to convince him that we should go out anyway. He started the evening grumpy but in short order he was in a better mood. How could he not be with two lovely ladies eager to go out and fuck in public with him? He took us out to dinner at a pub near the swing club.I have a great time laughing with them both and it’s wonderful to hang out with people who you can be yourself with. I can be a kinky slut and it’s not considered a bad thing, not at all.

At the club, MasterDoc started the night with paddling me. I seem to be enjoying harder spankings these days. The only down side? A guy who was too aggressive and space invading. He’s an older man (in his 60′s or so) and he and his wife are often at the club. Now, if he were charming and kind I might just be persuaded to be interested in him despite the age difference. However, he is pushy. And when I climbed on the spanking bench he moved over to be right by where my head would be. Back the fuck off! I gave him such a nasty look. He moved after that. He kept making comments, and sitting too close, and humming incessantly to draw attention to himself. MasterDoc told him to leave at one point and the man didn’t. MasterDoc had to talk to him again when he was trying to talk to me while DeeDee got spanked. Had the guy touched me, he would have gotten a right telling off – even with my collar on. Fucker couldn’t take the hint that I was totally, and obviously, not interested.
But back to the spanking…. When I could block out the idiot, I enjoyed the hard long spanking MasterDoc gave me. He had DeeDee hold the vibe to my clit and I enjoyed the combination of spanking and vibe. (Although we need to give DeeDee a little more instruction on exactly where to put the vibe.)

After my spanking came DeeDee’s spanking. MasterDoc had her suck his cock while she lay over the spanking bench. I settled down on the bed and placed pillows between myself and the pushy guy sitting on the other end. I did my best to ignore him. I played with myself with a vibe while watching the spanking. MasterDoc told me to use a vibe on DeeDee, and I got up and placed my bullet vibe on her clit on high. When I tease women I tend to be a bit relentless rather than teasing. I place the vibe right on her clit so that the vibrations quickly take her to the edge of orgasm. She had to hold back until she got permission from MasterDoc and I was grinning ear to ear while I drove her crazy. She came and the crowd in the room got quite a show. Her cunt was quite wet and consequently so was my hand.

We packed up, and MasterDoc was delighted to find that the big bed in the next room was now available. DeeDee goes to get water for us all while I suck MasterDoc’s cock. I like having an audience while I do this, I hope that the men in the room are imagining that I’m blowing them. DeeDee takes a turn and I unbutton MasterDoc’s shirt so I can stroke his chest. I think to nibble on his neck a bit and he clearly enjoys getting his cock sucked while I do this. The men around us had to be green with envy. This guy (MasterDoc) has two attractive women tending to his every need and making him feel amazing.

Next he toys with both of us. He sucks on my nipples while DeeDee massages his ass from behind. It’s all so decadent and hot. He gets us using toys on our clits. DeeDee gets revved up quickly. I take a bit longer since the pushy guy is humming loudly and ruining my concentration. MasterDoc bends down and licks my clit for a moment, and I can focus better on my pleasure after that. From his perch kneeling at the end of the bed between us, he verbally teases us, asking if we’re ready to come. This teasing usually serves to make me hotter, faster. He looks us straight in the eye in turn. He tells us to come at the same time. I can only imagine how cool it must have been to watch us come simultaneously. I squirted quite a bit. MasterDoc reached over and fingered me to make me come more, and louder. He then did the same for DeeDee. It was pretty impressive.

We cuddled after. I lay in my little puddle of come. We thanked MasterDoc simultaneously for the orgasms.

I was hoping to get fucked, but we ended up hanging out mostly after this. We ran into some people we know, and I got to talking with the slutty bartender, the one who gave quite a show squirting last time we were there. Apparently, she was hitting on me. MasterDoc pointed out after that she was actually playing with her pussy while talking to me and clearly wanted me to touch her. Doh. I was, as usual, completely oblivious. It’s really a low-self-esteem problem: I don’t think someone who has what is a culturally accepted body (i.e., slim and toned) would be attracted to me. Yes, I realize I need to work on that. No wonder I end up fucking so few women.

We called it a night early, but the next day there was much fooling around at MasterDoc’s. He put porn on his new large screen tv and we marveled at how up close and personal it seemed when played on that tv. The porn was exceptionally hot for vanilla porn – the women seemed to really be enjoying themselves. Watching people fucking who are into it is way hotter than watching someone who’s just doing it for the money and waiting for it all to be over.

The porn got us all worked up and MasterDoc fucked me from behind for a while. It felt amazing but my damn knees gave out. Eventually the pain in my knees blocked out my ability to enjoy the fuck and I had to ask to stop. I didn’t come then. We all lay on the mat on the floor and DeeDee and I massaged MasterDoc. Usually, he makes the point that we’re lucky to have him, but yesterday he actually came out with, “I am a very lucky man.” It felt wonderful to hear him acknowledge that. I think we’re all lucky.

Hunger won out over horniness and so we ordered lunch. Things shifted away from sex and we ended up watching Fiddler on the Roof on tv. After the movie, I started to pack up my things to go home since Saturday night was a night for DeeDee and MasterDoc to be alone. As I started to get dressed, MasterDoc said he had planned to give me a sybian ride before I went home. Well now, that was certainly enough to get me to take my clothes off again.

I rode the sybian while MasterDoc worked the controls and I leaned forward onto him. DeeDee got some practice in with the little flogger while I rode. At first, she missed me and hit the machine but after some coaching from MasterDoc she gave me a nice flogging. When I came, she pressed up against me and my clit came in even better contact with the vibrating sybian. I had such an amazing, extended orgasm from the two of them working me over. I had to collapse on the floor after.

When I had recovered, I got dressed and headed out. As I walked into the cold evening, I playfully exaggerated in my head the notion that I’ve been turned out into the cold, cold night, all alone. Oh poor me! And I laughed to myself, because even though we’re conditioned to think that’s the way it is, I really didn’t feel like that. Sure I had wanted to stay where it was friendly and warm, but I also want to make MasterDoc happy, and giving him space to hang out with other women makes him happy. Also, I was looking forward to an evening alone. The only negative to the evening was the possible domestic violence scene I could hear playing out from the floor below me now and then. I felt really unsafe while that was going on, and bewildered, and not sure what to do. (Do you call the police on your landlord, the man who could then throw you out? Particularly when you’re alone for the night and he’s a gruff bully?)

But when it was quiet, I had a lovely time by myself. I watched Gentlemen Prefer Blondes, a long time favorite movie, and was just tickled at how cool Jane Russell is.

Squirty Night

Published on January 23, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, blow jobs, exhibitionism, masturbation, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex parties, shio, slut, squirting and swinging. 0 Comments

There was an unusually large crowd at the swing club last night. This was undoubtedly down to the fact that a porn star, Tabitha, was visiting the club. (I hadn’t looked at her site before going there, but looking through it now I find a picture of her with Slut Momo, who I have had the pleasure of knowing for about a year now.) Of course she was swamped with men almost the entire time she was there. Later in the evening some of our swing/kink friends showed up and it turns out they already know Tabitha. I run in some very interesting circles. Mild mannered librarian by day, acquaintance and friend of porn stars and swingers by night. It’s like I’ve finally realized the slut that I’ve always wanted to be over the past five years or so. It’s a wonderful thing.

We peruse the place, and there’s actually some couples there for a change. While there were many single men, it didn’t feel as out of balance as it does most nights. Not that MasterDoc and I mind single men, they provide a wonderful audience for when we want to show off. I did notice that it seemed a bit more “meat market” than usual. I mean, yes it’s a swing club, people are there to find partners to fuck. But I noticed things like guys making appreciative noises as they walked past me, and another guy stroked my ass (unasked, I must add – guys, be polite and ask before you touch) as I walked by. I was talked to more often by interested guys. One guy came over to MasterDoc and I as we lounged on a bed, pointed to me and said, “That’s a wonderful thing.” MasterDoc didn’t immediately realize the man was talking about me. This atmosphere was both conducive to being slutty and a little uncomfortable as a woman. Somehow being objectified is hot if MasterDoc does it, but a bit uncomfortable-making if it’s some stranger. But on the other hand knowing that you’re one sexy bitch and many of the men there want you is a fantastic feeling. Day to day I feel really average, but in swing situations I realize that my horniness and sluttiness are extremely desirable traits, and I feel like I’m super sexy and hot despite having a chubby body.

I think I behave more shyly if I’m with MasterDoc than if I was at a party alone. When alone, I can pick up men at the drop of a hat and get fucked as often as I want. I was hoping to get fucked a lot last night – there were reasonably good looking men there, guys that didn’t creep me out. MasterDoc, of course, liked to tease me with the idea of fucking the guys who I wasn’t attracted to – the older guy with the petite Japanese wife (because MasterDoc wanted to do her, thankfully he noticed them as they were heading to the door to leave); the short, hairy deaf guy who is always there (he’s very nice, very friendly and I have no issue with his disability, but I don’t like men who are significantly shorter than me and hairy – on the back no less – yet bald), the short, enthusiastic Asian guy who works at the club who tells every woman he knows that she looks like she’s lost weight since the last time he’s seen her, myself included. (He reminds me a little of comedian Bobby Lee, that would be the thing I’d focus on if I was fucking him. Not that I want to fuck Bobby Lee, but at least then it’s someone who looks like a celebrity. In all fairness, even though I’m not into the guy there’s nothing inherently wrong with him.)

Alone, I would have had men swarming me which can be overwhelming and hot at the same time. But with MasterDoc I don’t do much flirting unless it’s a couple and MasterDoc wants to fuck the woman. It can be tricky being there in a D/s situation, as in vanilla swinging the guy has to talk to the woman and convince her to get it on with him, but in a D/s situation, he really should be addressing MasterDoc and asking him for permission. I demur when approached and don’t flirt with guys a lot. I’m not sure if this is ideal, but if I were to get someone interested and then MasterDoc wanted me elsewhere and not fucking that guy, that would be awkward.

He settled us on the large bed in one of the side rooms. He got himself comfortable in the middle of the bed and I sucked his cock while a crowd gathered. He’s particularly vocal about things feeling good when we have an audience; he certainly knows how to play to the audience to add to the scene. He called me whore and treated me like a dirty slut. I deep-throated him as much as I could to show how much I wanted to fuck him while his fingers were tangled in my hair. While my jaw grew tired I kept pushing myself to suck him well and put on a good show.

He had me put a condom on his cock and get on top. I pulled off my panties and left on my skirt, blouse and fishnet stockings. I slid his cock into me and he pulled my skirt entirely up so the crowd could see well. I rode him, rocking my hips front and back. He talked dirty to me and I loved it. He slaps my ass now and then and I reach the edge of climax. I rode and moaned and waited for permission to come. “Come whore!” he said and I came, quivering and shaking on top of him. I squirted a bit, but thankfully missed his shirt and pants somehow.

At one point, some guy slaps my ass too and MasterDoc was not having any of that. He told him off quickly and in no uncertain terms, “Keep your fucking hands to yourself!” That’s one of the many reasons it’s preferable to go out with MasterDoc than go out alone – he watches out for me and won’t put up with bullshit.

As we recover, me still straddling him and his cock still inside of me, I playfully squeeze my vaginal muscles. He likes how that feels and I try to milk his cock a bit with my pussy. He asks if I want to fuck again and oh yes I’m keen to do that! We fuck some more, and I come again. I am very happy and very satisfied afterward.

We get dressed again (shoes mostly as we kept much of our clothing on) and wander the club. Not much else happened for a while. Later in the evening some friends showed up and we chatted and laughed with them.

We rested on a bed in the exhibitionists’ room and I stroked MasterDoc’s chest while playing with my clit. I was hoping for more fucking but MasterDoc had very little sleep the night before (three hours!) so it wasn’t going to happen. Suddenly, the slutty bartender of the club comes over with an entourage of horny guys pulling their peckers. She sits on the bed opposite us and plays with her clit. She says, “You know what I’m going to do now, right?” to me and I instantly know she plans to squirt. I exclaim that I need to move our shoes out of the way. We watch her as the guys surround her stroking themselves. In no time flat she stands up, and starts squirting a heavy stream of come. One guy puts his hands underneath her and gathers a load of her juices into his hand and then drinks them up in one gulp. (Which I must admit shocked me a little from a safer sex point of view.) A couple of other guys just put their hands in the stream of her come. It was hot to watch and afterward she got the clean-up guy to come by with a mop so no one could slip on her puddle on the floor. (Can you imagine the insurance report for that? “How did you slip and fall, Sir?” “Oh, on a puddle of girl come on the floor.”)

We wrapped up the night early so MasterDoc could get some much needed sleep. Tonight there’s a couple coming over, so hopefully I will get some more fucking.

The Doctor Comes In

Published on January 19, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, happy, masturbation, orgasm on command, porn, sex, shio and squirting. 0 Comments

On the laptop was German porn. A pasty, middle aged “doctor” was preparing to give a hot young thang an examination. Apparently they didn’t have much of a budget for costumes – the “doctor” was merely wearing white pants and a white undershirt. I giggled a bit further into the film as the doctor kept saying, “Ja, oh ja, oh ja,” over and over again.

MasterDoc pulled my thighs apart and played with my pussy a bit as the video buffered. It felt good but I wasn’t wet yet. When the video was ready, he had me turn to watch it while he lubed up my asshole. Of course this led me to wonder if he was going to fuck my ass. You can never be sure with him. He applied a good amount of lube and fingered my asshole a bit.

Suddenly, he had me get on hands and knees for fucking. I put myself in position and he used some lube on my pussy. He sloshed his cock around and around the outside of my lubed cunt. He pushed in, and it was a bit dry further inside, a bit uncomfortable. But thanks to our D/s dynamic I kept focusing on how hot it was that he could just take me even with only minimal foreplay, that I was his to use as he saw fit. And soon I was wet and aroused.
Slowly, I slid into a reverie and moaned here and there when he’d thrust deep. Then I’d go quiet until the next time the stimulation was kicked up a notch. I moaned louder suddenly. He moved his cock around inside me, using his hips. I could feel it touch each wall and then he’d slam it into me again. This went on for a while, I just kept moaning out my pleasure and holding myself on the edge of orgasm. I was ready to come any time he told me to, but then, an unfamiliar sound comes out of him while we’re fucking. He grunted a bit, like he does when he comes. Usually a condom is such an impediment to him coming that he doesn’t come when we have sex. Could it be? Did he come? He fucks me a little more, stops and tells me to come. I come as he keeps his cock inside me. He pulls it out as I come to an end.

We lay down, and from his position beside me he says, “Guess what?” And I knew then that the unlikely had happened. I looked down and there was come in the condom. I gleefully kicked my legs as I can’t remember another time he came while we had sex. (He says that it happened early on, before I knew it was something unusual.) This wonderful event was probably brought on by a couple of things – going days without an orgasm was one, another was some medication he’s now on.

He teased me with the full condom, “Now it’s time to get your reward!” He opened up the condom and placed the end on my tongue. I stuck it out willingly when he told me to, but then he decided not to empty the contents onto my tongue.

He went to clean up. I still wanted more orgasms so I was stroking clit when he came in. He teased me about whether he would let me come again that night or not. He bit the back of my arm, stroked my body, and kept asking me if I wanted to come. I said yes! He teased me some more as I stroked my slick clit rapidly. I start to worry that he’s not going to let me come again until the next day, but then he tells me to come, and before I know what’s happening my body curls up slightly as I orgasm. The orgasm is strong enough that I stop moving my hand for a moment as the waves crash over me and come spurts out of my cunt. Then I gathered my wits and started stroking my clit some more and came further.

Oh I was happy. And I marvel at how well he has me trained to come. I find myself orgasming more from the sound of his voice telling me to than from being at an actual orgasmic peak at that moment. It would be interesting to come from even less stimuli – MasterDoc suggested maybe we work on that.