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His Hands and My Body Make Beautiful Music Together

Published on February 24, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, blow jobs, cunt, dom, edge play, horny, kink, masturbation, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys and submissive. 2 Comments

I hadn’t seen him for a few days and I’ve been so horny for him lately.

We were in bed, touching each other. I indulged my senses in the feel of his fingers along my body, in the scent of him, in the texture of his chest hair. I love the way my body reacts to his touch. He knows just where to touch me – non-errogenous zones – to work me up and arouse me. Massaging where hip meets thigh, firmly stroking my thighs, calves. We had some sort of hot porn on, but now, a few days later, I can’t recall what it was.

He fucked me doggy style. I bucked my hips back to meet him and started moaning from the stroking of his cock inside me. We fucked for a while, and I didn’t orgasm although if he had given permission I could have. Despite this I was still pretty damned happy. Which is saying a lot for a goal-oriented slut like myself.

As he lies next to me, he takes my right nipple into his mouth and sucks on it hard. His tongue toys with the areola and he uses suction to pick my breast up away from my supine body. I gasp and roll my hips as he does this. I run my fingers through his wavy hair.

At this point I was totally lusting after him. I was hungry for his touch, his caresses. I twined my fingers in his chest hair and ran my hands down his body. I massaged his inner thighs and he told me how good that felt.

After languorously playing with my nipple, he went back to playing my body like an instrument. I stroked my slick clit as he teased me and told me dirty things. I came hard with my fingers on my clit, but it was his talk and touch that made the orgasm really happen. I came two or three times that evening – without fucking. He clasped my throat at one point and I wasn’t sure if I loved or feared the fuzziness that came over my vision.

We fucked again later and he let me use the magic wand on my clit. I love feeling the buzz on my clit while I feel his thick cock fill me up. I fuck him frantically trying to control how fast he thrusts in and out of me. He ultimately controls it, however, no matter how hard I try. I come, and come, and come when he gives me the word.

It seemed like we were pretty much over playing but I was still lusting hard. I licked and kissed his chest, stroking him all over. I played with his inner thigh and the lower portions of his ass. I know this feels good to him. He tugged at his cock until ready to come. In the meanwhile I positioned my mouth nearby and licked my lips, hungrily longing for his come in my mouth. I kept eagerly springing forward in the hopes that he was ready to spurt. I looked like those women in porn films that are open mouthed and licking their lips in lust over some guys’ cock. I thought it seemed a bit overdone when I’ve seen it in porn but perhaps I just hadn’t had the right guy in front of me before. I wanted his cock in my mouth.

He came in my mouth and I sucked on it while holding the come. Instead of his usual request for me to dribble out his come he had me spit into a glass. He threatened to have me drink it but thankfully saved me from it… that night. He keeps talking about me snowballing with DeeDee.

Later he wanted to come again – something that pretty much never happens. I was getting tired by this time, but I did as Sir told me and got pillows so I could kneel on the floor and play with his cock as he reclined on the couch. He came into my mouth again. There wasn’t much come this time, but I was glad that he was satisfied. I went to bed with a smile on my face.

Rough Porn

Published on February 14, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, edge play, gags, horny, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sadism, sex, sex toys, slut and submissive. 2 Comments

He asked if I wanted it long and slow, or short and fast. I said slow, hoping for a long evening of kink. He had that serious domly look in his eyes, the one that makes me oh so hot. He had me sit up so he could play with my tits. He’d look me right in the eye and then twist a nipple to watch the look on my face as it hurt. In the background we had rough sex porn running, and I was insanely wet already. I know it’s so wrong, and I know that extreme stuff can make people uncomfortable (because of its resemblance to some very bad things) but Jesus, watching a woman get her face fucked makes me so hot and so want to be in her place. I want to be roughly handled, gagged on his cock. I want to be a drooling mess.

He tried out the new dental gag I bought, it was really hot for the humiliation aspect of it, as i sat there with my mouth wide open. (It’s a Jennings dental gag, but without the strap like the one on this page.) It’s a shame I didn’t drool but I found my mouth growing dry instead. My tongue was exposed for him to see and it felt naked without teeth and lips to hide behind.

MasterDoc grabbed the magic wand, and he pressed it to my clit. My eyes would flicker, then close and I’d be lost in my ever increasing arousal. It flooded me, flooded my senses. I would come so close to coming and he would stop. And the fact that he was controlling my arousal and eventual orgasm made it even hotter. He teased me for a bit and I was lost in his intense eyes. Him being in control makes me so hot.

He had me remove the gag. Not only was my mouth dry but he was concerned that I’d break a tooth if I came with it in. We watched more porn, and I loved how the porn actress played the part of someone who’s surprised at the rough treatment she’s getting and oh dear how scared she is! I can get hot off of it if I can tell it’s play. I so desperately want to act out a scene like that with MasterDoc. I want to play scared, and let myself get into the role and feel scared. I want him to take me roughly, slap me about, push me down. I want him to piss on me. I want him to use my body in delicious and horrible ways. I was actually disappointed when he got up to go pee last night and didn’t decide to piss on me. I want to be passed around to various people for them to use my body.

He worked my Njoy plug into my ass and I stroked my wet clit and breathed heavy. I was so aroused. There was no hiding it. No hiding my sexuality. No hiding how much I wanted it.

He fucked me from behind with the stainless steel plug in my ass. I felt so full and having both holes filled like that was amazing. Oh god I wanted to come! Being fucked like that was so hot, I could feel him play with the plug in my ass. The only thing that could have improved that wonderful scenario is if another cock was available to go into my mouth at the same time.

In the porn, the actress is fucked up the ass by one man, while she’s being gagged on the cock of the other. Fuck. I want to experience that.

My knees gave out, so I had to crawl down onto the mat. After a breather and returning to my wits, I turned towards MasterDoc and played with his chest. I lusted after him so completely.

But alas, he wanted a snack. (And you can tell that this is a true story and not erotica, because the Dom doesn’t stop for a snack in the middle of an erotica piece.) I lay on the living room floor (we had been on the mat, you see) and watched the porn continue playing on the television. Seeing that woman being used and fucked and slapped around made me so hot. I’m sure MasterDoc could hear my moaning from the kitchen as I furiously stroked my clit. He came back in with some food and told me that I could make myself come if I wanted to.

So I focused on the porn and rubbed my slick clit until I came. To help me come, he held down my shoulder with his foot as best he could. The combination of hot porn, rapidly rubbed clit, being held down a little, and being under his foot led me to an explosive orgasm.

After all that expended energy, I needed a break, myself. A little later he decided that he wanted to come. I was slightly disappointed as I craved more fucking. But I played with his ass like he told me to and I grew more aroused knowing that he wanted to come in my mouth. When he was close to coming , I moved around to the front of him and placed my mouth right by the tip of his cock. I put his cock in my mouth as he came and then slid it further into my mouth to suck on the shaft. This kept him twitching with pleasure and it was so hot. I held his come in my mouth like he likes, and he told me to dribble it out onto the towel under me. I let it drool out and he was happy. I felt like a dirty slut and it felt so good.

I could have gone on all night fucking. I feel like something’s awakened in me that hasn’t been awake in years. I can’t remember going all night fucking for a very long time.

Überdom

Published on January 21, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, dom, kink, masochism, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

Lately, with DeeDee being MasterDoc’s submissive and Stacina being a playmate, I get to enjoy seeing him Dom other women. It’s a lot of fun even to watch. Last night, while I was in bed submitting to him (collar on) he was also he was teasingly trying to mindfuck Stacina a little via text message on his phone. He had come up with an activity for next week when we see her, and he was teasing her about it by not telling her what it is. Her curiosity was met with more teasing. It was hot to witness. (And hey, she was complicit in teasing me weeks back when she and MasterDoc talked online while I waited for his attention.)

He put his phone down for a while, and had me turn onto my stomach. He used the riding crop and the wooden paddle on my ass and thighs. I had cringed when he told me to get out the wooden paddle, as it’s harsher than the leather one. I was in a good mindset though, and I found the spanking to be highly erotic, as it gradually got more intense. The sensation wasn’t painful for much of it, but when it did get painful I was totally turned on by the idea that wow, this man has such power over me that I will let him hurt me. Sometimes impact play is about the sensation and endorphin rush that ensues, but other times it’s about the submission. It’s about doing something to give him pleasure. Only recently have I started to be able to believe that his yin to my yang is really possible, i.e., he derives pleasure from the pain he gives me just as I derive pleasure from receiving it. I’ve always understood masochism, but not being especially sadistic I had a harder time truly believing that nice people could gain pleasure from my (or others’) suffering. But somehow lately it’s clicked for me that it’s hot on both ends (and not just something nice the Dom does for the sub), and I find myself turned on even more knowing that I’m giving him pleasure by my submission and letting him do with me as he wishes.

I was smart and had plugged in the Hitachi magic wand beforehand, and he said, “You’re learning!” as he grabbed it to use on me. He teased my clit, moved the wand around my nether lips and had me writhing. I kept trying to get my clit against the vibrations and press it harder when it was there. He used the paddle on me some more, and then resumed teasing my clit. I thought to myself that it must be such a turn on to see a woman writhing and moaning desperately under your hands. At that moment I was so wanton and slutty that I wouldn’t hold back my cunt’s yearning one bit. He gave me more crop on my ass and the back of my thighs.

I kept moaning and writhing, straining to rub my clit against the vibrating wand. He held me on verge of coming. My mouth was slack and open and I just kept moaning and moaning.

He stopped short of letting me come. He had me turn over. He takes the wooden paddle to my tits and inner thighs. He slaps my pussy and then grabs the crop to use on me as well. He takes up the vibrator again and teases me some more. Then he lubes up the Ella dildo (review coming soon) and slides it into my pussy. He takes it out, puts more lube on, and asks if it’s well lubed. He fucks me with it slowly, then quickly. He moved the head of the dildo around my cunt. He pressed it into my g-spot – which was ultimately what pushed me over the edge. He told me to come, and I came super hard as he fucked me with it. He kept me coming and coming despite the fact that after a while I was gasping for air. I didn’t think I could come any more but he kept stimulating me and I kept coming. He relaxed for a brief moment, then placed the magic wand on clit. Immediately I came again intensely. I squirted a puddle under me. The orgasms were fucking amazing.

After I’ve recovered, he has me put on porn. I found some sex swing porn online and he had me get up on hands and knees to fuck me. As I was so aroused from earlier, the fucking was made up of more wonderfulness and hanging on the edge of orgasm. He fucks me a long time and finally I break down and ask permission to come. He made me beg for it, which was even hotter. “Please Sir, may I come? Oh please, please. I want to come Sir, please!” He must have been satisfied with my begging as he let me come, and again he kept forcing the orgasms out of me until I collapsed on the bed.

I was exhausted, and very, very happy.

Amazing Night

Published on January 12, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, exhibitionism, humiliation play, humor, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

Unusually, there were lots of couples at the club last night. We didn’t get to play with any of them, but it did lead to a night with more going on than usual. I think the couples may have even outnumbered the single men for once.

We always take some time to relax, walk around a bit, see who’s there and what’s going on. I try to wait patiently until MasterDoc is ready to take me into the room of his choosing to play. This time we were in the back bedroom. It’s a little more private than others, but of course being a swing club it’s not entirely private. And hey, if we wanted privacy we would have stayed home.

We played in there, and gradually drew a crowd. He was naked when I returned from the restroom and he had me put on my collar and suck his cock. I went at it with gusto and a few people came in to peek, one man even walked around to the other end of the bed to get a good luck at my cocksucking. MasterDoc was hard in no time and I kept working his cock over, sliding it into the depths of my mouth, deep throating it as much as possible. He had me rub his cock between my breasts and I used my hands to press my large, soft breasts together around his cock. I rubbed the head on my nipples. I sucked his rigid cock some more until he told me to stop.

He played with my body – nipples, breasts, pussy. He took my bullet vibe and used it against my clit. I yearned for him to push it against the right side of my clit, for some reason that side is more sensitive. When I masturbate I almost exclusively press it against the right side. But the teasing was delicious. I took over the vibe and pressed it hard against that sweet spot. He fingered me and made me come. Between the feel of his fingers inside me, massaging my g-spot hard, and the buzzy vibe on my clit I was lost in the orgasms I had. I was loud. Very loud. People came to see what was going on. I’m not sure if I was speaking in tongues or just muttering, “Fuck, fuck, fuck yes!” over and over.

He fucked me from behind after a short break and again an audience gathered. It seemed like I wasn’t quite getting into things – I was moaning and feeling good but not quite getting to the edge. (However I was really enjoying the fact that people were watching me.) But then he told me to come and I came, squirting a pond’s worth of liquid. I soaked nearly half the bed. I wish I had a camera with me because it was something to behold. He slapped my pussy and stroked it as I kept coming. I wanted his fingers inside me so badly, and he finally slid them in and toyed with my g-spot. The audience was wowed. I came loudly, hard and for a long time, with a soaking stream of come to show for it. I couldn’t help myself, I just laughed. I couldn’t stop giggling about the mess I had made. Cuddles weren’t possible since we each had to take a rest on opposite sides of the puddle. Luckily the club puts down waterproof lining under the sheets. Of course, I got a towel and cleaned up after myself, putting the wet sheets in the hamper.

While some might have been embarrassed, I was proud of my orgasm. I had such a grin on my face and I walked around standing straight and tall. I felt amazing. The orgasm was not only impressive from the outside, it was impressive for me to experience too.

We got dressed, got drinks and were waved over by a couple. Immediately after watching my orgasm, the guy had said that he wanted lessons from MasterDoc, and MasterDoc told him he gives lessons. The woman seemed keen on her man learning whatever it was that made me come so spectacularly. MasterDoc told him many of his tricks – key one being taking the time to observe and see what turns the woman you’re with on. Every woman is different but if you’re willing to sublimate your needs/desires for a couple of sessions, you will learn much and she will thank you for it!

After a rest he led me to the bdsm room in back. He had me pull my pants off and get on the spanking bench. My pain tolerance rather high and he spanked me hard. I was surprised at how much I could take, the first bit of spanking turned me on way more than it hurt. He kept at it, using his hands, using the slut paddle. It was a prolonged spanking and one I was happy to receive. MasterDoc would shine the flashlight on my red ass every now and then, and I delighted in the humiliation of it. By the time I got up (brain drenched in endorphins), there was a crowd and MasterDoc joked with them. He tried to convince people to try the paddle – male or female, he pointed out that being a top is not a gendered thing. There was some playing and I had to laugh at all the “big, strong” men who were too wussy to try what I had just had done for an extended period of time. My ass was sore, but I sat down while they joked and played around and someone pointed out that I was actually able to sit after that spanking! One woman actually got MasterDoc to let her give him a few swats (after much persuading). How odd! He didn’t react really. Meanwhile, endorphins were flowing through me and the soreness of my butt was negligible thanks to them.

I walked out of that club last night feeling like a million bucks. The sex was amazing. The spanking was amazing. I got in MasterDoc’s car grinning like an idiot. I felt like I was on some sort of drugs. I felt so happy that I’m someone who has embraced sexuality and not let society’s conventions stop me from having the time of my life.

Pegging My Dom

Published on January 11, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, anal, blow jobs, kink, sex toys, spanking, submissive, sybian and threesome. 1 Comment

Over the weekend, I saw a bit of DeeDee and MasterDoc while DeeDee was visiting for a week. I arrived when they were just starting a show; MasterDoc had sent me a text telling me to be in sub mode when I walked in. Their guest was a guy writing book with chapter on BDSM, looking to research it for the book. From what I heard he had some erroneous ideas about BDSM. Hopefully he will listen to what he learned from DeeDee and MasterDoc and write something at least somewhat accurate. (I’m not holding my breath.) I hid myself in the bedroom while they did their show, and it was incredibly hot to listen to the spanking from there. The pitch rose until DeeDee was begging to come. Rowr. I got called in, and found DeeDee on the sybian. MasterDoc wanted me to help paddle her while she came. I gleefully obliged. He said I wasn’t hitting her hard enough but her butt was definitely more rosy after I paddled her. She recovered on floor after, and while he tended to her, MasterDoc had me lead the guest out. When their guest mentioned needing a place to sit to put on his shoes, I p0inted out that there’s chairs in the dining room. Dickwad looked at me, said, “Yes I saw that.” So much for trying to be gracious and helpful. I wasn’t just being a sub, I was trying to be a decent hostess. Snide comments are not appreciated. Jerk.

During the visit DeeDee did a lot of the fetching but I got asked to chip in with some cleaning. I was happy to have some help , but when DeeDee would do something like get me a drink, I felt weird being at all waited on. I’m not used to that. My mother used to tell me I’m spoiled, but it dawned on me that night that I got used to caring for myself at a fairly young age. MasterDoc pointed out that I let Davey do stuff for me, but I pointed out that initially he had to convince me he wanted to do that. I would do stuff myself and he’d get frustrated because he likes feeling needed.

The plan for the evening was for me to use a strap on on MasterDoc. Yes. You read that right. It’s rare that he lets a woman peg him, and he only ever lets submissives do it – while another lady blows or plays with him. These criteria need to be met before he will do it. He’s talked for a while now about letting me do it, since we’ve developed an adequate level of trust. (The last time was years ago with his submissive at the time.) It’s funny, because usually he’s totally comfortable with liking anal stimulation as a straight guy. He’s really sex positive and not the least bit homophobic usually. But when a strap on enters the picture, he gets a little funny. He has to have another woman sucking him off at the same time so it’s “not gay.” He admits it’s absurd, but he’s to some extent a product of his generation.

We were setting up in the living room, and chatting, trying to ease into the scene. Somehow in the course of conversation I came out with, “In my time we had to walk down to the store to buy porn! We didn’t have the internet!” as an “In my day we had to walk a mile, uphill, both ways to get to school,” sort of thing. We laughed and talked about coming up with more. I thought for a bit and came up with, “In my time we had to use Crisco because there wasn’t lube at the corner store!” Hopefully I will manage to come up with a few more. (Can you think of any?)

I got down to business working MasterDoc’s ass over – massaging, lubing – while DeeDee sucked his cock. I gradually worked a finger in at his request and after trying to loosen things up gently with my finger I gradually worked a butt plug in. After some play with the plug, MasterDoc decided he was ready and he got on hands and knees as it seemed the best position. I had my harness on with my red glitter, silicone dildo, a slim one I specifically bought a few years back to peg boys with. MasterDoc kept telling me to add more lube, and my hands were so slippery I could barely handle the lube bottle! Getting lube into his ass was tricky. We need to get one of those applicators that let you apply lube inside the anus. Lubed as much as I could get him, I tried to get the dildo in. DeeDee was playing with his cock in the meantime. I’m not sure how much of the dildo got in there, probably very little. MasterDoc had me stop for a minute because it hurt, and by then my knees had given out from kneeling on the floor. We had to stop for the night. So it wasn’t entirely successful, but we gave it a shot. I’m sure we’ll try it again sometime.

As I was quite horny at the tail end of the week, and hadn’t had sex in a few days, MasterDoc offered me a horsey (sybian) ride. I had a hard time getting into mood though. Sometimes I can pop on top of the dildo and get warmed up as we go, but I needed foreplay before sticking anything in me that night. MasterDoc worked on it, sucking my nipple and such. As DeeDee walked by to go to the kitchen, he got her to come in and suck on my other tit, and I played with my bullet vibe on my clit. Turned on enough that I might come if we went further, he put me on the sybian. MasterDoc had DeeDee paddle my ass like I had done to her. She did it too light, unfortunately. I managed to come even though it was hard to get myself in quite the right headspace that night. All in all, everyone got some attention that day. I slept in the spare bedroom since it was DeeDee’s weekend with him, and to be quite honest sometimes I’m thrilled to sleep alone. I sleep so much better without a snoring guy beside me. It can be nice to have someone next to you, but I treasure those nights alone too.

I made a concerted effort to not take too much time from DeeDee while I hung out with them. Not sure how I did, but at one point I was hit with an attention craving, and I reasoned it out rather than asking for attention. Would I fall into a depression or anything serious without the attention? No. Could I “suck it up buttercup” and take care of myself that night? Yes. And so I did since I didn’t want to infringe on DeeDee’s time too much. I think I was more comfortable than I usually am. I think I’ve grown a bit more secure lately. Of course, in a depressed mood that could disappear into the ether, but for now I’m feeling good.

On With the Show

Published on January 3, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, embarrassment, exhibitionism, flogging, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm on command, photos, sex, sex toys, show, slut, spanking and submissive. 1 Comment

Late Saturday afternoon we put on a show. I wasn’t initially in the mood for one, I was hoping for a quiet afternoon in and possibly some more use of my behind the back restraints. (I’m keeping my fingers crossed that they will get a fair amount of use.) MasterDoc had me dress in the maid costume from Halloween, and I felt silly. I was embarrassed and not in the hot-humiliation-play sort of way. He pointed out that had I asked nicely not to wear it, I may have been allowed to forgo it that day, but since I was a bit cranky I ended up in the costume. I started feeling a bit better after I put on fishnet stockings and the high heels. They made me feel sexier as did our guest’s reaction when he saw me. His immediate reaction was, “Wow! Very nice! Very pretty.”

I think heels look fabulous, but I can’t stand wearing the bloody things. I also thought that MasterDoc’s neighbors must be cursing me as I clumped around on the wooden floor in heels. I asked for permission to take them off and thankfully he let me. I got drinks for everyone as MasterDoc started making conversation with our guest. I sat on the couch next to MasterDoc in my silly maid outfit and blushed profusely as they talked about me, and MasterDoc talked about our relationship. It’s funny, the feminist in me realizes that I shouldn’t be all into being liked for my looks and sex appeal, but damn it does feel good to feel sexy.

My friend Coy Pink recently sent along a new toy when she was so very kind to send me some yummy tea. (Let me just say, she rocks. And she has some hooooot pictures on her site.) She had won an electrosex power box and wasn’t interested in it herself. She asked if I was interested and since MasterDoc has some TENS units we’ve used, I said yes. We had taken it out of the box and looked it over, but not played with it yet. MasterDoc applied two of the electrodes on either side of my left nipple. He played with the settings on the box and for a while I didn’t feel anything. Then he started to get it going and I jumped suddenly. Our guest said, “Oh she felt that!” and seemed amused. He asked if it could be used elsewhere, such as my pussy. MasterDoc said, ooh he’ s a meanie, and opted instead for my inner thigh since he’s not accustomed to using the unit yet. He played with shocking me a bit more before deciding to put the toy away. I’m curious to see what it would be like if we had a vaginal electrode attachment. Yikes. Could be amazingly fun or horrible torture.

He had me get on my knees and blow him. It’s a very subservient position to be in – on your knees, breasts bared, sucking the cock of your dressed Dom and being watched by another perv. In case you might misinterpret that, I mean it’s hot. Plus I’m quite happy with my “slut’s pacifier” in my mouth.

Our guest was appreciative, paying me many compliments throughout the show. This added to the ego boost MasterDoc had been giving me lately by giving me lots of compliments and reminding me how much he loves me. I have to admit that I’m not feeling so down on myself now.

I got bent over the scoop and flogged and paddled. (He used the wooden paddle, which is much harsher than the leather slut paddle.) I’ll include some pictures here for your viewing pleasure. MasterDoc also teased me with my bullet vibe and played with me until I begged to come. I came in typically spectacular fashion – you can’t mistake me for someone who’s not enjoying herself.

(New camera. Haven’t fixed the date stamp!)

After I recovered, MasterDoc had me do more dick sucking, followed by laying on my back masturbating on the mat on the floor. It’s funny how I have no trouble doing this in front of a stranger (I mean, it’s HOT) but I do keep my eyes closed as much as possible. I was already really wet from coming before. MasterDoc had me get on hands and knees and he fucked me from behind. He should be quite proud at the good fucking he gave me, there are men younger than 55 who can’t manage what he did. Rowr. Again, I came spectacularly hard to the delight of our guest. He swore that he would definitely come again for another show.

Bondage and Being Ignored

Published on December 29, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, bondage, cunt, fantasy, horny, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, submissive and threesome. 1 Comment

I have a new toy to review and I got to try it out last night for the first time. It’s “behind the back restraint“: basically a collar with rings attached and a leather piece leading down the back, at the base of this leather piece are two wrist cuffs. MasterDoc put me in it and I was really quite helpless. He then decided to nap on the sofa and I was to wake him in 15 minutes. I sat there, hands behind my back and became totally aroused. I had been watching kinky porn before this, so I was already in a state of arousal but the bondage and knowing that MasterDoc had essentially “left” me there in that state while he napped down the other end of the couch got me even more worked up. I contemplated why I liked the sensation and I think the vulnerability of having my breasts so exposed and not being able to use my hands at all was the key. The idea of being attacked with nipple clamps that I can’t possibly take off myself, putting me entirely at his mercy made me squirm as I sat there.

He didn’t really nap much but did have me articulate what I was thinking. Then he conjured up a hot outfit to put me in next time we’re out in a club: my leather waist cincher, the behind the back restraint, a leash attached to that collar, Njoy pure plug up my ass, a gag and a blindfold. Wow. That is just so hot. Talking to Stacina online today she added in the idea of a skirt, panties and blouse – that would then be cut off using a sharp, shiny object (blouse and panties anyway).

I was reasonably comfortable in the restraints and I really enjoyed the helplessness. Problem was, we hadn’t set up any necessary items and I couldn’t even stand up from being on the couch with my arms like that! MasterDoc undid the cuffs and sent me off to the bedroom to set up. I was sad to be let free, but certainly it was practical so MasterDoc wouldn’t have to do the setting up.

When the bedroom was set, he lay on the bed and ended up in an IM conversation with Stacina. He had me lay behind him on the bed and amuse myself. I was already wet and playing with my myself when he laughed and filled me in on what Stacina was saying. Apparently she is rather switchy and was suggesting keeping him online talking to her for an extended period of time to torture me. Yikes! Sad thing is, submissive that I am, I got so hot thinking about that – about how they were deliberately ignoring me as I got more and more worked up. I started fantasizing about the two of them controlling me and taking turns fucking me. *fans self* I was really worked up. MasterDoc handed me the magic wand for a while and I teased myself deliciously until the wand started rendering me numb.

He finished his conversation shortly thereafter and turned his attention to me. I was stroking my clit, massaging my cunt. He lay down between my legs and watched me work myself up into a frenzy. My eyes were closed mostly but I loved the idea that he was stroking himself, getting hard while he watched me masturbate. I was feeling really wanton and loose. I think I used to hold back a bit with how horny I was feeling but now I get down to touching myself freely. Before he had even come into the bedroom I ran my hands over my breasts and stomach, passionately aroused.

MasterDoc fucked me from behind, and I held out begging to come for as long as I possibly could. These days I often just wait it out and enjoy the ride until he decides it’s time for me to come. I think I should be taped sometime for the audio track of a porn flick – I moan, gasp and squeal like crazy because I’m so turned on. Lately I like pressing my arousal to the point of near orgasm, but instead of coming I ride the wave of sensation until it ebbs enough to keep me from going over the edge.

The fucking was delicious. I did break down and beg for orgasm and shortly after he let me come. He plunged his cock deep into me as I twitched and came. After a while my vaginal muscles pushed his cock out and I squirted as he slapped my pussy. I kept writhing and coming and next he ran his hand up my back. Every little touch made me keep coming. He spanked my ass, first one cheek than the other and the pain felt so wonderful I cried out, “Yes! Yes!” as I came some more from the pain.

When he told me that I had had enough, I lay there in a daze. I thanked him for the orgasm and I must have been absolutely glowing. I stroked his chest and cuddled for a while, then he decided to shoo me out of the room while he went back online. I was so utterly satisfied that I was happy to go amuse myself with my laptop.

Coming

Published on December 23, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, blow jobs, dom, horny, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, squirting, submissive and wishing box. 1 Comment

I’ve been feeling really subby the past day or so. While my insecurities scream from the back of my mind as usual, the sub in me has felt happy for MasterDoc to have fun with others when I’ve not been around. Being poly makes him happy. And I like seeing him happy. Perhaps I will manage to internalize this yet.

He had over our friend V. and our new kinky friend, Stacina, while I was at work yesterday. I certainly would have loved to be there to see V. fuck Stacina with a strap on than be at work. It sounded like it was hot. MasterDoc was then going to spend the remaining time fucking our new friend after V. had to go home but her back went out. Ever the gentleman, he set her up on the heating pad and took care of her. Of course, when I got to his place after work last night he was feeling a bit sexually frustrated. I was quite happy to be there to help him deal with the frustration.

Last night any little thing MasterDoc did that exhibited authority turned me on. When we got cozy in bed, he looked at my wishing box even though I haven’t added anything lately. (I did later that night however.) I told him that I couldn’t come up with new things to add, and he pointed out that it’s not just new things that go in there, but things that I wish we were doing more. Ah! I will keep that in mind. He read through each piece of paper and I realized that I couldn’t quite remember what was in there.

We watched some porn laying against each other, my back to his tummy and we both stroked ourselves. He reached over me and grabbed the magic wand, turned it on, and pressed it against my clit. I was so horny instantly and soon after he started he said that I can come as much as I like for the next minute.

I lost control completely as always. I squirted a little. I came over and over, being tossed like a ship on a stormy sea from one peak to the next. I can’t imagine what I look like at those moments. All I’m aware of is my entire body being gripped by orgasm. Body, brain, soul. He pulled the wand away after one minute.

I lay there recovering. And I remembered the all important, “Thank you, Sir,” in the aftermath of the orgasm he gave me.

He had me put the wedge under him and get on top but his cock wasn’t quite ready. Instead we cuddled and I stroked his cock. He talked dirty to me, taking control of the situation. He asks if I want to feel his cock inside me. Breathlessly I say, “Yes, Sir.” I moan a little and press my body against his. His cock is completely hard now and he decides on a change of plans – he has me get on hands and knees.

He fucked me while watching porn. While this was going on, I thought about how hot it is to be fucked while being somewhat objectified – for him to enjoy me while his attention is on the porn and I’m just there to plunge his dick into. I moan like crazy and could come at any second. After a good long fuck, he pulls out. He tells me: “Come” and I orgasm while he slaps my cunt. The come squirts out and splatters as he slaps. I come so hard that I start to worry I might pass out. My awareness goes hazy, it kinda fades in and out with the alternation of my breathing and holding breath. I keep saying this lately (at least to myself if not here), “I’ve never come this hard before!” like every time is even better than the last. I squirted again while coming.

After I’ve recovered, he says he wants to come, and I think that means I’ll be behind him playing with ass like most times. He says no, that I will help from in front. I focus in on his cock as he strokes it and I massage his ass and thighs. I become almost mesmerized watching him up close. When he’s nearly ready to come, he has me put my mouth over his cock and I feel the head in between my lips. He comes and I feel it spurting out of his cock and onto my tongue. A few quick spurts and I can feel the come resting on my tongue. He has me hold the come and his cock in my mouth for a while. He tells me to suck and more drops come out of his cock into my come-filled mouth.

I show him the cum in my mouth and he tells me to let it dribble out. It dribbles out too fast at first but I still had some in my mouth and did it more slowly the second time. He liked watching the come dribble out of my mouth. I liked being the dirty whore who held his come in my mouth and drooled it all over after. I later added to the box that I want to have him come in my mouth more often, that I want to be made to play with his come. I enjoyed that so much I was smiling like the Cheshire cat after.

Day of Debauchery

Published on December 19, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, analingus, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, bondage, caning, exhibitionism, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sadism, sex, sex toys, show, spanking, submissive, sybian and threesome. 0 Comments

Friday was quite a full day of pervyness with MasterDoc. Early in the afternoon, he had a lady who’s a switch come over with the intention of her helping top me. But somehow he found out that she also has a swing profile and he proceeded to look up the profile and read it out loud to her. He teased her mercilessly as it’s quite a slutty profile. (Yeah, like either of us have an issue with sluts. They’re our favorite people!) She turned red and we all laughed so hard. When he got to the point about how she can come from just neck/ear nibbling or nipple stimulation he said, “Oh yeah?” and proceeded to play with her neck. The laughing stopped around then, and she was immediately in a horny reverie, head tipping back, mouth open. He took out one breast and I took out the other, and the two of us made her come from just sucking on her nipples. It was loads of fun. He teased her sadistically some more, and somehow none of us ever ended up naked. But we had the best time laughing and teasing. I’m hoping we get to see her again soon. (And while I was perfectly happy with how the visit turned out, I do look forward to being topped by two people at once someday!)

Later in the afternoon, an Irish guy who had watched a show before came over to see us again. MasterDoc put me over the Liberator scoop, used the wrist and thigh cuffs to attach me to the scoop, and spanked my ass. It felt more sting-y than usual yesterday and the canes smarted something awful. He alternated with the riding crop as well which was easier to handle. His wooden paddle was almost unbearable. He helped me deal with the pain by putting the magic wand up against my cunt while he spanked me some more. I did my best to grind my clit against the wand, but it was always just slightly off to the side of the ideal spot. But I got so hot, and so far into subspace, from that beating/teasing combo. He let me lay over the scoop for a few minutes after so I could come down a bit.

He took off the wrist cuffs and I felt floaty when I got up. I knelt before him, he was seated on the couch, and sucked MasterDoc’s cock. He did a little face fucking again, which produced lots of drool. It’s not easy being gagged like that but I do think it’s terribly hot. The river of drool that comes out as my mouth is pulled off is really sexy in a nasty sort of way. Earlier, he had told me I’m a dirty slut and made me admit that I wanted to be used in front of our guest. The low growl to his voice as he makes me look him in the eye and say these things get me so hot. I feel embarrassed but oh so turned on.

He had me warm up on the floor mat with the magic wand. I couldn’t look our guest in the eye too often but I did get myself very close to orgasm quickly. MasterDoc fucked me from behind for a bit and the feel of his cock inside me while I pressed the magic wand to my clit would have easily been enough to send me (way) over the edge. But I wasn’t given permission to come just yet. I had to pull the wand away from my clit a bit to ensure I didn’t come accidentally. But it felt so good and I wanted to come so badly.

Our guest had told MasterDoc beforehand that he wanted to see me fucked up the ass, and so MasterDoc pulled his cock out and lubed up my ass and my slender, red glitter dildo. He slid the dildo into my ass to warm me up and it felt great as he fucked me with it. I think I’m still a little surprised at how aroused I can get from anal stimulation. This didn’t last long, and MasterDoc put his hard cock against my hole. For a moment it felt like it wasn’t going to go in, but then it pushed past my sphincter. Holy shit did it feel good to feel his large cock in my ass. He fucked me hard while our guest watched and I moaned like a bitch in heat. MasterDoc talked dirty to me, telling me I’m a good little three hole slut and other equally hot, nasty things. He knows that telling me I’m a slut, whore, fucktoy, etc. will get me off even harder.

When he told me to come, I came so very hard. I screamed, my head slid forward off the mat. He kept fucking my ass and I must have gotten absolutely flooded with wetness. He took his cock out and fingered me a bit, making me come more. I had to lay down to rest for a while after. I was in a wonderful state of subspace.

He topped off the show with a sybian ride, but first I had to earn it by licking his ass. He had me rub his ass a bit and as I looked at it I was filled with dread. I know analingus doesn’t bother some people but it’s not one of my favorite things. I did as I was told, however, and humiliatingly ate out his ass while our guest watched. Quite a bit of humiliation play let me tell you.

On the sybian, he teased me for a bit and then I came shrieking and screaming, burying my head into his chest. I think he and our guest were quite amused at watching me lose all control like that. He had our guest spank me while I rode the sybian and I loved being spanked during it. The whole experience was exceptional. If every time could be so intense, nasty and hot, I would just live in perpetual heaven. (Not that I don’t already come close, mind you.)

Later that night our friend came over and I got to use my strap on harness on her. But you will have to go to the review to get an account of that.

Oh and a little tidbit – the needles MasterDoc ordered for needleplay came in!

It Started with the Nipples

Published on December 16, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, humor, masturbation, orgasm on command, sex, shio, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

He asked me to massage his calf as he lay on the sofa, his feet in my direction. I massaged the closest one, propped up on the back of the sofa. After a couple of minutes of this, he points out that massaging his calf makes his cock hard. Indeed, it is standing at attention. He commented on how that’s funny.

“Maybe it’s because I’m catering to your every whim,” I suggested.

“Yes. Maybe that’s it. Now remember what makes me hard,” he says with a grin. We are definitely people who are wired a bit differently when it comes to sex.

We were slowly making our way to the bedroom and I hadn’t had a chance to make up the bed yet. I needed to move pillows around, take the blanket off, lay the throe down. I point this out just as he lays down on the bed with his laptop. “The things I do for you,” he grumbles as he gets back up. I laughed and said, “Oh yes, you get up and allow me to make your bed.”

Needless to say my collar was not on yet. We both chuckled.

Everything settled, we lay on the bed. He rolls over from looking at the laptop and is face to face with my tit. He starts sucking on my nipple and does it so well. He doesn’t just latch on and suck like some guys do, he licks, sucks, tugs, swirls his tongue over it. He varies it enough that it’s nothing but exciting. I close my eyes and get all sorts of turned on.

He has me shift so he can reach my pussy and he slaps it, alternating with feeling around my cunt to see if I’m wet. I got really h0rny from the nipple teasing but, sadly, not wet. He sucked on the other nipple and again I was lost in reverie although somehow a little bit less this time. (I started analyzing how most guys suck nipples compared to what MasterDoc does.)

Enough of toying with my body – he had me suck his cock. As always I enjoyed it. I sucked it in deep and tried to make it touch the back of my throat. I do this for quite a while, and then he makes me shift so I’m between his legs. My mouth back on his cock, he laces his fingers in my hair and says he’s going to try a little bit of face fucking. I hold my head still and he thrusts a little into it. He’s relatively gentle, probably because we’ve never done this before. I gag a bit but manage to hold it in, and my mouth floods with saliva. I eventually have to take my mouth off to let the dam of saliva out. But I thought the whole thing was really hot: his using my mouth like an object, feeling his hands in my hair holding my head.

He fucked me from behind. I had lubed myself up so I was ready. (The spirit is willing but the flesh is a bit dry.) After a while, he takes a break to deal with penis, which has started not to cooperate. I reach back and start stroking my clit at just the right time – he says he was just about to tell me to lick his ass to help get him fully hard again. I get really worked up stroking that throbbing, jutting clit of mine. My clit is fairly big without being very big. It’s not hard to find it, but it doesn’t resemble a small penis. He fucks me again. I get close to coming but alas the pain in my knees outweighs the pleasure eventually.

He has me get the Liberator axis and a blindfold. We put porn on the laptop and masturbate side by side. He gets on top, and I put the blindfold on. He fucks me slowly and deeply. The axis makes him get in quite deep without trying. He gets me worked up with alternating faster fucking. And suddenly, he tells me to come. I can feel my vagina of steel clamp down and his cock slowly pushed out. He slaps pussy, rubs clit with an index finger and I keep on coming. I squirt as he keeps up the teasing touches and I grasp his arm that’s beside me, supporting his weight, as I gasp and come. He gets his fingers poised at my hole. I so want him to finger fuck me, and I’m sure he knows that at those moments I ache desperately for it. He thrusts his fingers in and I come even harder.

I was in ecstasy. I could do nothing immediately after but smile at him goofily.

As I come to my senses I stroke his chest. He comments that I know how to make him feel good, and I was stroking exactly how he had once told me to remember. I start to think nasty thoughts. I think to myself that I actually want him to make me lick his ass. I’m at the point where I want him to make me do things I don’t like because, well, the power exchange involved would be hot. The act of licking his ass isn’t erotic for me in and of itself, but the idea that I’m doing it as a submissive, to please him, is hot. I play with cock and ass as he lays on the bed. I start to snuggle his tummy and chest and lick and kiss. He’s clearly enjoying this while I apply pressure to his perineum. He gets up on hands and knees, still not sure if he’s going to have me lick his ass. He strokes his cock while I massage his back, then ass. I realize that he would like his ass licked, and so without even being told to, I take it upon myself to go at his ass with my mouth and tongue to make him feel good. He really enjoys it. And I think he was probably a bit surprised at how I dove right in; first nibbling one cheek, then the other, then pulling his ass apart so my tongue could reach the puckered hole.

He has enough my oral ministrations after a little while. (And I have the thought that it would be neat to get ice cream as a reward when I do it. *grin* I don’t say this while my collar is on - it wouldn’t be appropriate at all.) I lube up my fingers and start to massage his ass. I gently work finger in, feeling the series of muscles as I make my way into his asshole. I push towards the prostate in the front. I think to also massage his perineum with my thumb while doing this. He seemed to really like it. I follow his directions to press harder on the prostate. A feeling of power comes over me as he grunts and comes. Very strange when, within a submissive place, I found there’s a sort of power in being able to make him feel so good. I lay down with a self-satisfied grin after.

I have the bratty thought that it would be funny to offer him my finger to lick. I hold back because my collar is still on.

He asks me to heat a plate of food for him and in case you’re wondering, yes I did scrub my hands well before preparing his food. But I couldn’t resist, after my collar was off, pointing out to him that if he’s so sure that ass-to-mouth is safe, then it really shouldn’t have mattered if I prepared his food with my finger still covered in essence d’ass. He said, yes, that’s true. Perhaps one day if I’m feeling ballsy I’ll try this out.