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Pain and Healing

Published on March 4, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anxiety, bdsm, depression, emotions, happy, kink, masochism, needle play, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, pillow princess, sex toys, shio, squirting and wartenburg wheel. 3 Comments

For my twitter followers, it’s no news that I’ve been dealing with some severe PMS lately (may even be PMDD). The week before my period I experience mood swings, depression, anxiety, difficulty concentrating, fatigue, increased appetite, and considering I suffer from clinical depression already, this turns into one roller coaster of a hellish week for me and many of those around me. However, MasterDoc has been working with me to try to figure out ways we can head it off or treat it in some way. The obvious answer is that I should go to my gynecologist and possibly be put on hormonal birth control. But beyond that, there’s something we can do to diminish the effects of PMS – BDSM. (It takes an acronym to fight an acronym.)

I put in a special request for him to use the new Wartenberg wheel I purchased recently, and needles as well. I could tell I needed something even more endorphin-triggering than a spanking. I also needed cuddles, which he administered right away when I got to his place.

I had never played with the wheel before – although sometime in my earlier life I’m sure it was used on me medically to test nerve reactions. He ran the wheel and its sharp pins over my naked body. The sensation made me jump and giggle. It felt like tickle, but also like pain and finally it sometimes felt like little electric shocks running over my body. It turned me on surprisingly well and fast. That intense melange of sensations immediately woke up my senses. I felt the insistent swell of my labia as I became aroused. I was surprised at how easily it worked for me, but as MasterDoc later pointed out he had taken the time to do a little foreplay before that. I don’t remember what came before, however, just what came after.

He slapped my inner thighs, always the most painful part of my body to have slapped. Being slapped on the pussy can hurt a great deal too, but I think the skin on my thighs is just too thin and sensitive. He took an alcohol swab, cleaned up an area of my inner thigh and took in the expression on my face when I realized he was going to stick me in such a sensitive spot. I was nervous. A little bit freaked out even. But he slid one needle into my thigh, and the pain lasted only a second while it penetrated the skin. Following the needle stick was an amazing endorphin rush. Everything around me faded away, and I could feel this “whoosh” of chemicals flood my body. It felt like I’d imagine shooting heroin to feel. It was like shooting up drugs, only there were no drugs on or going through the needle. It was purely a brand new hypodermic needle – no syringe – fresh out of the package. Fuck. It was amazing.

He did a second needle, which hurt a little more than the first, but it produced another rush. I think I’ve found a new favorite way to get an endorphin high.

With the needles in place, he pressed on them a little and I welcomed the slight pain. He used the magic wand on my clit and drove me completely fucking crazy. He pressed it hard into my clit, unrelenting for the most part (kinda like I tend to do when I use the wand on another woman). I moaned, partly with pleasure, partly with desperation to come. I was worried that he’d manage to make me come without me getting permission first. I finally gave in and begged when he dragged it out and he still didn’t tell me to come. After a little more teasing, he gave me permission. The endorphins already released through my body enhanced the orgasms I had. My eyes bugged out one moment as I gasped for air. The next minute they were shut tight as I blabbered some nonsensical noises and combinations of “oh god” and “oh fuck.” My right hand grabbed at MasterDoc’s back and his hair. He had me take the wand over, and he used my Ella dildo. He fucked me with it hard and I kept the wand on my clit. I came for what felt like 10 minutes. It probably wasn’t that long, but it seemed to go on forever. If all the women of the world could feel this way at least once a week we’d have a world full of happy women. Heck, once a month would be an improvement for many women. I was surprised how long he made me come, but with lessening my depression as a goal, I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised. After, I was wiped out and very, very satisfied. A puddle of come had accumulated under me.

I was also very happy. And the next day, and the day after, I wasn’t depressed any more. I still had some PMS symptoms to deal with, but damn, if that didn’t cure my depression.

I’m a very lucky girl.

MasterDoc’s depression cure works again!

Wishes Fulfilled

Published on February 10, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, caning, edge play, fantasy, kink, masochism, nipple clamps, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, stress, trust and wishing box. 0 Comments

I haven’t blogged in over a week, not content that I’ve generated at least. I’ve been dealing with a particularly rough bout of premenstrual symptoms and haven’t felt like writing. MasterDoc gave me a therapeutic beating last Wednesday that helped in the short term, but ultimately I was having enough internal issues that it didn’t last. Funnily enough, yesterday he and I both – separately – hypothesized that I may have PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder). Definitely something I will ask my gynecologist about next time. I have about a dozen of the symptoms.

Today the symptoms are starting to break, but even yesterday I was feeling anxious and irritable enough to be struggling with it. I didn’t sleep over MasterDoc’s due to the impending snow (and I am glad I went home last night!) but I did visit him for a few hours. We reconnected. He reassured me that yes, if I’m in emotional crisis like I had been last Friday night I did the right thing by getting in touch with him.

Since my mood was still unstable last night, MasterDoc declared I needed a beating and orgasms. And indeed they helped like they usually do. After he shook off the silly mood he was in, he had me lay down on the bed, face down and took the cane to my ass. The strikes focused my thoughts. I took the cane fairly well, but then he dribbled some melted wax on me. Yikes! It pooled slightly on my lower back and I kicked one leg up while trying to deal with the pain. The wax was particularly difficult to take last night. I seem to be out of practice. The caning continued and took me into subspace. I didn’t get wet like I often do but considering how not myself I felt that’s not entirely surprising. He used the little rubber flogger on me, the little ends gathering together to sting my ass.
He had me on hands and knees for some beating, and propped the magic wand against me but it kept slipping away from the perfect spot, so even though I had permission to come I couldn’t quite get there. I let MasterDoc know that it was sliding out of place, and he took over, pressing it against my clit, making me come. He took out a toy that we haven’t really used yet: snake bite suckers. The set comes with two larger ones and one thinner sucker that’s just right for the clitoris. Thankfully he only put the larger two on my nipples. As my tits hung down he commented on how they resembled udders. He flicked them with his fingers which hurt. He has decided he really likes them, and as I can wear them longer than nipple clamps he plans to have me walking around the swing club with them on. He had me kneel up, and he tormented my nipples some more.

He had me lay on my back to be fucked so he could continue to play with the nipple suckers. He tweaked them, fucked me, slapped my face. I went from zero to sixty in about two seconds. He told me I could come at will and I came, but then I came even harder as he gently but firmly applied pressure to my throat for the first time. Previously I had been afraid of even the hint of breathplay as I’m asthmatic (and have experienced not being able to breathe. Not really fun.) but I had put in my wishing box that I was curious to try a little bit with him, since I trust MasterDoc to know what he’s doing (and to know what to do in case of an emergency). He pressed a bit harder than I had expected, grabbing my collar close against my throat. For a second, I wasn’t sure if I was scared of this…. but then I came, harder than I had to this point. I was amazed by how hard I came.

I was very, very happy and calm after that.

He next had me suck his cock, and he worked in yet another wish from my wishing box: grabbing my head and choking me on his cock a few times. I find that I don’t gag as badly as I initially thought and I really like that he’s got his cock shoved down my throat and his hand firmly on my head as the thrusts his hips upward. His cock gets extra slick with my saliva which makes it even easier than usual to suck. He had me rub his wet cock over my face and I did as I was told. (Of course.)

His cock hard again, he debated fucking my ass or fucking my cunt again. He eventually opted for my cunt and got me on hands and knees. He said I had been a good girl and gave me the magic wand to use on myself. He started off slowly, teasing. He’d then fuck me harder for a moment. I kept the wand pressed against my clit but he told me not to come until I asked permission. He wanted me to take my time so he could fuck me as long as he liked. I was moaning like crazy, feeling amazing even though I was holding back from orgasm. I almost didn’t want it to end. I wish I had a recording of my moaning and babbling at that point. Out of nowhere, he told me to come. And I came as he fucked me some more. When his cock was pushed out he slapped my cunt to keep me coming and I sprayed come all over my hand, the throe, and the magic wand.

I was in a wondrous daze after that orgasm. It was hard to find somewhere to lay down since there was a big puddle, but I sat against the wall, legs splayed. Despite using the menstrual cup, there was a smudge of blood on my leg (and the come that came out of me was tinted pink due to some menstrual content.) My hands felt like they were buzzing, and it took me a moment to realize this was from holding the magic wand to my clit for a while. I felt positively amazing. If they could make that feeling into a pill form I think I’d become addicted. Oh yes.

After I cleaned up, we sat in the living room and he put on the basketball game. He had me grab pillows so I could sit on the floor at his feet – another thing I had requested in my wishing box. I happily played with my new smart phone while I sat on the floor between his legs. Occasionally I’d hug his thigh and kiss it. And other times he’d smack me playfully with his hard cock. It was an evening I sorely needed after the emotional upheaval of this month’s cycle.

Threesome Weekend

Published on January 31, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunt, exhibitionism, flogging, kink, masochism, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, poly, porn, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, swinging and threesome. 2 Comments

I think I’ve turned a new corner with polyamory. DeeDee is visiting MasterDoc and I spent some time with both of them this weekend, and I finally realize that being poly can include having a fabulous time with both your partner and one of their other partners. I’ve always been fond of DeeDee, but I was a bit possessive of time with MasterDoc. But this weekend, the three of us went to a club Friday night and hung out at MasterDoc’s on Saturday and I wouldn’t have changed it for the world.

We were supposed to go to a kink party that all of us were looking forward to, but the party host had to change the date in his struggle to find a good venue for the party. MasterDoc was having a bad day but I managed to convince him that we should go out anyway. He started the evening grumpy but in short order he was in a better mood. How could he not be with two lovely ladies eager to go out and fuck in public with him? He took us out to dinner at a pub near the swing club.I have a great time laughing with them both and it’s wonderful to hang out with people who you can be yourself with. I can be a kinky slut and it’s not considered a bad thing, not at all.

At the club, MasterDoc started the night with paddling me. I seem to be enjoying harder spankings these days. The only down side? A guy who was too aggressive and space invading. He’s an older man (in his 60’s or so) and he and his wife are often at the club. Now, if he were charming and kind I might just be persuaded to be interested in him despite the age difference. However, he is pushy. And when I climbed on the spanking bench he moved over to be right by where my head would be. Back the fuck off! I gave him such a nasty look. He moved after that. He kept making comments, and sitting too close, and humming incessantly to draw attention to himself. MasterDoc told him to leave at one point and the man didn’t. MasterDoc had to talk to him again when he was trying to talk to me while DeeDee got spanked. Had the guy touched me, he would have gotten a right telling off – even with my collar on. Fucker couldn’t take the hint that I was totally, and obviously, not interested.
But back to the spanking…. When I could block out the idiot, I enjoyed the hard long spanking MasterDoc gave me. He had DeeDee hold the vibe to my clit and I enjoyed the combination of spanking and vibe. (Although we need to give DeeDee a little more instruction on exactly where to put the vibe.)

After my spanking came DeeDee’s spanking. MasterDoc had her suck his cock while she lay over the spanking bench. I settled down on the bed and placed pillows between myself and the pushy guy sitting on the other end. I did my best to ignore him. I played with myself with a vibe while watching the spanking. MasterDoc told me to use a vibe on DeeDee, and I got up and placed my bullet vibe on her clit on high. When I tease women I tend to be a bit relentless rather than teasing. I place the vibe right on her clit so that the vibrations quickly take her to the edge of orgasm. She had to hold back until she got permission from MasterDoc and I was grinning ear to ear while I drove her crazy. She came and the crowd in the room got quite a show. Her cunt was quite wet and consequently so was my hand.

We packed up, and MasterDoc was delighted to find that the big bed in the next room was now available. DeeDee goes to get water for us all while I suck MasterDoc’s cock. I like having an audience while I do this, I hope that the men in the room are imagining that I’m blowing them. DeeDee takes a turn and I unbutton MasterDoc’s shirt so I can stroke his chest. I think to nibble on his neck a bit and he clearly enjoys getting his cock sucked while I do this. The men around us had to be green with envy. This guy (MasterDoc) has two attractive women tending to his every need and making him feel amazing.

Next he toys with both of us. He sucks on my nipples while DeeDee massages his ass from behind. It’s all so decadent and hot. He gets us using toys on our clits. DeeDee gets revved up quickly. I take a bit longer since the pushy guy is humming loudly and ruining my concentration. MasterDoc bends down and licks my clit for a moment, and I can focus better on my pleasure after that. From his perch kneeling at the end of the bed between us, he verbally teases us, asking if we’re ready to come. This teasing usually serves to make me hotter, faster. He looks us straight in the eye in turn. He tells us to come at the same time. I can only imagine how cool it must have been to watch us come simultaneously. I squirted quite a bit. MasterDoc reached over and fingered me to make me come more, and louder. He then did the same for DeeDee. It was pretty impressive.

We cuddled after. I lay in my little puddle of come. We thanked MasterDoc simultaneously for the orgasms.

I was hoping to get fucked, but we ended up hanging out mostly after this. We ran into some people we know, and I got to talking with the slutty bartender, the one who gave quite a show squirting last time we were there. Apparently, she was hitting on me. MasterDoc pointed out after that she was actually playing with her pussy while talking to me and clearly wanted me to touch her. Doh. I was, as usual, completely oblivious. It’s really a low-self-esteem problem: I don’t think someone who has what is a culturally accepted body (i.e., slim and toned) would be attracted to me. Yes, I realize I need to work on that. No wonder I end up fucking so few women.

We called it a night early, but the next day there was much fooling around at MasterDoc’s. He put porn on his new large screen tv and we marveled at how up close and personal it seemed when played on that tv. The porn was exceptionally hot for vanilla porn – the women seemed to really be enjoying themselves. Watching people fucking who are into it is way hotter than watching someone who’s just doing it for the money and waiting for it all to be over.

The porn got us all worked up and MasterDoc fucked me from behind for a while. It felt amazing but my damn knees gave out. Eventually the pain in my knees blocked out my ability to enjoy the fuck and I had to ask to stop. I didn’t come then. We all lay on the mat on the floor and DeeDee and I massaged MasterDoc. Usually, he makes the point that we’re lucky to have him, but yesterday he actually came out with, “I am a very lucky man.” It felt wonderful to hear him acknowledge that. I think we’re all lucky.

Hunger won out over horniness and so we ordered lunch. Things shifted away from sex and we ended up watching Fiddler on the Roof on tv. After the movie, I started to pack up my things to go home since Saturday night was a night for DeeDee and MasterDoc to be alone. As I started to get dressed, MasterDoc said he had planned to give me a sybian ride before I went home. Well now, that was certainly enough to get me to take my clothes off again.

I rode the sybian while MasterDoc worked the controls and I leaned forward onto him. DeeDee got some practice in with the little flogger while I rode. At first, she missed me and hit the machine but after some coaching from MasterDoc she gave me a nice flogging. When I came, she pressed up against me and my clit came in even better contact with the vibrating sybian. I had such an amazing, extended orgasm from the two of them working me over. I had to collapse on the floor after.

When I had recovered, I got dressed and headed out. As I walked into the cold evening, I playfully exaggerated in my head the notion that I’ve been turned out into the cold, cold night, all alone. Oh poor me! And I laughed to myself, because even though we’re conditioned to think that’s the way it is, I really didn’t feel like that. Sure I had wanted to stay where it was friendly and warm, but I also want to make MasterDoc happy, and giving him space to hang out with other women makes him happy. Also, I was looking forward to an evening alone. The only negative to the evening was the possible domestic violence scene I could hear playing out from the floor below me now and then. I felt really unsafe while that was going on, and bewildered, and not sure what to do. (Do you call the police on your landlord, the man who could then throw you out? Particularly when you’re alone for the night and he’s a gruff bully?)

But when it was quiet, I had a lovely time by myself. I watched Gentlemen Prefer Blondes, a long time favorite movie, and was just tickled at how cool Jane Russell is.

Überslut: Paradocs

Published on January 24, 2010 in Uncategorized, anal, bisexuality, blow jobs, couple, cunnilingus, non-monogamy, sex, shio, squirting and swinging. 1 Comment

Bdsm is not the only way we like to have sex. MasterDoc started on his kinky path by being a swinger. We met up with a couple last night who live pretty close to him. It turns out the husband is a doctor too, and the wife (lucky woman!) is a stay-at-home wife. She clearly keeps their apartment in wonderful shape.

We weren’t sure exactly what the couple looked like, after all on their swing profile they had only body photos. We were pleasantly surprised. The woman was pretty and while the man didn’t initially make me go wow, it was clear early on that I’d enjoy getting naked with them.

So it was different being there not as a submissive (my collar was left at home) but as MasterDoc’s girlfriend. The couple are European and were very hospitable – offering us wine, drinks, apples. I had a little wine to relax a bit and it helped. (Yes, I can be shy! At first anyway.)

After some talking, the man told his wife that he was going to dance with me. So he took my hand and we swayed to the music they had playing in the background. Our hands roamed each other’s bodies. I couldn’t see MasterDoc behind me but I knew he and the wife were getting things started. The man kissed me passionately and took his time getting my breasts out of my low cut top. Later that night, MasterDoc discovered a hickey on my neck.

When I turned around, MasterDoc had the wife’s lovely, full breasts out of her top. She’s apparently quite bisexual as well and was keen to come over to play with me. When she reached me, I took her breasts in my hands and played with the nipples, she did the same to mine. Her husband stood behind her and reached around to touch both of us. (MasterDoc nipped off to the bathroom at this point.) When MasterDoc returned he was surprised that a Nadia sandwich wasn’t going on. He joined us, and I started to unbutton his shirt as he was the only one with a shirt still on. I stroked both doctor’s cocks through their pants. The four of us touched, caressed, kissed, licked. It was easily the most vanilla sex I’ve had in a long time. Soft music, low lighting, lots of slow caressing. While it’s not my preferred method of lovemaking, the change is nice now and then.

We all retired to the bedroom and I was already quite wet. I mentioned that I do squirt sometimes and they put down an extra folded sheet. It was delightful having four writhing bodies on the bed. I divided my attention between the husband, the wife and MasterDoc. It was a mass of bodies at times. It was hot to hold the wife’s hand while her husband fucked me and MasterDoc went down on her. While I love MasterDoc being a sadistic dominant to me, it’s lovely to see him being an attentive vanilla lover. I think that we might put some people off at swing clubs because we do the D/s thing and it’s quite possible some people think that’s the only way he can relate to women.

MasterDoc got me started off by finger fucking me until I came. I had to struggle to keep quiet as they have cranky neighbors. It is not easy for me to be quiet during orgasm! I think I squirted a tiny bit when I came. I was fucked in various positions. The husband is into slow, gentle lovemaking, which isn’t what gets me off but I can appreciate the wonderful sensations. The husband fucked me as I lay on my side sucking MasterDoc’s cock. MasterDoc was going to fuck the wife a little later but her fingernail jabbed his cock as she went to put the condom on. This is not a good thing.

The husband and wife both repeatedly told me, and MasterDoc, how beautiful and sexy they think I am. MasterDoc said, “Ah, she loves hearing that, but she doesn’t believe it.” I smiled because it’s true. I did feel beautiful and sexy last night though. In a foursome, particularly when the women are bisexual, the women really are the focus. I came more than anyone else last night.

During our fooling around the husband somehow got a little lube and started fingering my asshole. I went with it. A couple of times I wasn’t sure if he was trying to get his cock in my ass when he went to fuck me, but at one point he definitely did. And I let him. I was lubed enough that it felt good so I went for it. I hesitated telling MasterDoc as I wasn’t sure how he’d react. The husband fucked my ass and eventually came. After, as we were starting to wind things up, I leaned in close to MasterDoc and whispered in his ear, “What you don’t realize is that he just fucked me up the ass.”

“You slut!” he said with a smile. He later admitted that he was truly surprised at just how slutty I was in having anal on a first swing date with someone. Eh, I figure if it feels good (and a condom is on the guy’s cock) why not? I think hedonist is the word. Also, the man is part Greek and, well, when in Athens… *wink*

(Paradocs = pair of docs)

Squirty Night

Published on January 23, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, blow jobs, exhibitionism, masturbation, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex parties, shio, slut, squirting and swinging. 0 Comments

There was an unusually large crowd at the swing club last night. This was undoubtedly down to the fact that a porn star, Tabitha, was visiting the club. (I hadn’t looked at her site before going there, but looking through it now I find a picture of her with Slut Momo, who I have had the pleasure of knowing for about a year now.) Of course she was swamped with men almost the entire time she was there. Later in the evening some of our swing/kink friends showed up and it turns out they already know Tabitha. I run in some very interesting circles. Mild mannered librarian by day, acquaintance and friend of porn stars and swingers by night. It’s like I’ve finally realized the slut that I’ve always wanted to be over the past five years or so. It’s a wonderful thing.

We peruse the place, and there’s actually some couples there for a change. While there were many single men, it didn’t feel as out of balance as it does most nights. Not that MasterDoc and I mind single men, they provide a wonderful audience for when we want to show off. I did notice that it seemed a bit more “meat market” than usual. I mean, yes it’s a swing club, people are there to find partners to fuck. But I noticed things like guys making appreciative noises as they walked past me, and another guy stroked my ass (unasked, I must add – guys, be polite and ask before you touch) as I walked by. I was talked to more often by interested guys. One guy came over to MasterDoc and I as we lounged on a bed, pointed to me and said, “That’s a wonderful thing.” MasterDoc didn’t immediately realize the man was talking about me. This atmosphere was both conducive to being slutty and a little uncomfortable as a woman. Somehow being objectified is hot if MasterDoc does it, but a bit uncomfortable-making if it’s some stranger. But on the other hand knowing that you’re one sexy bitch and many of the men there want you is a fantastic feeling. Day to day I feel really average, but in swing situations I realize that my horniness and sluttiness are extremely desirable traits, and I feel like I’m super sexy and hot despite having a chubby body.

I think I behave more shyly if I’m with MasterDoc than if I was at a party alone. When alone, I can pick up men at the drop of a hat and get fucked as often as I want. I was hoping to get fucked a lot last night – there were reasonably good looking men there, guys that didn’t creep me out. MasterDoc, of course, liked to tease me with the idea of fucking the guys who I wasn’t attracted to – the older guy with the petite Japanese wife (because MasterDoc wanted to do her, thankfully he noticed them as they were heading to the door to leave); the short, hairy deaf guy who is always there (he’s very nice, very friendly and I have no issue with his disability, but I don’t like men who are significantly shorter than me and hairy – on the back no less – yet bald), the short, enthusiastic Asian guy who works at the club who tells every woman he knows that she looks like she’s lost weight since the last time he’s seen her, myself included. (He reminds me a little of comedian Bobby Lee, that would be the thing I’d focus on if I was fucking him. Not that I want to fuck Bobby Lee, but at least then it’s someone who looks like a celebrity. In all fairness, even though I’m not into the guy there’s nothing inherently wrong with him.)

Alone, I would have had men swarming me which can be overwhelming and hot at the same time. But with MasterDoc I don’t do much flirting unless it’s a couple and MasterDoc wants to fuck the woman. It can be tricky being there in a D/s situation, as in vanilla swinging the guy has to talk to the woman and convince her to get it on with him, but in a D/s situation, he really should be addressing MasterDoc and asking him for permission. I demur when approached and don’t flirt with guys a lot. I’m not sure if this is ideal, but if I were to get someone interested and then MasterDoc wanted me elsewhere and not fucking that guy, that would be awkward.

He settled us on the large bed in one of the side rooms. He got himself comfortable in the middle of the bed and I sucked his cock while a crowd gathered. He’s particularly vocal about things feeling good when we have an audience; he certainly knows how to play to the audience to add to the scene. He called me whore and treated me like a dirty slut. I deep-throated him as much as I could to show how much I wanted to fuck him while his fingers were tangled in my hair. While my jaw grew tired I kept pushing myself to suck him well and put on a good show.

He had me put a condom on his cock and get on top. I pulled off my panties and left on my skirt, blouse and fishnet stockings. I slid his cock into me and he pulled my skirt entirely up so the crowd could see well. I rode him, rocking my hips front and back. He talked dirty to me and I loved it. He slaps my ass now and then and I reach the edge of climax. I rode and moaned and waited for permission to come. “Come whore!” he said and I came, quivering and shaking on top of him. I squirted a bit, but thankfully missed his shirt and pants somehow.

At one point, some guy slaps my ass too and MasterDoc was not having any of that. He told him off quickly and in no uncertain terms, “Keep your fucking hands to yourself!” That’s one of the many reasons it’s preferable to go out with MasterDoc than go out alone – he watches out for me and won’t put up with bullshit.

As we recover, me still straddling him and his cock still inside of me, I playfully squeeze my vaginal muscles. He likes how that feels and I try to milk his cock a bit with my pussy. He asks if I want to fuck again and oh yes I’m keen to do that! We fuck some more, and I come again. I am very happy and very satisfied afterward.

We get dressed again (shoes mostly as we kept much of our clothing on) and wander the club. Not much else happened for a while. Later in the evening some friends showed up and we chatted and laughed with them.

We rested on a bed in the exhibitionists’ room and I stroked MasterDoc’s chest while playing with my clit. I was hoping for more fucking but MasterDoc had very little sleep the night before (three hours!) so it wasn’t going to happen. Suddenly, the slutty bartender of the club comes over with an entourage of horny guys pulling their peckers. She sits on the bed opposite us and plays with her clit. She says, “You know what I’m going to do now, right?” to me and I instantly know she plans to squirt. I exclaim that I need to move our shoes out of the way. We watch her as the guys surround her stroking themselves. In no time flat she stands up, and starts squirting a heavy stream of come. One guy puts his hands underneath her and gathers a load of her juices into his hand and then drinks them up in one gulp. (Which I must admit shocked me a little from a safer sex point of view.) A couple of other guys just put their hands in the stream of her come. It was hot to watch and afterward she got the clean-up guy to come by with a mop so no one could slip on her puddle on the floor. (Can you imagine the insurance report for that? “How did you slip and fall, Sir?” “Oh, on a puddle of girl come on the floor.”)

We wrapped up the night early so MasterDoc could get some much needed sleep. Tonight there’s a couple coming over, so hopefully I will get some more fucking.

Überdom

Published on January 21, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, dom, kink, masochism, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

Lately, with DeeDee being MasterDoc’s submissive and Stacina being a playmate, I get to enjoy seeing him Dom other women. It’s a lot of fun even to watch. Last night, while I was in bed submitting to him (collar on) he was also he was teasingly trying to mindfuck Stacina a little via text message on his phone. He had come up with an activity for next week when we see her, and he was teasing her about it by not telling her what it is. Her curiosity was met with more teasing. It was hot to witness. (And hey, she was complicit in teasing me weeks back when she and MasterDoc talked online while I waited for his attention.)

He put his phone down for a while, and had me turn onto my stomach. He used the riding crop and the wooden paddle on my ass and thighs. I had cringed when he told me to get out the wooden paddle, as it’s harsher than the leather one. I was in a good mindset though, and I found the spanking to be highly erotic, as it gradually got more intense. The sensation wasn’t painful for much of it, but when it did get painful I was totally turned on by the idea that wow, this man has such power over me that I will let him hurt me. Sometimes impact play is about the sensation and endorphin rush that ensues, but other times it’s about the submission. It’s about doing something to give him pleasure. Only recently have I started to be able to believe that his yin to my yang is really possible, i.e., he derives pleasure from the pain he gives me just as I derive pleasure from receiving it. I’ve always understood masochism, but not being especially sadistic I had a harder time truly believing that nice people could gain pleasure from my (or others’) suffering. But somehow lately it’s clicked for me that it’s hot on both ends (and not just something nice the Dom does for the sub), and I find myself turned on even more knowing that I’m giving him pleasure by my submission and letting him do with me as he wishes.

I was smart and had plugged in the Hitachi magic wand beforehand, and he said, “You’re learning!” as he grabbed it to use on me. He teased my clit, moved the wand around my nether lips and had me writhing. I kept trying to get my clit against the vibrations and press it harder when it was there. He used the paddle on me some more, and then resumed teasing my clit. I thought to myself that it must be such a turn on to see a woman writhing and moaning desperately under your hands. At that moment I was so wanton and slutty that I wouldn’t hold back my cunt’s yearning one bit. He gave me more crop on my ass and the back of my thighs.

I kept moaning and writhing, straining to rub my clit against the vibrating wand. He held me on verge of coming. My mouth was slack and open and I just kept moaning and moaning.

He stopped short of letting me come. He had me turn over. He takes the wooden paddle to my tits and inner thighs. He slaps my pussy and then grabs the crop to use on me as well. He takes up the vibrator again and teases me some more. Then he lubes up the Ella dildo (review coming soon) and slides it into my pussy. He takes it out, puts more lube on, and asks if it’s well lubed. He fucks me with it slowly, then quickly. He moved the head of the dildo around my cunt. He pressed it into my g-spot – which was ultimately what pushed me over the edge. He told me to come, and I came super hard as he fucked me with it. He kept me coming and coming despite the fact that after a while I was gasping for air. I didn’t think I could come any more but he kept stimulating me and I kept coming. He relaxed for a brief moment, then placed the magic wand on clit. Immediately I came again intensely. I squirted a puddle under me. The orgasms were fucking amazing.

After I’ve recovered, he has me put on porn. I found some sex swing porn online and he had me get up on hands and knees to fuck me. As I was so aroused from earlier, the fucking was made up of more wonderfulness and hanging on the edge of orgasm. He fucks me a long time and finally I break down and ask permission to come. He made me beg for it, which was even hotter. “Please Sir, may I come? Oh please, please. I want to come Sir, please!” He must have been satisfied with my begging as he let me come, and again he kept forcing the orgasms out of me until I collapsed on the bed.

I was exhausted, and very, very happy.

The Doctor Comes In

Published on January 19, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, happy, masturbation, orgasm on command, porn, sex, shio and squirting. 0 Comments

On the laptop was German porn. A pasty, middle aged “doctor” was preparing to give a hot young thang an examination. Apparently they didn’t have much of a budget for costumes – the “doctor” was merely wearing white pants and a white undershirt. I giggled a bit further into the film as the doctor kept saying, “Ja, oh ja, oh ja,” over and over again.

MasterDoc pulled my thighs apart and played with my pussy a bit as the video buffered. It felt good but I wasn’t wet yet. When the video was ready, he had me turn to watch it while he lubed up my asshole. Of course this led me to wonder if he was going to fuck my ass. You can never be sure with him. He applied a good amount of lube and fingered my asshole a bit.

Suddenly, he had me get on hands and knees for fucking. I put myself in position and he used some lube on my pussy. He sloshed his cock around and around the outside of my lubed cunt. He pushed in, and it was a bit dry further inside, a bit uncomfortable. But thanks to our D/s dynamic I kept focusing on how hot it was that he could just take me even with only minimal foreplay, that I was his to use as he saw fit. And soon I was wet and aroused.
Slowly, I slid into a reverie and moaned here and there when he’d thrust deep. Then I’d go quiet until the next time the stimulation was kicked up a notch. I moaned louder suddenly. He moved his cock around inside me, using his hips. I could feel it touch each wall and then he’d slam it into me again. This went on for a while, I just kept moaning out my pleasure and holding myself on the edge of orgasm. I was ready to come any time he told me to, but then, an unfamiliar sound comes out of him while we’re fucking. He grunted a bit, like he does when he comes. Usually a condom is such an impediment to him coming that he doesn’t come when we have sex. Could it be? Did he come? He fucks me a little more, stops and tells me to come. I come as he keeps his cock inside me. He pulls it out as I come to an end.

We lay down, and from his position beside me he says, “Guess what?” And I knew then that the unlikely had happened. I looked down and there was come in the condom. I gleefully kicked my legs as I can’t remember another time he came while we had sex. (He says that it happened early on, before I knew it was something unusual.) This wonderful event was probably brought on by a couple of things – going days without an orgasm was one, another was some medication he’s now on.

He teased me with the full condom, “Now it’s time to get your reward!” He opened up the condom and placed the end on my tongue. I stuck it out willingly when he told me to, but then he decided not to empty the contents onto my tongue.

He went to clean up. I still wanted more orgasms so I was stroking clit when he came in. He teased me about whether he would let me come again that night or not. He bit the back of my arm, stroked my body, and kept asking me if I wanted to come. I said yes! He teased me some more as I stroked my slick clit rapidly. I start to worry that he’s not going to let me come again until the next day, but then he tells me to come, and before I know what’s happening my body curls up slightly as I orgasm. The orgasm is strong enough that I stop moving my hand for a moment as the waves crash over me and come spurts out of my cunt. Then I gathered my wits and started stroking my clit some more and came further.

Oh I was happy. And I marvel at how well he has me trained to come. I find myself orgasming more from the sound of his voice telling me to than from being at an actual orgasmic peak at that moment. It would be interesting to come from even less stimuli – MasterDoc suggested maybe we work on that.

Amazing Night

Published on January 12, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, exhibitionism, humiliation play, humor, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

Unusually, there were lots of couples at the club last night. We didn’t get to play with any of them, but it did lead to a night with more going on than usual. I think the couples may have even outnumbered the single men for once.

We always take some time to relax, walk around a bit, see who’s there and what’s going on. I try to wait patiently until MasterDoc is ready to take me into the room of his choosing to play. This time we were in the back bedroom. It’s a little more private than others, but of course being a swing club it’s not entirely private. And hey, if we wanted privacy we would have stayed home.

We played in there, and gradually drew a crowd. He was naked when I returned from the restroom and he had me put on my collar and suck his cock. I went at it with gusto and a few people came in to peek, one man even walked around to the other end of the bed to get a good luck at my cocksucking. MasterDoc was hard in no time and I kept working his cock over, sliding it into the depths of my mouth, deep throating it as much as possible. He had me rub his cock between my breasts and I used my hands to press my large, soft breasts together around his cock. I rubbed the head on my nipples. I sucked his rigid cock some more until he told me to stop.

He played with my body – nipples, breasts, pussy. He took my bullet vibe and used it against my clit. I yearned for him to push it against the right side of my clit, for some reason that side is more sensitive. When I masturbate I almost exclusively press it against the right side. But the teasing was delicious. I took over the vibe and pressed it hard against that sweet spot. He fingered me and made me come. Between the feel of his fingers inside me, massaging my g-spot hard, and the buzzy vibe on my clit I was lost in the orgasms I had. I was loud. Very loud. People came to see what was going on. I’m not sure if I was speaking in tongues or just muttering, “Fuck, fuck, fuck yes!” over and over.

He fucked me from behind after a short break and again an audience gathered. It seemed like I wasn’t quite getting into things – I was moaning and feeling good but not quite getting to the edge. (However I was really enjoying the fact that people were watching me.) But then he told me to come and I came, squirting a pond’s worth of liquid. I soaked nearly half the bed. I wish I had a camera with me because it was something to behold. He slapped my pussy and stroked it as I kept coming. I wanted his fingers inside me so badly, and he finally slid them in and toyed with my g-spot. The audience was wowed. I came loudly, hard and for a long time, with a soaking stream of come to show for it. I couldn’t help myself, I just laughed. I couldn’t stop giggling about the mess I had made. Cuddles weren’t possible since we each had to take a rest on opposite sides of the puddle. Luckily the club puts down waterproof lining under the sheets. Of course, I got a towel and cleaned up after myself, putting the wet sheets in the hamper.

While some might have been embarrassed, I was proud of my orgasm. I had such a grin on my face and I walked around standing straight and tall. I felt amazing. The orgasm was not only impressive from the outside, it was impressive for me to experience too.

We got dressed, got drinks and were waved over by a couple. Immediately after watching my orgasm, the guy had said that he wanted lessons from MasterDoc, and MasterDoc told him he gives lessons. The woman seemed keen on her man learning whatever it was that made me come so spectacularly. MasterDoc told him many of his tricks – key one being taking the time to observe and see what turns the woman you’re with on. Every woman is different but if you’re willing to sublimate your needs/desires for a couple of sessions, you will learn much and she will thank you for it!

After a rest he led me to the bdsm room in back. He had me pull my pants off and get on the spanking bench. My pain tolerance rather high and he spanked me hard. I was surprised at how much I could take, the first bit of spanking turned me on way more than it hurt. He kept at it, using his hands, using the slut paddle. It was a prolonged spanking and one I was happy to receive. MasterDoc would shine the flashlight on my red ass every now and then, and I delighted in the humiliation of it. By the time I got up (brain drenched in endorphins), there was a crowd and MasterDoc joked with them. He tried to convince people to try the paddle – male or female, he pointed out that being a top is not a gendered thing. There was some playing and I had to laugh at all the “big, strong” men who were too wussy to try what I had just had done for an extended period of time. My ass was sore, but I sat down while they joked and played around and someone pointed out that I was actually able to sit after that spanking! One woman actually got MasterDoc to let her give him a few swats (after much persuading). How odd! He didn’t react really. Meanwhile, endorphins were flowing through me and the soreness of my butt was negligible thanks to them.

I walked out of that club last night feeling like a million bucks. The sex was amazing. The spanking was amazing. I got in MasterDoc’s car grinning like an idiot. I felt like I was on some sort of drugs. I felt so happy that I’m someone who has embraced sexuality and not let society’s conventions stop me from having the time of my life.

Bondage and Being Ignored

Published on December 29, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, bondage, cunt, fantasy, horny, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, submissive and threesome. 1 Comment

I have a new toy to review and I got to try it out last night for the first time. It’s “behind the back restraint“: basically a collar with rings attached and a leather piece leading down the back, at the base of this leather piece are two wrist cuffs. MasterDoc put me in it and I was really quite helpless. He then decided to nap on the sofa and I was to wake him in 15 minutes. I sat there, hands behind my back and became totally aroused. I had been watching kinky porn before this, so I was already in a state of arousal but the bondage and knowing that MasterDoc had essentially “left” me there in that state while he napped down the other end of the couch got me even more worked up. I contemplated why I liked the sensation and I think the vulnerability of having my breasts so exposed and not being able to use my hands at all was the key. The idea of being attacked with nipple clamps that I can’t possibly take off myself, putting me entirely at his mercy made me squirm as I sat there.

He didn’t really nap much but did have me articulate what I was thinking. Then he conjured up a hot outfit to put me in next time we’re out in a club: my leather waist cincher, the behind the back restraint, a leash attached to that collar, Njoy pure plug up my ass, a gag and a blindfold. Wow. That is just so hot. Talking to Stacina online today she added in the idea of a skirt, panties and blouse – that would then be cut off using a sharp, shiny object (blouse and panties anyway).

I was reasonably comfortable in the restraints and I really enjoyed the helplessness. Problem was, we hadn’t set up any necessary items and I couldn’t even stand up from being on the couch with my arms like that! MasterDoc undid the cuffs and sent me off to the bedroom to set up. I was sad to be let free, but certainly it was practical so MasterDoc wouldn’t have to do the setting up.

When the bedroom was set, he lay on the bed and ended up in an IM conversation with Stacina. He had me lay behind him on the bed and amuse myself. I was already wet and playing with my myself when he laughed and filled me in on what Stacina was saying. Apparently she is rather switchy and was suggesting keeping him online talking to her for an extended period of time to torture me. Yikes! Sad thing is, submissive that I am, I got so hot thinking about that – about how they were deliberately ignoring me as I got more and more worked up. I started fantasizing about the two of them controlling me and taking turns fucking me. *fans self* I was really worked up. MasterDoc handed me the magic wand for a while and I teased myself deliciously until the wand started rendering me numb.

He finished his conversation shortly thereafter and turned his attention to me. I was stroking my clit, massaging my cunt. He lay down between my legs and watched me work myself up into a frenzy. My eyes were closed mostly but I loved the idea that he was stroking himself, getting hard while he watched me masturbate. I was feeling really wanton and loose. I think I used to hold back a bit with how horny I was feeling but now I get down to touching myself freely. Before he had even come into the bedroom I ran my hands over my breasts and stomach, passionately aroused.

MasterDoc fucked me from behind, and I held out begging to come for as long as I possibly could. These days I often just wait it out and enjoy the ride until he decides it’s time for me to come. I think I should be taped sometime for the audio track of a porn flick – I moan, gasp and squeal like crazy because I’m so turned on. Lately I like pressing my arousal to the point of near orgasm, but instead of coming I ride the wave of sensation until it ebbs enough to keep me from going over the edge.

The fucking was delicious. I did break down and beg for orgasm and shortly after he let me come. He plunged his cock deep into me as I twitched and came. After a while my vaginal muscles pushed his cock out and I squirted as he slapped my pussy. I kept writhing and coming and next he ran his hand up my back. Every little touch made me keep coming. He spanked my ass, first one cheek than the other and the pain felt so wonderful I cried out, “Yes! Yes!” as I came some more from the pain.

When he told me that I had had enough, I lay there in a daze. I thanked him for the orgasm and I must have been absolutely glowing. I stroked his chest and cuddled for a while, then he decided to shoo me out of the room while he went back online. I was so utterly satisfied that I was happy to go amuse myself with my laptop.

Coming

Published on December 23, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, blow jobs, dom, horny, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, squirting, submissive and wishing box. 1 Comment

I’ve been feeling really subby the past day or so. While my insecurities scream from the back of my mind as usual, the sub in me has felt happy for MasterDoc to have fun with others when I’ve not been around. Being poly makes him happy. And I like seeing him happy. Perhaps I will manage to internalize this yet.

He had over our friend V. and our new kinky friend, Stacina, while I was at work yesterday. I certainly would have loved to be there to see V. fuck Stacina with a strap on than be at work. It sounded like it was hot. MasterDoc was then going to spend the remaining time fucking our new friend after V. had to go home but her back went out. Ever the gentleman, he set her up on the heating pad and took care of her. Of course, when I got to his place after work last night he was feeling a bit sexually frustrated. I was quite happy to be there to help him deal with the frustration.

Last night any little thing MasterDoc did that exhibited authority turned me on. When we got cozy in bed, he looked at my wishing box even though I haven’t added anything lately. (I did later that night however.) I told him that I couldn’t come up with new things to add, and he pointed out that it’s not just new things that go in there, but things that I wish we were doing more. Ah! I will keep that in mind. He read through each piece of paper and I realized that I couldn’t quite remember what was in there.

We watched some porn laying against each other, my back to his tummy and we both stroked ourselves. He reached over me and grabbed the magic wand, turned it on, and pressed it against my clit. I was so horny instantly and soon after he started he said that I can come as much as I like for the next minute.

I lost control completely as always. I squirted a little. I came over and over, being tossed like a ship on a stormy sea from one peak to the next. I can’t imagine what I look like at those moments. All I’m aware of is my entire body being gripped by orgasm. Body, brain, soul. He pulled the wand away after one minute.

I lay there recovering. And I remembered the all important, “Thank you, Sir,” in the aftermath of the orgasm he gave me.

He had me put the wedge under him and get on top but his cock wasn’t quite ready. Instead we cuddled and I stroked his cock. He talked dirty to me, taking control of the situation. He asks if I want to feel his cock inside me. Breathlessly I say, “Yes, Sir.” I moan a little and press my body against his. His cock is completely hard now and he decides on a change of plans – he has me get on hands and knees.

He fucked me while watching porn. While this was going on, I thought about how hot it is to be fucked while being somewhat objectified – for him to enjoy me while his attention is on the porn and I’m just there to plunge his dick into. I moan like crazy and could come at any second. After a good long fuck, he pulls out. He tells me: “Come” and I orgasm while he slaps my cunt. The come squirts out and splatters as he slaps. I come so hard that I start to worry I might pass out. My awareness goes hazy, it kinda fades in and out with the alternation of my breathing and holding breath. I keep saying this lately (at least to myself if not here), “I’ve never come this hard before!” like every time is even better than the last. I squirted again while coming.

After I’ve recovered, he says he wants to come, and I think that means I’ll be behind him playing with ass like most times. He says no, that I will help from in front. I focus in on his cock as he strokes it and I massage his ass and thighs. I become almost mesmerized watching him up close. When he’s nearly ready to come, he has me put my mouth over his cock and I feel the head in between my lips. He comes and I feel it spurting out of his cock and onto my tongue. A few quick spurts and I can feel the come resting on my tongue. He has me hold the come and his cock in my mouth for a while. He tells me to suck and more drops come out of his cock into my come-filled mouth.

I show him the cum in my mouth and he tells me to let it dribble out. It dribbles out too fast at first but I still had some in my mouth and did it more slowly the second time. He liked watching the come dribble out of my mouth. I liked being the dirty whore who held his come in my mouth and drooled it all over after. I later added to the box that I want to have him come in my mouth more often, that I want to be made to play with his come. I enjoyed that so much I was smiling like the Cheshire cat after.