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Nice Guys Get Laid

Published on August 30, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bbc, bdsm, blow jobs, caning, exhibitionism, kink, orgasm on command, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, squirting, submissive, swinging and threesome. 3 Comments

I hadn’t been out to the club in a while. I was excited to be going out with MasterDoc and DeeDee even though I was feeling tired from the stressful and busy week as well as needy emotionally. (So what else is new with the last bit?)

Shortly after we arrived I became absorbed in a porn that was running – not so much because of what was happening, but because I think I had met the guy in it the week before. Tess met up with a pornographer before we went to In the Flesh, and I could have sworn the guy in the film was that guy. But of course they barely showed the guy’s face, so I didn’t get to convince myself entirely. I lead such an interesting life.

The club was having one of its usual “porn star” nights and Totally Tabitha was there – I think we had met her once before there. We got to talking with her and MasterDoc was very charming, while I got into teaching her about safer sex toy materials (what happens when a sex blogger meets a porn star, I suppose). I got to crush on this Latina I’ve met there many times and MasterDoc enlisted DeeDee and her exceptional social skills to help flirt with the woman at the bar for him. (DeeDee is gracious, friendly and can converse and get to know people easily. MasterDoc and I were the awkward nerds when younger – so while we’ve improved our social skills considerably we still don’t have the ease that DeeDee does.)

The mood at the club was pretty light. There were some socially inept, pushy guys there, but also polite, friendly ones as well. There was a good amount of women who are regulars (I so want to ask which ones are paid to be there – but I don’t want to make anyone feel uncomfortable.) I like how this steadfastly middle class, suburban woman (i.e., me) is comfortable with making friendships and acquaintance with whores, porn actors and the like. We all have a positive view of sexuality and don’t feel ashamed about it. I imagine so many people I work with or encounter day-to-day being judgmental about these women – I am glad that I have realized that they are human beings just like any other women. Working the sex industry does not make someone ‘bad,’ ‘dirty’ or ‘wrong.’ (Or stupid!) This country is so fucked up in regard to sex. Sex is necessary for the continuation of the human race! It feels good for a reason! Fucking someone is a way of being intimate with another human being – even if you’re not in an intimate relationship with them. Humans need physical contact with other humans. It doesn’t always have to be sexual, but sexual is one way it can be.

We settled in the back room after a bit – I hadn’t been there since they took down one wall to make the two rear rooms into one big one. The air conditioning for the entire place is in that room though, and it was fucking freezing in there. MasterDoc got the ac turned down and we were able to camp out in there for a bit. The early part of the evening is a bit fuzzy for me. The whole evening was rich with flirting, joking and general fun that I’m sure I will, sadly, miss some details here.

So we settled on the big bed and cuddled. I was feeling starved for cuddles. We all three agreed that we felt a bit emotionally off kilter and MasterDoc decided that it would be just us playing – no bringing in strangers. I felt much better after he declared that. A few single guys stood around the perimeter of the bed and I’m sure they were thinking, “When are they going to DO something?!”

Eventually we got started. MasterDoc had me move to his right, because for some reason he’s more comfortable having me there. And while it seems a little silly on the surface, I do appreciate the fact that he does it because he can keep me in his sight better. He really takes the aspect of Domming that includes taking care of me seriously. It’s not a control freak thing at all – and it doesn’t feel that way – it is simply something that makes him feel more comfortable.

He had DeeDee suck his cock and he reached down and played with her tits. I stroked his chest and things were finally moving along. MasterDoc made DeeDee come just by touching her and talking to her. It was spectacular to watch. Poor woman was embarrassed after, as well as spent, so she lay down next to MasterDoc for a while. Isn’t it awful that we live in a world where a woman who can come very easily and hard is made to feel ashamed of it? I’m sure the men loved it, but women are taught subtly from birth that “good girls don’t do that.” (Hell, I’m a good girl and I deserve to feel good! Fuck that shit.)

MasterDoc had me suck his cock for a bit, then he had me position myself so he could use the crop and cane on my ass. I was so in need of a beating I was thrilled for him to do it. I became really aroused from the pain that felt mostly manageable last night. He had me lay down so he could play with my pussy. He got some toys from DeeDee (both of us take turns being the assistant) and made me come – but it was somehow hard to get there. I don’t know what’s with me lately, I seem to have difficulty coming sometimes. I squirted a little bit. After the orgasms I needed to rest.

We got up and socialized some more, and MasterDoc was busy charming Tabitha. I could tell he was determined to fuck her, and I did whatever I could to help. They were going to go off to one of the rooms when we got distracted by talking to the cute Latina. MasterDoc begged off the conversation after a while, and I got the feeling that she was insulted. He made up for this shortly after by having her stroke his cock while Tabitha was busy with another guy. I joined them on the bed as DeeDee was talking to a polite, intelligent black guy – I felt safe leaving her there as he didn’t seem the non-consensual groping type at all (and I was right) but still he enjoyed talking openly about sex. I was hoping to get in on the Latina action although that didn’t quite happen. I did suck MasterDoc’s cock to get him ready for Tabitha, and the Latina talked about wanting to see me choke on his cock. We were working up to that when she got distracted. Boo.

Tabitha is clearly a woman who is comfortable with recreational sex (which I think is a great thing). She commented on the size of MasterDoc’s cock before fucking him and once he got his cock in her. He fucked her good and hard, I got horny watching and started to play with myself. MasterDoc encouraged me to help in some way, and I played with her clit through her panties a bit (the panties were just pushed aside for the fucking). She enjoyed a good, hard fuck and MasterDoc clearly enjoyed himself too. After, he joked that “fuck porn star” is off his list – I pointed out that we had fooled around with SlutMomo, so fucking a porn star was already checked off his list! He amended it to “fuck blonde porn star.” Check.

DeeDee and I ended up standing in the hallway a moment and she expressed frustration at not having more orgasms yet, and she wondered if MasterDoc would let her fuck the nice black guy she had been talking to. I told her she should definitely ask, and when she wandered off and MasterDoc came up to me, I took a moment to fill him in on her unmet needs and wants. See, I’m not always worried only about my sexual needs. I told him too that since I’ve been craving cock for days and missed out the two last times we fooled around, that I really longed for some penis-in-vagina sex. MasterDoc took control of the situation, checked in with DeeDee to see if she would be okay with someone else giving her those orgasms she needed (she was) and confirmed that she was interested in the guy (she was) and so the four of us ended up back in the bedroom again.

MasterDoc made DeeDee come by playing with her pussy, then he put the nice guy in charge of taking care of her. She came so much! The guy fucked her and the two of them seemed to thoroughly enjoy themselves. MasterDoc then turned his attention to me and gave me quite a fucking! I planted my head against the bed as he doggy-styled me. All sorts of moaning came out of my mouth as he took me towards orgasm. I was aware of the crowd around us, but kept myself separate and in my own head. He made me come so hard – and since starting testosterone his cock is a match for my vagina of steel – I don’t push his cock out nearly as often during orgasm. He kept pounding me and I kept coming.

After he said, “Babe, you’re a wild ride.”

I replied, “You are too, Sir.”

MasterDoc helped out Tabitha while the nice guy who had just fucked DeeDee fucked her – he gave her our orchid g vibe, with a condom on it, to use on her clit. After a while, the idea of putting it up her ass came about and the Latina helped lube up her ass well. They slid it in and he fucked her, feeling the vibe through the walls of her vagina. MasterDoc explained to him how he should massage his cock with the vibrating toy through the thin wall of flesh that lies between pussy and ass. He picked that up fast and seemed to love it.

I needed to get home to sleep so I could get up early, and the three of us were getting tired. It took a little while to pack up as we had to wait for our toy (would be pretty rude to just demand it back mid-fuck, no?) and then one of the regular ladies begged MasterDoc for a beating. DeeDee and I waited patiently while he helped her out.

It was an extremely fun evening! I don’t know why being a slut is so looked down upon – we have so much fun and pleasure! What is wrong with that?

Lucky Slut

Published on August 23, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunnilingus, gags, kink, non-monogamy, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, squirting, submissive, swinging and threesome. 0 Comments

My apologies for taking so long to write about this. I’ve had so much to do lately that I’ve just been too busy or exhausted to write. I did take some notes the day after this night of debauchery last week, so let me tell the story as if I actually wrote this the following day.

My muscles are sore today. Masterdoc and Lana, the lady who joined us all recently for “Using the Slave,” took turns using me last night. Of course I am a very happy girl today!

I was instructed that I had to crawl on the large mat in the living room – no walking except when I’m off the mat. He had me crawl over to him on the sofa and he put my ball gag in my mouth. (MasterDoc has been making a concerted effort to branch out and use some of the toys I keep hoping he’ll use.) The mat was set up with condoms, lube, a few toys and my strap-on.

I lay on the mat gagged as both touched me. With the gentle strokes over my body I would twitch. MasterDoc has trained my reactions so that I’m hyper sensitive – every nerve ending has become an erogenous zone. Lana is adept at touching gently but not too gently. I got the sense that my body was getting a workout simply from the muscle twitches that came from arousal. MasterDoc told me I could come at will for the duration of Lana’s visit. They took turns sucking on my nipples. Shortly after, Lana made me come by playing with my clit while he grabbed my hair. It’s so very easy to make me come sometimes.

MasterDoc removed the ball gag and let me have a drink of water. He had me get on hands and knees so he could fuck me. He fucked me silly while she grabbed my hair firmly and pulled my head back a little. The hair pulling intensified the fuck, although he was also pounding me exceptionally hard. I squirted as I came, and came, and fell to the mat after, short of breath.

MasterDoc sat in a chair and had me suck his cock while she fucked me with my strap-on. Unfortunately the angle was all wrong for the silicone cock to enter me. They put me on floor and he watched while she fucked me. The dildo kept sliding out of my clenching pussy, so she gave up after a while and used her fingers. MasterDoc took over fucking me and talked dirty about me being used by a bunch of guys, one after the other, some day. I was totally out of control with coming by that point. I went feral: grunting, screaming and panting. Orgasming becomes a control thing with MasterDoc and he can wring the orgasms out of my body like crazy. If he wants to make me come it’s pretty definite that I will come. Lana did a pretty damn good job making me come as well – she held my Gigi to my clit while he fucked me.

We relaxed, enjoyed some dessert and MasterDoc had to get ready for bed because he had work early the next morning. I joined Lana on the mat and she started stroking my body again and watching me twitch. She seemed to take great pleasure out of the way I’d convulse from her touch. She made me come more with her hands and then she went down on me. She was very, very skilled at it. (I thought to myself that this is why I prefer bi women over bicurious – they know what to do! I realize this isn’t a hard and fast rule, but having experience counts for a lot.) Lana made me come like crazy licking my clit, sucking it and using her arms to rock my hips a little while she did so. I had to ask her to stop finally because I was so tired. I have no idea how many times I came that night. I stroked her back and shoulders for a bit, making her feel good for a change. I really was spoiled that night, however, although MasterDoc had given Lana a sybian ride before I got home from work.

When we stopped, I needed to help MasterDoc with some things. I felt totally worn out and went to bed after getting him settled. Of course, I thanked our guest heartily before going to bed.

Bliss

Published on August 19, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, blow jobs, bondage, horny, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sex, sex toys, shio, squirting and sybian. 0 Comments

After a week of no sex and not seeing much of MasterDoc, I got to break my sexual fast on Tuesday night. As MasterDoc popped a half of a “happy pill” (in this case, viagra) he joked that when you’re still young and strong enough to break the pill in half, you only need a half. But if you get older and feeble enough to not be able to break the pill, you probably need the whole at that point!

We lay close on the bed in the playroom. (Yes, he has a bedroom devoted to sex. All my toys are in there.) He revved me up with just gentle touches to my cunt – just the outer labia. Very quickly he had me twitching and breathing heavy. My response times with him have gotten to be pretty amazing. There’s always times when my head is not in the right place, but as long as I can focus and relax I get aroused by any and all touches from him.

He had me suck his cock and get it hard and it was nice to get it after a week without. My jaw got sore earlier than usual that night, and I pointed out that it hadn’t been used that way in a week! MasterDoc joked that he will have to send over practice cocks for me to suck to keep me in shape when he’s busy.

I had finally taken the time to put out toys as “hints.” I had long resisted getting out anything but what he asked for, as I don’t want to top from the bottom. But after telling me various times that I can suggest things (I just shouldn’t expect that they will necessarily be used), I put out some hints. Anal beads. Flogger. Gag. He had me kneel facing away from him, and he lubed up and slipped in the anal beads. He slid them in only part way, and mentioned how he loves the way they look like a tail when only partially inserted. (Nice bit of humiliation play there.) He gradually slid in each larger bead in with long intervals in between. He decided to fuck me while it was still partly out and I could feel his cock fill my cunt up while the beads pressed in my ass. I was soon writhing and desperate to come. He pushed the final beads in very slowly and gradually. He held me in desperation for what felt like an eternity. It probably wasn’t long but when you’re on the edge of orgasm every nanosecond takes forever.

After fucking me and making me come (a whole lot), he left me in bedroom with the behind back cuffs attached to my neck only, and my Gigi. (I can’t find a link to the cuffs. May not be available any more from sextoy.com. They consist of a leather collar, a long leather piece that goes down your back and cuffs at the end of that to secure your wrists.) He told me to warm myself up and I masturbated happily. I teased myself and made myself feel good. MasterDoc came back in several minutes later and asked if I was ready to be fucked. I replied, “Yes Sir,” and he took me to living room.

There I found the sybian all ready to go. After getting it condomed and lubed up, he put me on it and then used the cuffs to restrain my arms behind my back. He sat in front of me and gave me a hell of a ride. He was teasing so much but meanwhile I was so turned on by the bondage that I became wildly aroused at a lower setting than usual. He told me I didn’t need to hold off on begging to come if it wasn’t his cock in side me. (He usually wants me to wait as long as possible to beg for permission when he’s fucking me.) I begged soon after for orgasm and he let me come. My head leaned against his chest and kept me from toppling over. The sybian was still on fairly low vibration but I couldn’t resist begging him to turn it up and it made me come again, this time harder and I squirted all over the machine. He kept me feeling like jello and spasming for a while. He turned it down, and told me to come down slowly. But then he turned it up a little and made me come again before turning it slowly off.

Needless to say I was tired, but very happy.

Using the Slave

Published on August 12, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, bondage, caning, consensual non-consent, cunnilingus, dom, exhibitionism, gags, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, piss play, restraints, sadism, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, submissive and wartenburg wheel. 2 Comments

I arrived at MasterDoc’s Tuesday night thinking I was going to have a night alone. He and DeeDee were planning on going out to something kinky (he wouldn’t specify) and even though I didn’t have to be at work until late the next day, he thought it best to just bring DeeDee. I was totally in an anti-social mood, so it was a bit of a surprise to find them both home when I got there – and that the people they were going to see were coming over. The situation was this: a Dominant has a slave he’s training, and as part of her training she was going to be used by a bunch of strangers.

The slave got to see me briefly as I came outside to help them bring their toys in from the car. They brought a large cage to keep her in. Her Master had her wait in the hall outside the apartment until the cage was set up, then he blindfolded her and brought her in. He spent some time alone with her in the bedroom where the cage sat and then left her in her cage for a little while. She was blindfolded with an elastic bandage.

He came out and spoke to the rest of us about what was planned. He had also brought along a switchy lady he had been talking to (who is really cool. I totally want to hang with her again). So there were four ladies and two men. (Cue the Beach Boys: “Two girls for ev-ry Dom!”) The evening started off with the rest of us being silent, so she couldn’t tell who was touching her or how many people there were. Their relationship is much more formal than mine and MasterDoc’s – he had her crawl around the whole time, she has specific positions she needs to get into on command. He seems to inflict more pain than I think I could take, but perhaps it was more the kinds of pain than how much? I’m not sure.

After he had her display herself (first position was kneeling up, legs spread, arms behind back, head back and mouth open, she looked lovely) we took turns groping her. MasterDoc was not shy and immediately went over to see how wet her cunt was. I needed a little waving forward from her Dom after MasterDoc finished, but I enjoyed her soft breasts and toyed with her cunt a little. I don’t know why I get so damn shy with women. The other lady then played with her.

The details are hard to follow as so much happened that night. I know I got a little cuddle from MasterDoc while the other lady fingered the slave. I stroked his back as he stroked his cock watching the slave get used. DeeDee also came over and played with him a bit.

When the lady was done, MasterDoc slipped on a condom and fucked her. Her Master told me to kiss her and so I made out with her while MasterDoc pounded her. (Kinda hard to keep kissing when she is moved around so much from the pounding.) The slave was an attractive lady, so it was definitely a pleasure to play with her. (I’d hang with any and all of the people involved again.)

The two Doms decided that the slave would eat me out, and so she went down on me. I actually pushed her head down a little as she was just above my clit. The other Dom played with my tits and MasterDoc did as well. I came – having been given permission to come at will – but not quite with the same intensity I come with MasterDoc. In fact, MasterDoc and DeeDee hadn’t realized I came! And if any two people would know what I look like during orgasm it’s them. But I not only came, I squirted. A couple of times. MasterDoc thought I was in a state of frustration, but I expressed that actually, I had had enough.

Her Dom bit my nipple so hard! I’m not used to prolonged strong biting. My nipples are pretty sensitive and we don’t do a lot of nipple torture. MasterDoc is fond of flicking my nipples with his fingers – which hurts, but not so much the other stuff. MasterDoc had been doing this flicking on her clit over and over earlier.

At some point, her Master had her masturbate in front of us. I watched her rub her clit and wondered when she’d be allowed to come. After a while, he gave her a toothbrush to masturbate with. Yes, she rubbed her clit (or just above it, more on the clitoral hood) with the bristles of a toothbrush. Ouch.

She was spanked a bit with an acrylic (I think) cane. MasterDoc spanked her as well. MasterDoc flogged her a little. She ended up going down on the other woman, and while her ass was in the air doing that MasterDoc fucked her. DeeDee jumped in and started playing with his ass, but the other Dom asked her to take more photos. (Yes, there are photos of this. No, I don’t think I will get to share any here.) As she used the camera I took over playing with MasterDoc’s ass as he likes. I truly enjoyed seeing him enjoy himself. He was like a little boy at Christmas. I think I’m finally at a point where I can accept that new pussy is sort of a fetish of his, and that he will always look for it, but that he loves me and will come back to me. He took the time to pretty much tell me this as he fucked her and kissed me.

I lose the thread of the story about now. I know the other Dom fingered (quite expertly it seemed) the other lady. The other Dom didn’t play with myself or DeeDee at all – except to put cups on our nipples. (e.g., cupping as used in some Asian medicine). The suction hurt me just too much! My left nipple was already sore from him biting on it, and just the other day I chose to endure the clover clamps for a while. I just couldn’t handle the feeling of the suction on my tender nipples. But at one point all of us ladies had cups attached to our nipples by suction.

Her Master had her drink out of a dog bowl on the floor, but treated her to a diet root beer later after she had already been a good girl for a while.

She was still blindfolded through this, mind you. He took out a dental gag and I drooled. MasterDoc joked that he was making him look bad – after all he brought out all sorts of toys that I ask and hope for but don’t usually get used on me. With the dental gag in, he dragged the wartenburg wheel all over her body. Fuck. I was so turned on watching this that my body would involuntarily twitch. I so want that for myself. I cringed a little when he ran it over her sore pussy, but I’ll bet it was ultimately wonderful.

The slave was put over the Liberator scoop at one point and cuffed down by wrists and thighs. I think I wandered off to the kitchen at this point, so my recall of what happened is spotty. (I know, I know, I do my best to fill you guys in entirely but a human being can only do so much!) There had been some cock sucking along the line (perhaps most interesting was her Dom putting his cock in her mouth from above as she lay on the floor being used by others).

She was finally allowed to come as her Dom used the Hitachi on her – and she squirted a ton. Next the other Dom made the other lady come, and MasterDoc got DeeDee and I to come simultaneously on the sofa on either side of him. While I had come a few times, I didn’t come with the intensity possible when MasterDoc focuses, and thankfully he wanted to make me come hard, and used the Hitachi on me some more and made me squirt a river as he made me come on the couch.

The hour grew late, and the planned double penetration didn’t happen. But to finish off her Dom and MasterDoc took her into the bathtub and peed on her simultaneously. And she didn’t get to kneel like DeeDee and I get to, she had to lay down and have them piss in her mouth. Yikes. I would freak out over that. I know MasterDoc plans to get me to the point of pissing in my mouth some time, but that one’s going to be much harder to overcome than ass licking was. I stayed in the living room talking to DeeDee and the other lady. But DeeDee got called in to take photos. She looked awfully queasy when she returned.

The slave was left alone to shower off and came back out with the blindfold on. All the goodies they brought along got packed up, and we all said our thank yous and goodbyes. For a night when I thought I’d be totally antisocial, it ended up being pretty freaking hot. I must say however, that the selfish girl in me wishes I had been the center of attention. The next morning, DeeDee and I talked about how our evening had been something that previously (previous to getting into the lifestyle) we would have thought happened only in novels. But yes, these evenings of utter debauchery do happen. I don’t make up these stories, I only chronicle them. I am thrilled to be at the level of perviness that these hot group things go on from time to time. I am a lucky girl.

Afternoon Delight

Published on August 10, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, bondage, cunnilingus, cunt, dp, gang bang, horny, kink, masochism, masturbation, needle play, nipple clamps, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, pillow princess, porn, restraints, sadism, sex, sex toys, shio, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

I started getting a little blue on Sunday afternoon. I was supposed to have time alone with MasterDoc, filled with cuddles and hopefully some kinky sex. Instead I was helping him figure out how to put mp3 files on his Palm Pre. Ever astute, he picked up on my mood and asked what was wrong. I told him and he set to fixing the problem right away.

We cuddled a bit in the bedroom and I told him that I was feeling really passive. (Sometimes I just want to be teased and tormented and not taking such an active role. In the past this has gotten me called a pillow princess, but lately I’m much more active so I can get away with this now and then) This worked out because he was already planning to tie me down to the bed (via the under the bed restraints). He made sure the lines were pulled tight so my arms were spread as wide as possible. I was truly helpless. He blindfolded me.

He licked my clit for a while, something that feels divine. He teased me with a vibrator, and after inserting it to stimulate my g-spot, he licked my clit some more until he made me come (giving permission for the orgasm of course).

He left the room for a few minutes. I of course remained where I lay since I couldn’t move at all. He returned with some ice which he used on my clit. He took a phone call during this, and I was left to stifle my cries as he teased my cunt some more with the bitterly cold ice. I don’t like being cold! Applied to my pussy for too long it hurts.

He had talked about play piercing and I was nervous he’d follow through on the idea of nipple piercing. (And wouldn’t you know it, I was scared of that but my body gave me away by twitching in arousal when he spoke about it.) He felt my body, searching for the right place to put a needle or two. He came to my inner thighs and said that’s the spot. I’m freaked out as my inner thighs are incredibly sensitive. I dreaded a needle going through the flesh there. He swabbed my left inner thigh with an alcohol wipe and grabbed a hold of a chunk of flesh.

I could have sworn he was putting a needle in, and I cringed appropriately. But he had the last laugh. He had just pinched my thigh with his hand – he didn’t use a needle. But I was so psyched up into thinking “piercing” that he didn’t need to actually do it for me to feel the sensation. Pretty wild and an excellent mindfuck.

Next he put nipple clamps on and left the room. I was turned on by the fact of my utter helplessness and the fact that he can inflict pain on my body if he chooses. That’s power.

When he returned he fucked me while I was tied down. I couldn’t get my legs apart as much as usual since my ankles were cuffed to the edges of the bed, but he managed to fuck me quite well (albeit not quite as deep as usual). As I came, he choked me a little during orgasm. No real air constriction, but a firm hand at my throat. Fuck, that made it hotter. I was a happy puddle afterward. (And had a puddle of girl cum under my ass too.)

He untied my arms and gave me some aftercare. Next he had me suck his cock for a while, and I reveled in it and fantasized about dirty things like being fucked from behind with clover clamps on while gagged. I never ask for the clover clamps – they hurt like a motherfucker! While I was fantasizing about him inflicting more pain on me, he gagged me on his cock. I’m thrilled that he does that pretty often lately. We’ve both found something new we enjoy. He had me get on top of his hard cock for a ride. He teased me with a long, slow fuck. He made me come for a long, languorous time. I had to lay down to rest after, and could have easily fallen asleep.

But wait, there’s more! I told him my fantasy from earlier. He put on the clover clamps right after mentioning that I probably couldn’t handle them for the entire time he fucks me. He gave me permission to remove them if I needed. I wore them longer than one would think I could manage. I was kneeling at the end of the bed with the clamps biting into my nipples as he fucked me. I don’t know what it is, I guess it’s my masochism, or need to submit, but there’s something erotic about knowing he can hurt me – that he has the authority to make me hurt. He has the authority to fuck me while he makes me hurt. Damn that’s hot. I ended up pulling off the clamps mid orgasm. And I squirted some more on the throe. (That thing desperately needs a cleaning now.)

He got hard again and had me ride him another time. I wasn’t sure that I had the stamina at that point, but his cock feels so good it kept me going. He squeezed my boobs hard, which doesn’t feel as good as nipple pinching would. He made me come again, and a little later, again.

I was spent, but MasterDoc had yet to come. He put on some porn, and I gave him a prostate massageas he stroked his cock. He was laying on his side, which usually puts me off kilter in regards to finding his prostate, but I’ve gotten better at feeling that little “walnut” texture of the gland to find it. I was distracted by the porn myself, as the storyline of the maid who is then gang banged by the dinner guests and the butler turned me on immensely. I was just dying to be the center of a few men at that moment. I focused enough on making him feel good to get him to shoot a big load. (The throe was a complete cummy mess by this time from him and me.) Since I was thoroughly enjoying the slutty porn he told me I could continue watching and he gave me permission to make myself come. I grabbed my Gigi as my preferred masturbating hand had just been in his ass (and we don’t want a vaginal infection to result). I rubbed the vibe on my clit for just a few moments. While watching the woman get double penetrated while sucking a third guy’s cock, I made myself come hard.

I finished watching the video, and MasterDoc came back in the bedroom. He asked if I had decided not to masturbate, but I said that no, I had come already.

What an entirely amazing afternoon.

Continued

Published on August 9, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bdsm and sex. 0 Comments

After DeeDee was settled from her aftercare, MasterDoc worked me up with just quiet words and gentle strokes of my face, my body, my cunt. He got me into subspace quickly, which seems to happen more and more easily all the time. He had me to the point of writhing. I was desperate for orgasm but he didn’t let me come just then. He fucked me from on top while DeeDee took photos – mostly of my face but also of the two of us. He made me come hard and long, fucking me right on through the orgasms. He was impressed with how much easier missionary-style sex is now that we’ve both lost weight and he’s been working his triceps. I’m thrilled because as much as I love doggy style, it’s nice to do missionary now and then and I’ll bet we’ll do it more often now.

I saw the photos the next day. It is interesting to see the faces I make during orgasm. I wondered if I’d feel uncomfortable seeing my face in those involuntary contortions I’d never seen. Instead, I thought they were beautiful, and I wish I could share them here. It’s wonderful to have some lovely photos of myself and MasterDoc mid-sex. Many photos are blurry because my body contracts and I move a lot during orgasm.

The Magic of the Wand

Published on August 5, 2010 in D/s, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys and spanking. 2 Comments

The other night MasterDoc gave me another beating on my ass, pushing my limits again. And then had me lay face down on the bed as he placed the Hitachi magic wand under me. I found myself wiggling to get my clit pressed against it. He talked to me, telling me how hot it was to see my body twitch and struggle to press my clit to the vibe.

The magic wand was intense, and I soon had to tell him, “Sir, it’s so hard to hold off from coming with the wand against me!” I was afraid that I would come without permission. I was hoping he’d tell me to come, as I’m sure I would have had a massive orgasm just then, but instead he took the wand away saying, “Be careful what you wish for.”

He fucked me and continued to tease me. Every time he thrust in my cunt I moaned, wanting more hard thrusting. The fucking was divine. He let me come eventually, and kept on fucking me as I moaned and came.

I think I now have a date with my magic wand.

Back at MasterDoc’s Home for Wayward Women

Published on August 3, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, kink, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys and submissive. 0 Comments

Sunday, the debauchery continued. I came home to MasterDoc’s to find that he and DeeDee were planning to have DeeDee’s submissive playmate over. He does some housework when he comes over, in exchange for some domming courtesy of Miss DeeDee. (Have I mentioned she’s a switch?)

She’s going to give me details, as I sat here writing blog entries while her sub was over. He seems like an exceptionally nice man, and did he get the kitchen floor clean! While Miss DeeDee prepared for him (and after he had showered) she instructed him to massage my feet. I kept typing on my laptop as this naked man gave me a good footrub. But I don’t yet know the details of when she took him into the bedroom after.

A bit later, MasterDoc and I had some time to reconnect. It’s funny, but after spending the night elsewhere I felt a desperate need to reconnect. He was perfectly fine. I’m such a mushy gal. He took me into the bedroom and lay me down. He got me into sub mode, and had already arranged for DeeDee to come in and take pictures. Stroking my face, talking to me, playing with my cunt, he made me come. There’s now a set of photos of me during orgasm, which was precisely what he wanted – to capture the many faces I make when I come. Too bad I can’t post most of them because I don’t post my face here. There is at least one, however, that I can post once I get it from DeeDee.

I had to struggle to maintain that orgasm when MasterDoc’s phone rang twice in succession. The ring on his phone is so loud and distracting! He said I did a good job, but in my mind I was fantasizing about throwing the damn thing across the room.

After the photos, MasterDoc gave me a good beating. He seemed to be pushing me extra hard. Could just be my perception, but he seemed to keep going longer than usual after I’d start crying out in pain. Still, I took what he dished out like a good girl and then he fucked me after. Again, he told me not to beg to come (and of course I cannot come without permission). He fucked me a long time and I was so desperate to come! Oh my lack of god, it felt amazing but what a tease! It seemed endless. Finally, he told me to come and I pretty much instantly came.

I was still horny a few minutes later, and MasterDoc said I could masturbate if I wanted, but that he was done. I soon forgot the idea of masturbating and moved on to getting a snack.

Slutting About

Published on August 2, 2010 in Uncategorized, blow jobs, cunnilingus, dating, sex and slut. 3 Comments

It’s been a while since I’ve gone slutting about without MasterDoc there to keep an eye on me. The reasons for this are complicated, and in some ways personal, so I won’t get into them here. But I’m at a point now where I feel free to enjoy myself with others again.

It’s an amazing feeling when you’re being a hedonist purely for your own pleasure. Fucking people from some desire to be loved or feeling that you need to do so to be liked, is a dangerous road. I’m sure I’ve done it at various points, but right now I just want to feel good. And there is nothing wrong (in my book) in having sex and enjoying yourself. There’s nothing wrong with being a slut as long as you’re not doing it in a self-destructive way.

So I had a date last night with a new guy. He’s around MasterDoc’s age (although MasterDoc keeps teasing me that he’s probably older, after all a lot of older people lie about their ages, but I’m a trusting soul who has faith in people until I start to suspect otherwise). He’s an artist, a musician, an entrepreneur. He’s got a nice apartment in the East Village. We met in Grammercy for drinks at an Irish pub; the kind of pub where ordering a chocolate martini gets you perplexed looks (but I’m sure they pull a fabulous pint of Guinness). I settled for cosmos as the bartender knew how to make those.

We sat and talked. The Entrepreneur (as I will call him) kept the cocktails coming. And I decided that, what the hell, I’m having a good time I’m going to hang out at his place with him. (He also had given me no reason to feel unsafe, quite the contrary.) He got me talking about polyamory since he’s new to it, and also my D/s relationship with MasterDoc, and sex blogging. He’s fond of subcultures and was fascinated by my stories being new to all those things. I love being able to be the exciting woman who has had countless sexual adventures. Face it, liking sex, truly liking it and enjoying it without hang ups, is a phenomenally sexy thing. I often forget that most women aren’t necessarily as enthusiastic and unapologetic about sex as I am. (Except, of course, my fellow sex bloggers often are.)

We hung out at his place, he played some guitar for me which was a good move since I’ve always had a weakness for musicians. We enjoyed chatting some more and he eventually asked if I wanted to kiss. I said sure and we made out for a bit. He was thrilled over my bountiful breasts. He kept declaring that he was in heaven and such flattery will get you far when I’m in the mood.

Soon we were in his bed, and he went down on me pretty quickly. I’ve long maintained that men who go down on you first (before getting you to go down on them) are usually attentive and good lovers. I don’t think that the reverse is necessarily true though. I’ve known men who have me blow them first who were just fabulous. But I don’t think I’ve met a guy who ate me out first who was terrible in the sack.

I had to remind myself that being in a vanilla situation, I could come when I wanted to. Being someone’s submissive most of the time I’m used to asking permission. I love orgasm control, but it’s also nice to have autonomy sometimes. I came like crazy and he just kept licking my pussy as I kept coming. He seemed thrilled at how hard I come – it seriously boggles my mind that how intensely I orgasm isn’t the norm. I had a thought affectionately at one point last night that, “Aw. He’s never had a real slut before! How sweet!” There are women like me out there, but too often they seem like a myth.

He had me go down on him eventually and I showed off my skills. (As MasterDoc once said, “You suck a mean cock!”) Being a sexual woman feels like such a power trip at times. I have the ability to render men senseless with lust – and I’m not even the most gorgeous woman in the world. (Although I will admit I’m cute.) It’s funny that I’ve so long struggled with low self-esteem. Lately I have moments where even I have to stop being self-deprecating and realize that I’m pretty freakin’ awesome in some ways. Not perfect by any means, but pretty awesome. I’m smart, educated, sexual, free, and a hedonist. What’s not to like? I need to push past the idea that got into my brain from a young age that to be confident was on par with being egotistical. I come from a very self-deprecating family.

When he went off to the bathroom at one point, I had the thought, “If I were playing with myself when he gets back he would think that was the hottest thing ever.” I feel a little calculating thinking like that, but it’s not done with the intention to manipulate, it’s just that I’ve had enough experience to know what works. Indeed, he did think it was really hot to find me stroking my pussy. He set himself up with a ringside seat and watched (and contributed to caressing my legs) as I gave myself an orgasm. It’s always nice having an appreciative audience.

We went to fuck, but human bodies being what they are his cock didn’t totally cooperate. No matter. As a sexual woman of the world I appreciate that sometimes our bodies don’t react how we want them to. There are certainly times when I’m enjoying myself yet not getting wet (in those moments it’s lube for the win!). If a man has erectile trouble while you’re with him, don’t take it personally. Don’t take it as something to worry about. Just keep fooling around. As much as I adore penis-in-vagina sex, it’s by no means the only way to get off and have fun. Being with someone new, or using condoms when you’re not used to them, are things that can make your cock stubborn. I really appreciated though how he’s not one of those men who will then try to persuade you to have unprotected sex.

He flipped me over at one point and massaged my back. He kissed and licked my ass and I wondered if he was going to rim me. He teased and tantalized for a while, then slid his fingers in my pussy and made me come again.

I had a great time, and it was late. I was clearly welcome to spend the night and it seemed like the best thing to do rather than take a long subway ride by myself when I was tired. I always sleep fitfully in a new place, plus it was hard because he’s a cuddler during sleep, whereas I’m someone who wants their space. But sleeping there was a good move. In the morning, we fooled around again and he fucked me twice. (And made me come countless times.) It was a lovely time. He’s smart, interesting and good in bed. I want to teach him the “come hither” motion with his fingers when fingering me, however. If you turn your hand palm up while fingering a woman, and do a “come hither” motion, you stroke the g-spot typically. I’m not complaining, just pondering improvements. (I’ve been around MasterDoc too long.)

At one point this morning he declared that he’s only going to date sex bloggers from now on. Yes, we are awesome. Thank you, thank you very much.

My rumbling tummy pressured me to ask about breakfast, and he took me out for brunch in his neighborhood. After, he walked me to the subway and we said our goodbyes. It felt kinda “Sex and the City” to have brunch in Manhattan on a beautiful Sunday morning after fucking for much of the night. I took the long ride home to MasterDoc’s and had to fill him and DeeDee in on the details of my adventure pretty much as soon as I walked in the door. MasterDoc called me slut a few times, but it’s all done with the utmost affection.

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Published on July 29, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, caning, dom, fantasy, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, musings, orgasm denial, sex, sex toys and submissive. 2 Comments

I got lost in my head during play Tuesday night, so apologies if this account is disjointed. I had been overdue for a beating, so MasterDoc took to my ass with the riding crop and cane. He started off light, and very gradually increased intensity. He did it in such a way that by the time he was whacking me hard he was able to tell me to come. I came from the pain. I came from him having control. For some unknown reason that still amazes me.

We watched some porn – and this time I actually watched instead of being distracted by him fucking me. I stroked his hair as we lay by each others side. As the porn turned me on I started touching myself. I played with my breasts and nipples, something I rarely do during masturbation. I shyly reached a hand down to my pussy and started playing there. Intermittently, I’d touch him, stroking his back.

Right before having sex with me, MasterDoc looked me in the eye and told me that I was to hold off coming indefinitely. I was not allowed to beg for orgasm like I usually do. Just him giving me this directive, with that firm look in his eyes, made me wet. I struggled to keep my arousal under control as he fucked me. But of course I just kept thinking about how hot it was that he could use my body for his pleasure. It seems as if telling me not to come makes me just want to come more!

We cuddled up after the fucking, and his phone rang. This distracted me so when he told me to come a moment later, I wasn’t anywhere near ready to come. He talked to me about keeping with where we are mentally. After all, the phone can be ignored. I’ll try to do better next time.

My memories of that evening are in bits and pieces, so forgive me if this isn’t as coherent as most posts.

As we cuddled I did some spot worship (see 5th paragraph in that post), and he called me the “High Priestess of Spot Worship.” Hee hee. I know how to play with his special spot really well by now. I stroke his chest languidly, focusing on “the spot” but also touching the rest of his torso – from tummy to collar bone. I’ve joked that I want a sex toy company to make a toy version of his spot so if I ever lose him I can stroke it for comfort.

He had me suck his cock for a while, and I struggled a bit with the reservoir tip of the condom tickling the back of my throat. That’s the only thing I truly hate about blow jobs with condoms.

At one point, I was laying down in such a way that I was looking up at him – and I mentioned that I loved the perspective. Having him above me like that felt so representative of the power dynamic between us. I thought about the idea of him being a god for the length of our scenes. The majority of the time, we’re two humans with strengths and weaknesses. But when we play we can be something else for a while. He can be a god to me, and I can feel safe in his arms. He can be in control, which he likes and I can give up control, which I like. (Of course, ever the irreverent Dom, MasterDoc made some funny noises and hand motions when I said I liked the perspective. Kinda changed the feeling!) Many times that night I felt like declaring I’m his, over and over.

He fucked me from behind a couple of times with that order not to come or ask to come still applying. His cock wasn’t cooperating as much as he would have liked, so the fucking didn’t last long. He had intended to fuck me until he came.

I was feeling really ready for limit pushing, and he had me give his asshole a big kiss. I still don’t like doing it, but it’s hot in the way that I’m being told what to do. Thankfully it is always freshly cleaned when he has me do it. I still pause a second and give him a “do I have to?” look before doing what he tells me to do.

We took a break, and he checked on DeeDee. (She struggles with depression like I do, and was having a tough day.) MasterDoc planned to fuck me later that night as I got so drowsy I was ready to fall asleep, but that got put off. (Something for the wishing box.)