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Pegging My Dom

Published on January 11, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, anal, blow jobs, kink, sex toys, spanking, submissive, sybian and threesome. 1 Comment

Over the weekend, I saw a bit of DeeDee and MasterDoc while DeeDee was visiting for a week. I arrived when they were just starting a show; MasterDoc had sent me a text telling me to be in sub mode when I walked in. Their guest was a guy writing book with chapter on BDSM, looking to research it for the book. From what I heard he had some erroneous ideas about BDSM. Hopefully he will listen to what he learned from DeeDee and MasterDoc and write something at least somewhat accurate. (I’m not holding my breath.) I hid myself in the bedroom while they did their show, and it was incredibly hot to listen to the spanking from there. The pitch rose until DeeDee was begging to come. Rowr. I got called in, and found DeeDee on the sybian. MasterDoc wanted me to help paddle her while she came. I gleefully obliged. He said I wasn’t hitting her hard enough but her butt was definitely more rosy after I paddled her. She recovered on floor after, and while he tended to her, MasterDoc had me lead the guest out. When their guest mentioned needing a place to sit to put on his shoes, I p0inted out that there’s chairs in the dining room. Dickwad looked at me, said, “Yes I saw that.” So much for trying to be gracious and helpful. I wasn’t just being a sub, I was trying to be a decent hostess. Snide comments are not appreciated. Jerk.

During the visit DeeDee did a lot of the fetching but I got asked to chip in with some cleaning. I was happy to have some help , but when DeeDee would do something like get me a drink, I felt weird being at all waited on. I’m not used to that. My mother used to tell me I’m spoiled, but it dawned on me that night that I got used to caring for myself at a fairly young age. MasterDoc pointed out that I let Davey do stuff for me, but I pointed out that initially he had to convince me he wanted to do that. I would do stuff myself and he’d get frustrated because he likes feeling needed.

The plan for the evening was for me to use a strap on on MasterDoc. Yes. You read that right. It’s rare that he lets a woman peg him, and he only ever lets submissives do it – while another lady blows or plays with him. These criteria need to be met before he will do it. He’s talked for a while now about letting me do it, since we’ve developed an adequate level of trust. (The last time was years ago with his submissive at the time.) It’s funny, because usually he’s totally comfortable with liking anal stimulation as a straight guy. He’s really sex positive and not the least bit homophobic usually. But when a strap on enters the picture, he gets a little funny. He has to have another woman sucking him off at the same time so it’s “not gay.” He admits it’s absurd, but he’s to some extent a product of his generation.

We were setting up in the living room, and chatting, trying to ease into the scene. Somehow in the course of conversation I came out with, “In my time we had to walk down to the store to buy porn! We didn’t have the internet!” as an “In my day we had to walk a mile, uphill, both ways to get to school,” sort of thing. We laughed and talked about coming up with more. I thought for a bit and came up with, “In my time we had to use Crisco because there wasn’t lube at the corner store!” Hopefully I will manage to come up with a few more. (Can you think of any?)

I got down to business working MasterDoc’s ass over – massaging, lubing – while DeeDee sucked his cock. I gradually worked a finger in at his request and after trying to loosen things up gently with my finger I gradually worked a butt plug in. After some play with the plug, MasterDoc decided he was ready and he got on hands and knees as it seemed the best position. I had my harness on with my red glitter, silicone dildo, a slim one I specifically bought a few years back to peg boys with. MasterDoc kept telling me to add more lube, and my hands were so slippery I could barely handle the lube bottle! Getting lube into his ass was tricky. We need to get one of those applicators that let you apply lube inside the anus. Lubed as much as I could get him, I tried to get the dildo in. DeeDee was playing with his cock in the meantime. I’m not sure how much of the dildo got in there, probably very little. MasterDoc had me stop for a minute because it hurt, and by then my knees had given out from kneeling on the floor. We had to stop for the night. So it wasn’t entirely successful, but we gave it a shot. I’m sure we’ll try it again sometime.

As I was quite horny at the tail end of the week, and hadn’t had sex in a few days, MasterDoc offered me a horsey (sybian) ride. I had a hard time getting into mood though. Sometimes I can pop on top of the dildo and get warmed up as we go, but I needed foreplay before sticking anything in me that night. MasterDoc worked on it, sucking my nipple and such. As DeeDee walked by to go to the kitchen, he got her to come in and suck on my other tit, and I played with my bullet vibe on my clit. Turned on enough that I might come if we went further, he put me on the sybian. MasterDoc had DeeDee paddle my ass like I had done to her. She did it too light, unfortunately. I managed to come even though it was hard to get myself in quite the right headspace that night. All in all, everyone got some attention that day. I slept in the spare bedroom since it was DeeDee’s weekend with him, and to be quite honest sometimes I’m thrilled to sleep alone. I sleep so much better without a snoring guy beside me. It can be nice to have someone next to you, but I treasure those nights alone too.

I made a concerted effort to not take too much time from DeeDee while I hung out with them. Not sure how I did, but at one point I was hit with an attention craving, and I reasoned it out rather than asking for attention. Would I fall into a depression or anything serious without the attention? No. Could I “suck it up buttercup” and take care of myself that night? Yes. And so I did since I didn’t want to infringe on DeeDee’s time too much. I think I was more comfortable than I usually am. I think I’ve grown a bit more secure lately. Of course, in a depressed mood that could disappear into the ether, but for now I’m feeling good.

Day of Debauchery

Published on December 19, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, analingus, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, bondage, caning, exhibitionism, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sadism, sex, sex toys, show, spanking, submissive, sybian and threesome. 0 Comments

Friday was quite a full day of pervyness with MasterDoc. Early in the afternoon, he had a lady who’s a switch come over with the intention of her helping top me. But somehow he found out that she also has a swing profile and he proceeded to look up the profile and read it out loud to her. He teased her mercilessly as it’s quite a slutty profile. (Yeah, like either of us have an issue with sluts. They’re our favorite people!) She turned red and we all laughed so hard. When he got to the point about how she can come from just neck/ear nibbling or nipple stimulation he said, “Oh yeah?” and proceeded to play with her neck. The laughing stopped around then, and she was immediately in a horny reverie, head tipping back, mouth open. He took out one breast and I took out the other, and the two of us made her come from just sucking on her nipples. It was loads of fun. He teased her sadistically some more, and somehow none of us ever ended up naked. But we had the best time laughing and teasing. I’m hoping we get to see her again soon. (And while I was perfectly happy with how the visit turned out, I do look forward to being topped by two people at once someday!)

Later in the afternoon, an Irish guy who had watched a show before came over to see us again. MasterDoc put me over the Liberator scoop, used the wrist and thigh cuffs to attach me to the scoop, and spanked my ass. It felt more sting-y than usual yesterday and the canes smarted something awful. He alternated with the riding crop as well which was easier to handle. His wooden paddle was almost unbearable. He helped me deal with the pain by putting the magic wand up against my cunt while he spanked me some more. I did my best to grind my clit against the wand, but it was always just slightly off to the side of the ideal spot. But I got so hot, and so far into subspace, from that beating/teasing combo. He let me lay over the scoop for a few minutes after so I could come down a bit.

He took off the wrist cuffs and I felt floaty when I got up. I knelt before him, he was seated on the couch, and sucked MasterDoc’s cock. He did a little face fucking again, which produced lots of drool. It’s not easy being gagged like that but I do think it’s terribly hot. The river of drool that comes out as my mouth is pulled off is really sexy in a nasty sort of way. Earlier, he had told me I’m a dirty slut and made me admit that I wanted to be used in front of our guest. The low growl to his voice as he makes me look him in the eye and say these things get me so hot. I feel embarrassed but oh so turned on.

He had me warm up on the floor mat with the magic wand. I couldn’t look our guest in the eye too often but I did get myself very close to orgasm quickly. MasterDoc fucked me from behind for a bit and the feel of his cock inside me while I pressed the magic wand to my clit would have easily been enough to send me (way) over the edge. But I wasn’t given permission to come just yet. I had to pull the wand away from my clit a bit to ensure I didn’t come accidentally. But it felt so good and I wanted to come so badly.

Our guest had told MasterDoc beforehand that he wanted to see me fucked up the ass, and so MasterDoc pulled his cock out and lubed up my ass and my slender, red glitter dildo. He slid the dildo into my ass to warm me up and it felt great as he fucked me with it. I think I’m still a little surprised at how aroused I can get from anal stimulation. This didn’t last long, and MasterDoc put his hard cock against my hole. For a moment it felt like it wasn’t going to go in, but then it pushed past my sphincter. Holy shit did it feel good to feel his large cock in my ass. He fucked me hard while our guest watched and I moaned like a bitch in heat. MasterDoc talked dirty to me, telling me I’m a good little three hole slut and other equally hot, nasty things. He knows that telling me I’m a slut, whore, fucktoy, etc. will get me off even harder.

When he told me to come, I came so very hard. I screamed, my head slid forward off the mat. He kept fucking my ass and I must have gotten absolutely flooded with wetness. He took his cock out and fingered me a bit, making me come more. I had to lay down to rest for a while after. I was in a wonderful state of subspace.

He topped off the show with a sybian ride, but first I had to earn it by licking his ass. He had me rub his ass a bit and as I looked at it I was filled with dread. I know analingus doesn’t bother some people but it’s not one of my favorite things. I did as I was told, however, and humiliatingly ate out his ass while our guest watched. Quite a bit of humiliation play let me tell you.

On the sybian, he teased me for a bit and then I came shrieking and screaming, burying my head into his chest. I think he and our guest were quite amused at watching me lose all control like that. He had our guest spank me while I rode the sybian and I loved being spanked during it. The whole experience was exceptional. If every time could be so intense, nasty and hot, I would just live in perpetual heaven. (Not that I don’t already come close, mind you.)

Later that night our friend came over and I got to use my strap on harness on her. But you will have to go to the review to get an account of that.

Oh and a little tidbit – the needles MasterDoc ordered for needleplay came in!

Play Piercing

Published on December 9, 2009 in Uncategorized, bdsm, edge play, kink, masochism, needle play and sybian. 5 Comments

Last night I got to be play pierced for the first time.* MasterDoc made the acquaintance of a young kinkster who’s into piercing. We met up with her last week just to say hello and then last night she came over to MasterDoc’s place to pierce me. I was so excited!

Before

Here’s my back before the piercing. The only marks there are light red stripes from the pressure of my bra.

The artist at work

Here’s the artist at work. Note the latex gloves. All safety precautions were followed. Please, if you’re going to play around with needles, learn the safety precautions first. An infection after the fact is not fun. My back was thoroughly spritzed with alcohol and it was allowed to try thoroughly – twice.

Needles in place

Here’s all the needles in place. MasterDoc did a few. He of course has needle experience from being a doctor, but doing it for fun was new to him. Two gauges of needles were used – 26g and 22g. With gauge, the higher the number the thinner the needle. Back when I had my nostril done it was pierced with an 18g. They would each warn me before sliding the needles into my flesh. I’d take a deep breath and sometimes let out a yelp when it hurt. Different needles felt different – the upper back was much easier than the lower back. MasterDoc mentioned that there’s fewer nerve endings up there. Some needles barely felt like anything, some stung for a while after the piercing. But like getting my nose pierced, it doesn’t hurt nearly as bad as the needle phobic would think it does. It’s a very brief pain. Endorphins started to flow and I tried to just lay there and enjoy the ride.

Pretty corset piercing

And then our new pal laced ribbon around the needles to create a pretty corset pattern. MasterDoc took the photos and I lay there for a while after enjoying the sensation. Only 12 needles were used and I’d like to try more next time. I think with more I’d experience more of an endorphin rush. The piercer enjoyed looking at her handiwork while I relaxed.

They took the needles out after a while – I’m not sure how long as I lost track of time. But the entire thing took less than an hour. I could feel the needles drag through my flesh as they were pulled out. But again, it only hurt momentarily. One or two bled slightly, but there was only a negligible amount of blood.

When I sat up, I felt woozy. It was definitely a “high” sort of feeling. I sat and had some water before we moved onto the next activity – MasterDoc gave me a sybian ride. You’ve all read stories about the sybian, this time was no different. I came hard and was lost in lalaland during the ride. I had to lay down after, and wow was that an intense evening! I could have used cuddles after but somehow they got lost in the shuffle. Being held after an experience like that would have been so wonderful. I slept well last night and my back feels totally normal today. (Note: In all fairness, MasterDoc threw his back out fixing the bed I was going to sleep in that night. He wasn’t up for cuddling because he was in pain.)

*At Floating World I had an experience with piercing, but not quite what I wanted.

Pee-Shy

Published on November 30, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anxiety, bdsm, blow jobs, bondage, caning, dom, edge play, embarrassment, emotions, exhibitionism, flogging, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm on command, piss play, restraints, sadism, sex, sex toys, shio, show, spanking, squirting, submissive and sybian. 3 Comments

I was feeling extra shy and anxious about the show MasterDoc had planned this morning. I knew that the guy coming liked to watch women pee; he had watched DeeDee on one of her recent visits. I am super pee-shy. I get anxiety just from trying to pee in a crowded public restroom – and that’s from within a stall where I’m by myself. MasterDoc joked with me today that he wondered what my mother managed to do to me when being potty trained that I should have such anxiety issues. Max Lagos asked me on twitter why I was pee-shy. I know intellectually that we all pee, it’s no big deal, it’s merely releasing waste liquid from your body. But somehow at a deep subconscious level I feel anxious about it. It’s embarrassing. It’s something that’s supposed to be totally private. I hated hearing about DeeDee’s experience. Just hearing about it was painful.

MasterDoc reassured me that it’s not a big deal if I couldn’t manage to do it. He tried to allay my anxiety but I still thought to myself, “I need drugs! Now! Tranquilizers! Alcohol!”

When our guest showed up he asked me how the library business was. I figured MasterDoc had mentioned what I do, or the blog or something, but our guest told me that he had seen me before a while ago. It must’ve been one of the shows earlier on in my relationship with MasterDoc. I did panic for a few moments wondering if I knew him from where I work. I think I just eventually got to the point, as I was sucking MasterDoc’s cock, that I was in for a penny, in for a pound and should just go with it. Whoever this guy is he already knew I’m a submissive slut.

MasterDoc had me go back to suck his cock for a while. I had been in the middle of doing that when our guest buzzed the door. I did lots of deep throating when I went back to sucking him, and focused totally on the blow job. He had me take his cock out of my mouth for a moment and look up at him while he stroked my cheek with his cock. He had me take the head just a little bit into my mouth, still looking at him. Eye contact with MasterDoc is hot for me, but eye contact with others is really difficult.

MasterDoc bent me over the scoop on the floor. He asked if I wanted to be bound with the wrist and thigh cuffs and I said yes. Even though the position might have potentially been uncomfortable I was keen enough to try it because I’ve craved bondage. He beat me with two of the canes, the two floggers. I focused on breathing in order to deal with the pain. He told me to look at our guest, and I could barely fix my eyes on him for more than a split second. I kept closing my eyes and looking down. Eye contact is harder for me than many other things. Pee on me. Make me lick your ass. But please don’t make me make eye contact with someone I don’t know. With my anxiety level already high, it was exceptionally hard.

Apparently the flogger left a nice pattern on my upper back and the canes left a nice pattern on my butt. Unfortunately there was no camera handy. MasterDoc dipped his fingers into my cunt to see if I was wet, and I was so wet you could hear the squishing. He caned me some more and then released me from the bonds. I kept laying face down over the scoop because I didn’t want to see our guest.

MasterDoc had me sit face up with legs spread, but he let me wear a blindfold. I used my bullet vibe on my clit, and as usual I felt turned on knowing there was an audience but not being able to see said audience. MasterDoc had me turn back over. He lubed up my ass with his finger in case he decided to fuck my ass. I rubbed the vibe against clit and moaned as he fingered my ass. He backed off a bit and said, “Show me how much you want it. Show me how much you want my cock.”

I was writhing and humping the vibe. He had me get up on my knees to get fucked from behind. After some thought as to which hole he’d take, he fucked my cunt. The blindfold allowed me to relax and focus on what was going on. When he let me come I squirt a huge puddle all over pillow and rug. (Next time I will hopefully remember the throe.) He kept me coming a good long time and I squirted more than once.

After a rest, MasterDoc decided to put me on the sybian since I had been a good girl this weekend. But I first tried to nonchalantly ask if I could go use the bathroom. MasterDoc picked up on my attempt at passing it by him and right away asked me, “What for?” When I said I had to pee I covered my face with my hands and felt embarrassed. But there was no letting me off. The two men followed me into bathroom. I was instructed to sit on the toilet leaning back, with my legs spread. I tried to pee, really I did. MasterDoc asked me if I’d prefer looking at him or eyes closed. Definitely eyes closed! Our guest ran the water faucet in the sink. That didn’t help. I couldn’t help but laugh when MasterDoc added in the bathtub faucet. I struggled with trying to relax my sphincter. I shifted my weight around, put my hands up to my face; I was really fidgety. They eventually left me alone but I’m wasn’t supposed to go without letting them know. I still couldn’t pee. Several more minutes passed, and MasterDoc came in to tell me that our guest had said to let me off the hook about peeing, and get me on the sybian. MasterDoc let me pee without an audience but with my anxiety level so high I still had some trouble. Eventually, I managed to get a little out and I rejoined them in the living room.

We got me situated on the sybian. MasterDoc told me that as I’m working up to coming I can look down or at him, but when I’m ready to come I have to look at our guest as I ask permission until MasterDoc gives me permission to come. I find that even with sybian cranked up I can’t overcome my anxiety over making eye contact. It’s clear to MasterDoc that I’m overwhelmed by anxiety when I don’t come or even seem all that close to coming. He finally gives me permission to just come, and even then it takes several seconds before I can truly orgasm. I bury my head in his chest and hump the sybian as I come.

Our guest leaves after this, telling me he likes my smile as he says goodbye. I’m so embarrassed I can barely look him in the eye. I curl up on the sofa with the throe over me while MasterDoc walks him to the door. I’m feeling a little like I’m in shock, or having a touch of PTSD. I think it’s just that extreme anxiety will cause me to get a little triggered. After some talking with MasterDoc about the experience and how I felt, I calmed down and the bad feelings went away. I wonder if it would have helped to have me pee in front of MasterDoc before trying a stranger. I can pee in the same room as Davey or MasterDoc, but I have only once in my life had someone actually watch me pee. (And that was totally not erotic to me and I had a hard time then too. It was about 10 years ago with the guy who was my boyfriend at the time.) It made it even harder knowing that they (MasterDoc and guest) would enjoy seeing my embarrassment and struggle with this task. MasterDoc was not at all upset with me for not being able to do it, but the experience was stressful on the whole. Luckily, we went out for tea (sandwiches, scones and a large selection of teas to choose from) after and this very urbane meal helped me feel more centered and relaxed.

MasterDoc asked me if the experience was at least hot, and I had to admit that I was too anxious to feel turned on. The caning turned me on. Using the bullet vibe on myself turned me on, but any eye contact or pee attempts freaked me the hell out. I was feeling a little bit hot about the idea before our guest arrived. But with someone there I don’t know, I was overly anxious.

Halloween Party

Published on October 31, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, dom, exhibitionism, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, sex parties, sex toys, slut, spanking, submissive and sybian. 2 Comments

Friday night MasterDoc and I went to a popular fetish/swing party that happens every Halloween. It took place at one of the swing clubs we frequent, but the place was packed! There was a wide variety of people there – some people who were too young, skinny and “pretty” to be interested in me, but I did realize that I’m not really into that type anyway. I see a big, curvy ass and I’m far more turned on than by some woman who is lean and curveless. Just not my type. I can look at skinny women and appreciate that they’ve managed to pull off what society deems desirable and a lot of other people would definitely be attracted to them, but it doesn’t get my juices flowing. I like nice, full breasts and a butt that’s spankable (even if I’m just going to enjoy watching MasterDoc do the spanking).

I dressed in a maid costume. It seemed particularly appropriate for a sub to wear to a bdsm-themed party. I had even splurged on black patent platform heels to go with it (they were on sale, I couldn’t resist). The shoes looked fabulous but my feet were in agony in about 15 minutes and I switched back to flats. I’m not a high-heel wearing type of girl. I was also phenomenally tall when wearing those shoes. I’m tall to begin with, I don’t really need heels. MasterDoc went as … a doctor. Yup, quite a stretch there. He dug out one of his many white doctor coats and put tape over his last name (his name is embroidered on each with, of course, M.D. at the end). I had hoped to get a nurse costume so I could match but I didn’t find one that I liked AND could afford. (Liberator has an amazing latex nurse costume!)

As the place was packed, my shyness set in. MasterDoc is more social than I am, so I think it’s hard for me to go to parties with him in some respects because he talks to and does things with other people more easily than I do. I think he sees himself as somewhat shy too, but he’s much better being social and flirty than I am. I kind of retreated into myself as he gave the first sybian ride of the evening. I enjoyed watching, certainly. But I kept to myself. My way of easing into parties like this is to play with whoever I’ve come with and hope that others will approach me to play after they’ve seen me come like a lust-crazed madwoman. I get people to come to me as I’m utter crap at going to them.

My anxiety eased when MasterDoc put me over the spanking bench and beat me really hard. He had me get the bullet vibe so I’d have it handy, and I clutched the vibe by the wire as he started spanking me. He warmed me up with his hands, and shortly after started in with the slut impression paddle. I winced as I clutched the spanking bench. He let me use the bullet vibe on my clit, and I had it buzzing away as he started using the wooden paddle. He switched off on implements, and my ass must have been so red. I really took a good, long beating. My pain tolerance goes up around my period and it had just started last night. He got someone to hold our flashlight so that it shined on my red ass. He knows that it turns me on so much for him to do that and point out to me that I’m in the spotlight like that. Between the pain, the attention and the bullet vibe I came so hard after he told me I could come when I wanted. He kept spanking me as I came and the pain added to my orgasm. I’m surprised I didn’t squirt. It took me a while to get my head back to earth after that.

There was social time in between when we wandered around. We hadn’t planned on my having a sybian ride as I’m only a week and a half post surgery. But I realized, and pointed out, that I’d just be contracting the same muscles I contract during orgasm otherwise – and I’ve come really hard a few times since surgery (after a week’s break). The sybian was set up right in the middle of the open area, so there were lots of onlookers as he gave me a ride. He made me hold off coming, and when I begged for orgasm he made me repeat it until I was begging loud enough for the room to hear me above the music. I was screaming in orgasm for what felt like forever. (Apparently the crowd burst into applause as I came – I didn’t remember this. Heh.) I humped the sybian and ground my clit into the nubby pad. I alternated between “oh my god” and “oh yes yes!” and just high-pitched squealing. I was an orgasm at that moment – everything else about me was put on hold. Surprisingly (to me) other women were totally hesitant to try. I mean, Jesus if I saw a woman having orgasms like the ones I had I’d have signed right up for a ride! MasterDoc suggested that perhaps I had set the bar too high.

It was a long evening, another scene was me sucking his cock as we sat on a sofa by the bar. I like being out in the open like that while he has me suck him. I was really into giving head last night. It does a slut proud to make her Dom groan in pleasure.

MasterDoc spanked the lady who had brought the sybian. She could take quite a spanking. I held the flashlight so that her ass and pussy were the center of attention in the otherwise dark room. He used the paddles and alternated pushing the acuvibe against her pussy. It was hot watching her ass get so red and MasterDoc wielding the paddles. I really do enjoy watching him in action. After she came, she and MasterDoc sat down on the side of the spanking bench, and he spanked her pussy and thighs until the swollen lips were bright red. She clearly enjoyed the beating as much as I enjoy a beating. And his sadistic tendencies were at the fore last night. I think he spanked her even more after that.

Later in the evening, MasterDoc took me to one of the back rooms to fuck. We lounged on the bed in there and I sucked his cock hard. Another couple – the woman of which was the only other “maid” there – fucked in a chair as we did this. MasterDoc fucked me hard, oh deliciously hard. He had me begging to come, and he kept his cock firmly embedded in me as I came. He’d slap my ass every so often. God, do I like my sex rough.

The evening wound down for us, but one very drunk young woman was being fucked at the bar by one of the sexy bartenders. (I think the bartenders, two lovely women, are girlfriends. We’ve seen them at the club before.) It was pretty hot to watch but I wouldn’t want to be that drunk during – I’d want to feel every second and remember it all for later.

There was also a woman there walking around with a cane – boy did I want her to cane my ass!

We got home around 4:30 a.m., tired but happy.

A Guest

Published on October 22, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunnilingus, kink, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, submissive and sybian. 4 Comments

The day before my surgery, MasterDoc had a professional fem Domme, Daina, come over to join us for some playtime (in a non-professional capacity). It seems that she’s at least somewhat switchy, and so was the perfect playmate for the two of us – Domme over me, sub for him.

As usual I loved watching MasterDoc subtly begin to undress her as the three of us talked on the couch, and soon he was stroking her pussy. He took one breast and had me take the other. He had me get the magic wand, and he got Daina off with it. My memory is a bit fuzzy since this was a few days ago and I’ve had general anesthesia in the meantime, but I will relate as much of the story as I can.

I had gotten out a bunch of toys at MasterDoc’s request by this time, and he had me place a pillow on the living room floor so I could kneel before the couch and suck his cock as he reclined comfortably. They took turns swatting my ass a little and talking about various implements while I went down on him. There was talk about tying me up (rope is something MasterDoc hasn’t mastered, but apparently Daina has some experience) I was really excited about this but in the end it didn’t happen.

We moved to the bedroom and MasterDoc had me get on my knees. I knelt over the new Liberator Axis I have (I swear, review will be coming soon!) and they took turns spanking my ass. She hit harder than he did – and he pointed out that fem Dommes are cruel. When I pretty much couldn’t take it any more, he had me flip over so I was laying on my back, the Axis holding my hips up, and Daina started playing with my pussy. She stroked my clit between her fingers, and eventually she went down on me. It felt wonderful and as I got closer to coming MasterDoc started slapping my face and tits, talking dirty to me, and he told me to come and I squirted all over my new pillow.

He fucked me next, him on top of me, my hips raised again by the Axis. Even though I had just come, I was eager to come again. (I’m really pretty insatiable most of the time.) And he fucked me until I was begging to come, and when he let me, I came hard, squirting all over my pillow again.

MasterDoc had promised Daina a horsey ride (i.e., a ride on the sybian) and before she left he fulfilled this promise – I perched on the sofa and enjoyed watching. She had said before coming over that she really needed a release of endorphins, and I think she left with the endorphins just flowing. A sybian orgasm is something else, truly.

That night, when MasterDoc and I were alone, he decided that he wanted to come. So I played with his ass as he masturbated – watching this porn, which we hadn’t finished before. When he was ready to come, he rolled towards me and told me to take his cock in my mouth. I did, and come shot up into my mouth. I closed my lips around his cock and he reminded me that the head is too sensitive, that he wanted me to put my mouth right down on his shaft and so I did, pleased to be such an active part of his orgasm.

Revelation

Published on October 14, 2009 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, anxiety, bdsm, bisexuality, depression, non-monogamy, poly, sex, sex toys and sybian. 0 Comments

For all my talk about what a sexually liberated woman I am, I have a sexual issue. I have been in denial about this issue, but now I feel like I can’t deny it any more. While I’m totally hot for women – I can’t make the first move. It’s a little like the people who have to be “forced bi” – the reality is they’re into the same sex but they have to feel like someone else has responsibility for what they do that’s homosexual. I at least get as far as knowing I want to have sex with women – that I’m not really being forced, I’m doing something I totally want to do. But I wonder if some of my hesitancy to initiate is that cannot admit to myself enough that I want to do it. This seems a little silly since I am quite happy and comfortable being bisexual. But I wonder if deep down there’s some sort of societal shame at play. Or maybe it’s just that sex is so much hotter for me when I’m Dommed. Now this hesitancy isn’t true 24/7 – sometimes I manage to get it on with women, but by and large it has to be in a party setting, a D/s setting, etc. I’m petrified at making the first move. Truly petrified in the sense of being unable to move. It’s damn frustrating.

I realized this because on Sunday evening DeeDee visited, and she had decided on her way up to New York that she was curious to really get it on with a woman, and since she likes me and we are comfortable with each other that she’d like to do it with me. (We have had some fooling around in the recent past, but I suppose not so much just girl-on-girl action but rather a threesome thing.) But when we got down to it, I froze. DeeDee, who is totally new at this, had to make the first moves and even then I kinda froze. It was weird and annoying.

MasterDoc eventually had me set things up in the living room – condoms, lube, toys, etc. when it became apparent that the “lesbian floorshow” as he was calling it wasn’t going to happen. As I was setting up the sybian for DeeDee’s promised ride after, he asked me to turn the light off so they could see the porn on the computer better. I grew annoyed, feeling like he was suddenly ignoring me because his focus was on cuddling DeeDee and watching the porn, totally not noticing that I needed the light on while I struggled with the sybian attachment. I snapped a little, and it was certainly awkward. MasterDoc reassured me that his plans were to fuck me and the two of them to work me over until I came a bunch of times, we just hadn’t gotten to that yet. Yet again he ended up talking to me (later, alone) about how I should learn to express how I feel before I get to the breaking point. I have such a hard time with it though. But I keep on working on it.

I lay on the mat on the living room floor, and MasterDoc handed me the magic wand. I used it on my clit as he and DeeDee played with my nipples and the rest of my body. As usual the wand makes me go from zero to 60 in something like six seconds. But he told me to take my time – don’t get myself too worked up right away. And so I played with the wand and ached to come. When I was clearly totally and completely hot and bothered, he fucked me from behind. DeeDee took the wand at his suggestion and used it on my clit – she had a bit of a hard time finding it so I placed the wand and eventually held it there.

Being fucked by a nice, large cock (attached to the Dom I love) and feeling the vibrations of the wand at the same time is stellar. He let me come and Jebus did I come hard. I think your average, sex-anxious, not sexually knowledgeable person would be quite shocked to learn just how hard a woman can orgasm. I orgasm harder with MasterDoc than even before – and I’ve always been able to come well, hard and often.

DeeDee got the attention next, and I sat down with a front row seat and watched MasterDoc give her a sybian ride. (By the way, I was out during the afternoon for a few hours and they had gotten freaky during that time, so DeeDee was not going home with just a sybian ride, although I suppose “just” isn’t a word people use for a sybian ride.) It is amazing to watch a woman come on the sybian. It turns her into a jellied mess, and her arms awkwardly reach out to grab onto MasterDoc as she groans and bucks her hips on the machine. Her head becomes buried in his chest one moment, and is leaning on his shoulder the next. She was pretty loud, and MasterDoc had me grab the new gag I have to use on her. She was probably only on it for about 5 minutes or so, but she said after that it felt like a half hour. Thus is the power of the almighty sybian. I said to her after, you know it’s a good orgasm when you feel satisfied just watching it.

It was a fun night, and MasterDoc certainly left us both sated. Unfortunately I dwelled on my little outburst earlier and got quite depressed. It wasn’t a rational depression but part of my dealings with clinical depression. I became suicidal and dwelled on the idea of hurting myself, or killing myself, or hoping that I die in an anaesthesia incident during my surgery next week. I ruminated on “everything” being my fault – within my family growing up, when things are less than perfect with MasterDoc. It was not pretty. I was numb, dwelling and playing a computer game when MasterDoc convinced me to go tuck him in. I opted to go to bed then, and I got some cuddles from him. I cried myself to sleep but thankfully felt a little better the next morning. The depression came back, but we talked, cuddled and he gave me a lovely beating.

To be continued…

Floating World, Day Three

Published on August 25, 2009 in D/s, DeeDee, Floating World, Uncategorized, bdsm, best sex bloggers, bisexuality, blog, blogs, bondage, cunnilingus, cunt, edge play, exhibitionism, kink, lesbian, masochism, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, poly, sadism, sex, sex parties, sex toys, sexuality, submissive, sybian and threesome. 2 Comments

After breakfast, the last day, MasterDoc and I went to the erotic hypnosis lecture. (I had developed a mini-crush on Lee Harrington the day before. I suddenly find myself attracted to butches and transmen when I wasn’t before. He is smart, funny and wonderful at leading a class… I’m smitten.) MasterDoc was hoping for a more detailed look at how to put a sub into trance, but I thought there was a good bit of info there. Next we went to the deep head space exploration lecture for a bit. I was tired and getting drowsy, plus the lecture seemed to get a little repetitive (a lot of stuff was also in the consensual non-consent class the day before). We snuck out early, got me a soda to wake me up and wandered around. MD went to check his cell phone for messages (keeping him apart from his Palm is a terrible thing). I went to vending and gave in to buying leather bondage waist cincher. I will try to get a photo of it on here in the coming days. I feel sexy in it and MasterDoc seemed to like it.

I got to meet Mollena, who I really wanted to meet. I love her blog, she’s an excellent writer and also does bdsm education (she did three classes at Floating World this past weekend). So I was all fan girl meeting her and when I told her I write Diary of a Kinky Librarian she stepped back, and bowed to me with arms outstretched above her head. I couldn’t believe it! I feel like I’m such a nobody and to have that reaction was really nice. She gave me a hug and I really hope I get the chance to hang out and talk with her at another event down the road. (I was hurrying off to a class at the time.)

I went to the managing a household lecture and picked up some tips and inspiration for being better at the service submissive side of things. After, I luckily found MasterDoc and DeeDee quickly – DeeDee had given in to buying a corset herself. MD said he wondered where I was and when I said I went to the household management class like I said I was going to – MD said he had thought it was a joke. But no, no joke. We went to vending at this time and he bought three canes as the deal was three for $50. We shall see how I like them when we try them out.

We went out for dinner, then back to DeeDee’s hotel room for a threesome. Since she hadn’t yet had an orgasm or sex that weekend, and in appreciation for giving MasterDoc and I time alone the night before, we focused on DeeDee (at least that was my inspiration). It was loads of fun. She lay on the bed naked between us. MasterDoc kissed her while I played with her nipples. I stroked her body as he went down on her for a while, and he popped his head up for a moment to tell me to be ready to take over. So when he finished I got between her legs and licked her cunt while he played with her upper half and kissed her. After a bit, I slid a finger in and stroked where I thought her g-spot was. (Yes, I’m a little clueless even after all this time – I estimate the location.) And later added a second finger. Her moans were enough to tell me I was doing a good job.

MasterDoc handed me the magic wand and I pressed it to her clit. She was in danger of coming (without having permission yet) and so I had to back off with the wand a little. MasterDoc got her on all fours and fucked her while I pressed the wand to her clit. She had to help reposition it a few times (you try keeping a wand on a clit that keeps moving as the woman gets fucked and you’re reaching around and under her!) She did get permission to come and came pretty hard. I really enjoyed watching and participating. It was all very hot. After, she said to me, “Nadia, you really know your way around a woman’s body!” So very nice to hear.

We got dressed and went to the play space (me in leather cincher and plaid schoolgirl skirt). MasterDoc’s sybian came out for the first time and we got it set up in the play area on a mat. I got to ride it first – the other two ladies lined up were nervous. I grinded my crotch into the machine as it vibrated against me. I begged for permission to come and was allowed to come right away. I came like a woman possessed. Jaw slack, moaning, screaming, crying out, “Oh fuck!” He kept me on there for a good long while and I came over and over again. He slapped my face a few times and I just loved it.

After me, another Dom’s sub had a ride. (He is the person who was at the party where I was assaulted who wrote to me via MasterDoc recently on fetlife to apologize for not speaking up. Anyway, we were friendly with him and his subs over the weekend.) She enjoyed herself, but didn’t come. She had gotten on with her panties on as it was that time of the month, and the lace fabric between her and the machine made the situation less than ideal. But she did enjoy it and wants to try again sometime. Her Dom cuddled her on the futon we had laid next to the sybian mat and I chatted with them while DeeDee got prepared for her ride. (This other sub is in library school – I ran into a fair number of librarians there!)

DeeDee received her first ride. It was fun to watch and MasterDoc motioned to me to get the paddle for him. He used the paddle a bit as she moaned and came. He handed it to me and had me paddle her butt as well. Then he had me slap her ass with my bare hand for a while. She was on the sybian a while and seemed to have a wonderful time. She also needed to lay on the futon and receive some after care. I cleaned up our stuff when it became apparent that no one else wanted to give the sybian a ride. (Their loss!) And I joined MasterDoc and DeeDee on the futon as I had very few cuddles that day. I was saying goodbye to MD and DeeDee shortly after that, and heading home. MasterDoc spent the extra night with DeeDee and took the train home in the morning.

Odds and ends: I loved how there was acceptance of so many kinks. There’s plenty of things there that I have no interest in doing (they just don’t turn me on) but people were free to do whatever they were into (within reason) fire play, pony play, age play, needles, blood, suspension, bondage, spanking, flogging, etc. etc. There was a diverse crowd there – women from Lesbian Sex Mafia, queer people of all stripes, straights, pansexuals, etc. and a great deal of acceptance for people being who they were.

We ran into some people we knew from around New York – the Dom that had come over months before with his three submissives – he was there with slave number one. I had hoped to run into someone I knew on fetlife who likes this blog, but she and I never managed to cross paths although she did run into MasterDoc in the hall at the hotel and introduced herself. It was nice to become friendly with that Dom who knew me from the bad party years ago. I saw Vera from FYN and chatted for a while. (And suggested that I can help write copy in exchange for product! I have copywriting experience.) We saw S’s daughter there (along with her friend the librarian I had a couple of dates with a while back who was with her when I saw her at In The Flesh). It was a little awkward as she’s not comfortable around MasterDoc (as he’s schtupping her mother and could conceivably tell her mother about her activities. Granted, her mother and her each know the other is kinky, but of course the details end there.) but she made a point to say hello to me when he wasn’t nearby. I saw MinaMeow and her girlfriend, and one woman Davey dates. I got to meet John Baku and remind him of the interview I did with him for Best Sex Bloggers that never got published. (He didn’t like how he sounded, and he’s not much for writing. I told him to let me know what he wants to say and I will work out how to write it. It’s not investigative journalism, more of a puff piece.) Anyway I’m not to worried about it at this point. It may never see the light of day.)

All in all, I had a good weekend, and I got home late on Sunday night. I was spent.

The Night of the Four Orgasms, Part II

Published on August 19, 2009 in D/s, DeeDee, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, horny, non-monogamy, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sex, shio, squirting, submissive, sybian and threesome. 2 Comments

I joined them in the living room, and MasterDoc had me get on my knees again and suck his cock. He had DeeDee find some porn on the computer, and she found a really fun one featuring a fucking machine that included jets of water. The lady in the video certainly seemed to be enjoying herself! Even though DeeDee was being punished, MasterDoc was affectionate and kissed and caressed her. He just didn’t give her any genital stimulation.

My first set of orgasms (as it was more accurately a set of multiple orgasms rather than just one) was pretty amazing to watch. After I got MasterDoc’s cock hard again he had me head back into the bedroom, and he fucked me from behind. Oh god, I was so horny and so happy to be fucked. I hadn’t been fucked in over a week. The hot porn played in the background, and MasterDoc had DeeDee come close to him for a kiss while he fucked me. (Yes, MasterDoc is a very lucky man.) He fucked me hard and soon I was begging to come again. He had me beg for a little while, and then he fucked me good and hard as he told me to come. My muscles didn’t push quite as hard as usual (I was paying attention to them in an attempt to keep him in, although I wasn’t letting it hold me back from coming since MasterDoc hadn’t told me to do that) and his cock kept fucking my hole. My head was up in the clouds as I came. He had me fall forward and rest, and he suggested that I get a sybian ride next. Oh my. I know that if I was in DeeDee’s position I’d be so hot and so raring for an orgasm myself.

I rested a bit on the bed, and they went off into the living room again. I turned to look at the porn and got caught up watching it. I brought the laptop out to the living room with me and complimented DeeDee on her taste in porn. MasterDoc had me set up the sybian, and I find that lately I’m really happy with just the flat top attachment – for me it’s the clitoral stimulation that gets me off.

So I knelt over the sybian, MasterDoc in front of me with the controls in his hand. I had my gag in so I wouldn’t disturb the neighbors when I came. He teased me for a while, working me up. I’d close my eyes uncontrollably, and then I’d pry them open to look into his eyes pleadingly, begging him to let me come with just my eyes. He pointed out the look on my face to DeeDee. Suddenly, he let me come and I convulsed in orgasm. I fell forward into MasterDoc, who held me, and my face was by his right shoulder, on the side where DeeDee was sitting. My eyes rolled back into my head, my hips bucked involuntarily over and over. I screamed through the gag. Jesus, he had me come over and over again. This was the third time that night I had a set of multiple orgasms, and I felt so lucky to be the recipient of such pleasure. Early on while I was coming on the sybian, I squirted a whole bunch all over the machine. I had to mop it up after – the spray of my juices was everywhere.

We relaxed for a bit, watched the porn some more. I eventually climbed off the sybian and lay on the floor for a while. I joined them on the sofa, and MasterDoc cuddled with DeeDee while we talked. He started to ask me if I wanted to fuck again. My god, I couldn’t believe my luck. Hell yes, I could go for more fucking!
To be continued….

Sybian and Butt Fucking

Published on July 15, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, bondage, masochism, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, squirting and sybian. 0 Comments

The problem with blogging a few days after an event, is that it’s hard to remember detail. If I had the chance to write this up days ago, it would have been more interesting.

Last Friday, there was no nooky between me and MasterDoc, but he did let me have a sybian ride. We only had the flattop attachment, as we discovered that afternoon that we had left the others at the last party we went to. I’m fine with the flattop though, as I find the sybian ride is mostly about clitoral stimulation for me.

He let me through three intense, amazing orgasms. During one of them, my hips bucked up involuntarily in a pulsing rhythm. When I got off, it turned out I had squirted as there was a spray of liquid in front of the attachment I rode. MasterDoc was a little surprised as squirting frequently requires g-spot stimulation on me.

Clever man that he is, he got me all orgasmed out on the sybian, then put me to work cleaning the kitchen floor! The floor was filthy and I had been thinking about cleaning it for him for ages, so in a way it was a relief to clean. But he only had a decrepit old mop to use, and I spent the entire time bending over, as if I was in a field picking cotton. There was no wringer for this cloth mop, so I bent over and used my hands to wring it out into the pail. Not fun. But I have to say the kitchen floor looks so much better!

Saturday night I saw him again, and the details are fuzzy. I know we had great sex. I know the magic wand was used. I remember that I used the tingling Wet Together (for her) lube and that really intensified the feeling of his cock sliding in and out of me. Rowr.

On Sunday, he was’t yet done with me. He bound me face down on the bed, and put the magic wand right near my clit. I struggled to wriggle down enough so I could keep the vibrating head right against my clit. He’d place it right up against me every now and then, and soon I was begging for orgasm. He let me come, and my body tensed against the cuffs binding me to the bed. This would have been enough for me, but he let me loose and got me to the end of the bed. He hadn’t assfucked me in ages, and he was determined to do it. His big cock slid into my tight asshole. It took a moment to accommodate him comfortably in there. He fucked me, and told me I could hold the magic wand against my clit. The weight of the wand eventually became too much for my hand, but in the meantime it enhanced his fucking my ass. It would hurt now and then, but somehow the pain would turn to pleasure. He let me come, and the combination of my full ass and the magic wand against my clit led to an explosive orgasm. I dropped the wand mid-orgasm and kept coming from the feeling of him fucking my ass. He called me a whore, and it made me come even harder.

I was spent after, and my poor hand was stiff and sore from using the wand. But it was totally worth it.